Today nothing much, just the usual routine and blah blah blah so on and so forth. However found out that my encik he is trying to put me on duty for the up coming deployment arh there goes my duty free days. However I will make the best out of it. anyway today went up S1 branch which is man power branch, and heard from this guy something mention about my posting. He can't be sure but I some how find that he is just trying to tease me anyway I won't take him words too seriously and I am quite contented to stay in the current place I am in. Besides I don't believe the evil chief clerk would galdy let me go. Anyway back to here, my friend one of my close friend weixin yeah finally manage to stay back in contact it like ya so happy becos I treated her one of my best pals since some years back. Sad to hear that her life was quite a mess anyway now she is better already hopefully everything wil turn out fine for her and ya I hope to see the past weixin, whereby the girl who I chatted with was full of confidence and full of laughters. Now apprantly I can't say much anyway have to see how things goes in future. Arh now comes the most headache thing quote of the day.
J Shall Lives On
Quote of the day: Having setbacks will only make one grow stronger in the future.
Jimmy stop typing at 10:51 PM
Well nothing better to do in camp so though might as well type something. Ya as I am writting this entry I am doing it in camp. Don be alarm, due to the fact that my company people are out in the out field and my encik insisted that be staying behind. So there I am left in camp with three other people and doing nothing. Well I am lucky my encik do let me stay back and help out cleaning up the office but how big can be the office be. I mean ya I do clean up then after that ya you are all right just plain slacking walking around aimlessly. Serisouly I am so bored that I have to come spec mess and use the comp to surf my blog and friend's blog. Happen to come across this blog and she says that brocolli is purple. Ya you see I mean purple ? We all seriously know that brocolli is green in colour. Plus green and purple is a different colour. Oh well I guess brocolli looks purple in her eyes. I don't mean to say anything but you all know right I shall say brocolli is green yeah.
J Shall Lives On
Quote of the day: Dying is not an option, it is a natural cause of death. People who choose to die only means he is escaping from reality.
Jimmy stop typing at 3:26 PM
Well this few days feel very restless and don't know what to type. Bascially I think I can get over her already but still what saddens me most is not she rejected me but becos of my own self. I feel so useless of myself feel that I am just a guy who no body will find anything in me. Looking at the other guys they got height, they got looks, maybe they even have better charactor than me. Guess I am just fated to be like this. Anyway yesterday call gui and ock to come my house play WE8, call along jeff also but he cannot make it due to school work. And this gui just manage to win us both in WE8 become so full of himself next time shall teach him what is the real WE8.
J Shall Lives On
Quote of the day: To recover from the setback, you must first hold yourself and stand up. No one will lend you a helping hand if you don help yourself first.
Jimmy stop typing at 9:05 PM
Well it really hurts to know the truth but it good that it comes early and so I can recover faster. Whatever is my fate I shall not accpet it and I will surely go against it. Sometimes it still hurts when I think of her guess we are just not fated. Guess I am just no fated with anyone. I don know why I think like this but I shall let everything go according to nature. Sometimes when I look at other people and look back at myself I find that I am alway lonely maybe I feel too lonely that why. Sometimes I wonder why are there flirt guys, I mean if you have a good gf why not be nice to her. Why still go around flirting and cause her to feel so miserable. And also deprive of her true love. There are guys out there who wants to have a relationship and no matter how hard he try he still got rejected, and there you see such guys go around flirting not treasuring what others are looking for so sincerly. Don because you have some talking skills some good looking looks you can get all what you want I can tell you this , it surely will not work out. I don even think he understands what is LOVE.
J Shall Lives On
Quote of the day: Love can be sweet, but after the sweetness come the bitterness.
Jimmy stop typing at 12:12 AM
Sigh yesterday went to meet her finally supposely should be a happy one however yesterday just meet up for a lunch only. The feeling is just not right I know it but she don tell me. I should have guessed it, to think I make a fool out of myself. I already sensed something yesterday and my sixth sense never fail me. Why rise up my hopes and only to be shattered totally? I have low confidence in myself and I should not let myself fall so deep in. What makes I think she will say no because I am a guy who got rejected again and again. I not forcing her to accept me I guess it just my fate. All fairy tales have to come to an end I guess my fairy tales have eneded time to wake up and face the reality and it is alway cruel. I spend my time almost walking lifelessly at orchard yesterday after meeting her, thinking of this problem true enough it happened. Chatted last night given me hopes, only to get an sms from you this morning to tell me ya your answer is no but we are still friends. Why friends only I can be only a friend but not a lover. Sometimes I really feel like breaking down but I can't I must not. I guess maybe it just not her. What is not mine no matter how hard I try to hold on to it , it will eventually fall out of my hands. I though my world has changed and it did change maybe from bad to worse, let this be the last one I think I have enough already.
J shall live on
Quote of the day: Love comes and goes, don't be sad pick yourself up and walk this path again eventually the true love will come to you.
