So fast april is ending, today is the last day of april. However one guy he just has the power to spoil my day. I also don know how in the world did I make an enemy out from him. Hai forget it the more I mention the more boil I get. Anyway my blog skins I did get some help from my friends. Forgot to give them credits for that haha. Well thank you so much candy, thank you zegui and thank you jeff for all your help. Sigh my tummy is getting bigger I need to do some exercise ba. I shall do so running very soon. Yesterday buy three new games and one of them cannot play looks like have to go back and change. Lastly I guess it time to stop playing mj for the time, I shall wait until shuyan come back then I will play again. MJ losing streak does that mean love streak is coming ?
Jimmy stop typing at 12:51 PM
Yeah finally done in doing my skin, well the pervious skin fatal frame I find it too plain and too bright, so I choose another dimmer one and most important of all I choose kingdom hearts as the background. Actually I have another better in mind but however I can't use that skin which I also don know why. Well ock ar seriously it just slipped my mind that you are a MAN U supporter, yes although we know so long yet I never bothered to try to understand you at all.
Actually not that I purposely do it I really just happen to forget it. Hope you don blame me ok, I sincerly apologise to you already in msn but you choose to ignore me. Am I really that ungrateful in your eyes ? I also can't blame you or what for thinking that way but do try to understand me also mah. You also never bother to tell me anything so I must be very observant about you, your every move, your every speech should I take a note book and jot it down ? I seriously treasure you and everyone around me as my friends. Please don take that incident so seriously.
Anyone also want to be recognised, I trying my best to but is there anyone out there doing the same for me ? Hai is there anyone truely out there try to understand me? Although there are close friends around me but how much do they understand me? You know so many friends out there I do trust alex the most. I do trust them my close friends also but alex is different. He seems to understand more about me and he is the only one who can help me solve my problems. Yes I do feel bad for alway finding him when I am in trouble but I have no choice.
Lastly I change my tag board to a brand new one host by cbox. So now the board is empty looking forward to the tags.
Jimmy stop typing at 6:36 PM
Well sometimes when I review my life I know what I thinking is negative side, I know it not good but sometimes I just can't control it. Ya even though everyday I can be like laughing myself out but still negative side will come back somehow. Yes I know I trying very hard to control it but to no use. However don worry it not the end of the world yet so far I am still fine. The most stay this way or I will be happier that all. Everyday is a new day, a new begining for me. A view of the sunrise can be beautiful or ugly which depends highly on one person's mood while looking at it. So let say he is in a foul mood and he so happen to be looking at the sun rise, he will be saying the sun rise is not at all beautiful. However if at that time a person with a good mood is standing beside him, he will replied differently. Two years ago I got to know this girl who is my ex stead, well recently she just broke up with her bf. Then only a few days later she told me she find herself another guy already. So I was wondering and ask her how is he like. She told me she don know, and she is like trying out with him only. So now is it because she is too young that she don understand what is love ? Or because she feels she needs a protection against her own feelings that why she choose to test out that guy? For me right I feel why don she get to know him more before getting committed to him? Isn't that the more correct approach to relationship? I fear she will get hurt again if not it the other party. I being too impulsive that I accidentally hurt her in the process of trying to make her understand my point. Well then I did apologise to her in the end but still the problem does not solve and I fear the misunderstanding will deepen so I give up in trying to make her understand my point. So now love values are not worthy anymore, or is she just too young for it ? Whatever is the case I should not step in anymore it her relationship afterall. Lastly living through my 24 years of life I feel I still have not grown a bit yet. I feel I still like I never grow up. To tinkerbell thanks for tagging my board and yes I don deny challenges coming to me, and I know my fate is in control of my own hands. Maybe I just have not tried hard enough, if I myself don want to stand up no one can force me to stand. From where I fall I shall pick myself up don worry I will be fine and maybe stronger maybe it time to destroy the cassette tape already but I still can't put it down. I shall consider again then.
