Well it been a long time to write here, basically maybe I am tire or just nothing much is happening to me. My life is just pretty dull without any colours , who will help me paint the colours ? How I wish someone can just step in fill my world with the wonderful colours I been looking out for. Well maybe it just dream that I can see while sleeping. Anyway back to reality nothing much is changing, in camp everything is still the same , still as stress up. Try to help the men I got them and myself into trouble. Don help them , they will gang up against me it really is a tough choice. If I for myself I will be discrimented very badly however if not I will get all those extras. Oh man who can save me out from that hellish place? I pray and pray it don seems to come to my aid. Well maybe this is a test, but could I survive through is the problem. Anyway today have stomach flu don even know how I get it in the first place and get two days mc to rest at home. A long time ago I believe I can do much more that I could do however now I no longer am the old self I am from before. People do change I wonder am I changing to a better side or worse side.
J will live through.
Quote of the day: Don't let life discourage you; everyone who got where he is had to begin from where he was.
Jimmy stop typing at 12:23 AM
Well it hass been ages since I blog maybe becos I don know what to write ba. Today finally get to book out early as there is no indention of dinner, rush home like mad took a taxi scare I will be late and was so happy though finally can meet up with a friend so long never get to see her. Was planning on how to buy her a present as her birthday is coming next week. Well when I started my car engine and getting ready to go move only at that split second her sms reach my phone saying she is sick and she can't meet me. It not that I don trust her just that why am I alway so unlucky. Whoever I call to meet up will end up telling me ya I am sick or I got chicken pox. So i have to believe them cos they are my friends ? Becos I trust them? Now tell me who should I believe myself feelings more or them? Maybe they are really sick you all can tell me it does not matter. What matters now is that I think I know my own self limits more and more clearer now. I guess this is just my fate. Supposely should be a happy day one end up sigh nvm I guess I am just that one tragic guy. I mean I don blame anyone for my life if it is meant to be I guess by carry on walking this path maybe something really good will happen at the other end. I really hope so.
J will live through.
Quote of the day: To believe is the strenght to overcome obstacles, without this belief life will be utter meaningless.
Jimmy stop typing at 6:28 PM
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