Jimmy stop typing at 8:24 AM
OH man she is gone for three days already and it like three whole years to me. I can't believe it the time is like so long make me feel so unbearable. I really do miss her alot hopefully she get to feel this feelings of mine so far way. One thing is good she is coming back tomorrow so looking forward to that day. Well thinking of going to fetch her but she don't allow, will wait for her to call then say again. Just hope that time can pass more faster.
J² FOREVER
Quote of the day: A miss is an act of treasure of someone through the mind to the heart.
Jimmy stop typing at 8:56 PM
Sigh today supposely book out day should be a happy one but there is no one to share the happpiness with. Gone just like that but not gone forever will be miserable this few days. Guess I can live with it. Well today was a busy day alot of things to do until my head really hurts and feel so giddy almost feel like fever but it not how I hope it is haha. Today went up to S1 branch and they say I very twang I myself also don understand what it is but they claims to be very hardworking which I think is the exact opposite. Only to find out from my OC that it is not hardworking and indeed is the opposite make a big fool of myself luckily I never go around saying yeah I am twanging at my company line in the though it is hardworking.
J² FOREVER
Quote of the day: Absence makes the heart grow fonder. Missing someone from a faraway place is also another experience.
Jimmy stop typing at 7:01 PM
Well I myself was pretty shocked that ALPHA was given two nights out in a row it really a very rare sight maybe should go buy 4D who knows maybe it will open today or next coming sat. Today was a very good day nothing much happening basically but was very happy. Happy in a sense becos I feel my life maybe so much better already. So I am here again writting my blog but still I don know what the outcome yet, I don wish to think and maybe just let nature takes it course would be better. Today is Wednesday already and tomorrow thursday would be my book out day yeah and book in on tuesday. Can say this month is quite a slack month. Somebody once told me to win in gambling you must lost your love, and to have a love you must lose in gambling well this theory I don know should believe it or not but looking at my friend Lianseng, he is pretty much losing money only once in a blue mood he is winning maybe that day he quarrel with her gf that why he got a winning streak lol. I strongly believe in mj luck and skill are both equally important without luck you can't win but with at lease if have skill you will not lose that badly and if that day you have no luck means you will not have any luck. Strangely that how mj works so before go play mj advise you strongly pray hard maybe it will bring you good luck lol . However if gui you are reading this please do not attempt it because you don need any more luck since you are already alway so lucky haha.
J² FOREVER
Quote of the day : Love can give people the unknown strength, and that strenght is in turn used to protect his loved ones.
Jimmy stop typing at 10:06 PM
Well tonight got nights out so though of writting something. Something maybe good something maybe bad still too early to say. Well all I can say is I will really treasure this moment. How I hope this moment won't end if time is equal to infinite then the equation will be great infinite time means it will go on forever. Come back to reality however time is not infinite that why things are meant to be treasured and not abused of. Surely I will treasure all this moments n keep it deep inside my heart. I won't forget this no matter what happens, unless it happen with the other side if not this will go on forever. You people maybe won't understand maybe thinking I am talking rubbish but nevermind becos this message shall only be understood by one special person and that is enough already.
J² forever
Quote of the day: Love involves two people, just like two hands make a clap without any one hand no sounds will be made. so if there are no feelings at any one side then the sparks of love won't appear.
Jimmy stop typing at 9:23 PM
Yeah well something good looks like is coming what is it I will keep it a secret first until it is confirm. In the mean time I will work harder hopefully that day will come soon. Seriously speaking it really mood my day feel my life is more complete and there is a goal for me. But it really hard to say maybe it will end up badly anyway I will follow up on this as time comes.
J² forever
Quote of the day: Love can't be forced, give up if it really cannot work up but try your best if it is working out.
Jimmy stop typing at 9:27 PM
Well finally come to sat spend five days in camp finally got the chance to come back home. Next week I wonder what my fate will be like since my OC is posting out soon how i wish he will bring me along with him but I guess it impossible I am bound to retain at the current place I am in. Someone once told me don look things at one prespective and look things at different views different angles and I shall find out there are more than one answers to my life. Sounds enlightening I shall ponder about it. Sometimes I wonder what is my life about I feel I am just alone in this whole world I feel incomplete in exact I do have close friends but something is still missing in my life. Whatever maybe it will be completed as time goes by but I am sure right now or sometime this year it won't be.
Quote of the day: A man very last restort of waiting is devote and his very last love for her is to let go of her hand.
Jimmy stop typing at 9:55 AM
Well today got nights out so went home rest. Hope everyone can understand that I cannot everyday update due to the time I am in NS. I try to update every day if I can but most probably I can only update during the weekends. Today nothing particular happening nothing to highlight just another normal boring and hot day nearly got a heat stroke, Luckily nothing happen. This coming sunday there is something an event coming up. Ha ha will update again when the time draws near.
Quote of the day: Believe in oneself that you can do it and you will make the impossible thing happen.
Jimmy stop typing at 10:26 PM
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