Jimmy stop typing at 5:12 PM
Well today is another boring sunday, stay at home whole day watch drama serial. I feel now my life is getting more and more boring although just yesterday went out with jeff, zegui , lianseng and yingbiao to eat at marina south steamboat. As usualy our choonfai never turn up went out to study. I still don get it whenever I ask fai about the question about him and her, he alway tell me like it not possible stuffs like that. Then he come up with funny question like how to ask her, then what if she agree to him. It like the feeling he is giving me is that he worries alot of factors. Ya I agree it also depends on her whether she got the feeling or not. Then ask how is possible to tell whether is also she interested in him. I mean more or less right he should know it. Hai fai ar if you are reading this , I can tell you that you are just feeling inconfident. Put in some trust and faith in yourself and believe that you can do it I am sure you will make it. Yes she is not an item correct but if you keep on holding back and back you surely will not make it. In life is like that isn't it ? Miss the train that it you never get to board the same train with her and ride together. However I can go around telling this and that but I just can't seem to apply it to myself. Maybe I wish not to see another poor soul like me so I hoping everything can make out for him or infact my friends around me. Everybody is like the main charactor I am just like a support charactor alway at the side or behind hardly being noticed. I guess that is just my fate for being short. Or I am just being punished sometimes I really hope I can just be another person I hate myself and I really do for being so useless, no talents at all only know how to play and a guy without any good points. Why I feel this way I also don know but all I know I have to live like that and maybe it forever who knows. I wish to change my fate but can I really make it ? I highly doubt so.................
Jimmy stop typing at 10:24 PM
Well finally reached 20th of the month, and yet I still don dare to do anything. I could have tried calling last night but I never yes I admit i am a coward. What to do it not that simple as you all think it is. Like just a give call can be how hard, never try how I know. I don need to try I already know the outcome. Am I deciving myself ? Am I really going to make it ? Or am I really degrading myself ? I just feel lost vex don know what to do. I really really would like to give a call and just get it over and done with but I just can't dail that 8 numbers. Oh man I guess it fated I should have given up earlier. Yesterday was listening to 933, one phase really get into me, why not try letting go, you will feel happier that way. I guess that really suits me.
And1 madness is really driving me crazy, I even bothered to e-mail the customerservice yet I never receive any reply. So I take it that madness extinct together with the dinsouars some time ago although the time difference are so big but they suffer the same fate. Well maybe there is still a miracle I just hoping for that. Maybe I can find it somewhere in singapore. Oh man please let me find it .
Jimmy stop typing at 10:28 AM
Well today is my Dentai FFI was suppose to go at 1200 cuz the FFI is at 1330. However something happen which make me and the others to go at an earlier time. Well now is the ording period so we CPL are like so free as there is nothing to do we went to sleep. Then when I really get into the slumber mood and fall asleep there come pop out a guy don know from where just walk in and stand beside my bed. And he really can't see that I am sleeping and carry on asking wah what are you doing ? Sleeping ar ? I guess he must be totally blind or half blind to not able to see that I closing my eyes lying down in the bunk bed means I sleeping if not means I am dead is it to him? I mean he just come in and come out a ruckus nvm then go take down the names of the guys sleeping. Then interesting he walk inside and he saw a x-box and a guy was playing with it. He carry on wah can play x-box ar who give permission and everything stuff then he say he will want to confiscate it and even have the guts to say hey tonight we can play x-box lor and so happily like he found gold.Then he say we are not suppose to play. So now we are not suppose to play nor sleep what do we do ? Sitting around in bunk and rot ? Then I forgot to mention who is he, he is an officer on duty. When he wake me up right I was thinking who the hell is he was going to scold him due to blurness I never scold him so quite lucky there. Well anyway before that he go to other bunks and also wake up them and even have the cheek to tell one of them wah don want to ord is it ? What the hell, he want to take name just take lah don need to come out with such attutide , the face also you see feel like punching then my friend he got so angry that he keep on talking about him. And because of him, makes us leave the place earlier for the FFI. So we went to jurong point and eat early lunch. Then that guy wonderfully spoils all our mood for everything. All my friends all speak of him lor, actually we though of bring out the x-box so maybe the fate won't be confiscated or what then a guy come up with an idea that hey why not keep in the cupboard then never tell us what plan he want to use. So when the officer on duty call asking where is the x-box, naturally we just say it inisde the cupboard and everything. Well the guy wanted us to like say we take it but he never before hand tell us anything how are we suppose to know. Anyway the x-box fate is confiscated in the end. After the FFI the guys wanted to go orchard and everything since I was driving I was thinking of whether to go or not then one of them ask me you want to go home is it ? I do feel like going home to settel some stuffs but I feel bad mah they just say nvm lah put them at the nearest mrt then they take mrt go there lor I feel so bad. Anyway going home after sending them to mrt I went to home and started to search online for this basketball shoe call AND1 madness gold colour. Well it seems like it a limited edition or something I just can't find the shoe at all so sad. Well I even went down to JP and ask for it they also say sell finish already. Well though of finding the shoe because one of my friend she left the shoe on her locker and when she go away for a while come back the shoe just disappeared so it like the shoe is kind of old and used and there is actually someone who want to steal it. What the world coming to man or the cleaner mistaken it for rubbish and throw away hell just because it not lock it does not mean it belong to the rubbish bin mah and the locker is like 2m high I can't believe it that she will want to reach there and wah I found rubbish and just throw it away. My friend kind of like the shoe very much even though she has a new one but it not madness and she hope she can find back or buy a new madness so I hope can find one and buy for her. So now I even went to the extend to send an email to AND1 hopefully they will reply me soon.
Anyway that officer is really really irrating and really really getting on other people's nerves I wonder how he manage to get to OCS in the first place. Maybe his acting is good , even his peers got bluff by him and he totally change. I can't believe it hey man if you are quailify to become an officer don forget how you manage to climb there. He come catch us is under orders that is ok with me but he don need to come in and come out with all sort of words lah want catch just catch don need to give us such attitude one like wah sleeping ar wah I can play x-box lah wah you don want to ORD is it and all sorts of crap from his mouth. He really makes me boiling hot make me not enough sleep.
Jimmy stop typing at 8:25 PM
I can't believe it, 14 is my friend's birthday and I actually though it 16 I mean I can't be wrong due to my memory last year around that year 16 I did indeed give her a present or did I really recall wrongly. So sad lor until when I chatted with her then she say it her birthday on the 140406. I really damn embrassed lor I mean I really treasure her as a friend and I really tend to make an effort and even plan to give her a present but end up back fire. Well this time I going to remember it at 14 so next year I won't make the same mistake again. Anyway I hereby would like to wish DOR a happy 20th birthday. It is belated though but anyway may all her wishes come true and to her exams lor hopefully she can get the grades she worked so hard for. Lastly on the 15th I will be going over to her house well giving her a belated present and deliver her favourite food. Eh you all must be wondering why I treat her so good, she is not my gf though haha anyway she is can say one close friend I have some time back. Well besides it for her belated birthday so ya that it. I thinking of changing my blog skin kind of like quite boring and dull. Maybe I will change to something interesting. I shall ask my friend for help.
Jimmy stop typing at 12:19 AM
It been don know how long already since I last blog maybe I am feeling tire, maybe I feel there is nothing much to write haha. Well blogging don seems that interesting anymore. Besides I am a boring person that why I feel that way I guess. Yeah finally completed my Kingdom Hearts 2 at around 430am. The last stage really took me about 2 hours to fight that stupid boss, after the credits roll as I was playing proud mode I get to see the secret ending. As not to spoil the people still playing I won't mention about it total playing hours took me 40 hours plus plus with level at 65 mummies at 14000++ with my ultimate weapon. There is this optional boss Sephiroth he is really one tough optional bosses. I never manage to defeat him yet, and he has this very cunning move whereby he just dash pass you, you will surely die or left with 1 hp if you have the ability that is. If you manage to survive it then he will slash you with his long sword and the range is like very long so it sort of like cheating and his life bar I believe it is full life bar with like 9 slots below it. So whoever wants to have a good challenge can try that highly recommended if your level is like 80++ I think if not you won't get to survive his attack. I even at level 63 go also struggle and cannot make it. However I do found a way to fight him, since there is a pattern however still it don always work and his combos if it landed on you that it. Bascially the whole game plot is really not bad considering now that you can get to use mickey and changes from before some worlds in the KH 1 got removed but added in some new worlds. Disney perhaps is just too big to have all his charactors fit in just like final fantasy also cannot have all their charactors fit in. So they choose the important ones. This new KH 2 finally have yuna and auron added in. So bascially final fantasy x and final fantasy x-2 charactors not in KH 1 come into play. Yuna, rikku and paine. Alot of new features added in example is the form changing. I personally think it a great improvement however summon get lesser only four. Chicken little and stich also join in as summon charactors. Chicken little is like so cute and funny when using it to fight. Overall I would rate the game 5 stars out of 5. Seriously those who play part one is a must to buy part 2 cause it is really great.
Lastly 20th of this month is coming, every time whenever it reaches that day make me feel so emotional what is worse I can't even express it out. The day seems so important yet I can't do anything about it I feel so sad so useless. Maybe I should try to forget that day ever exists. Anyway HBTC even though I know it won't work but still would like to publish it out. Reading my entry I guess you all will feel puzzled but don bother to ask me what does HBTC stands for cuz I won't explain. Till next time I guess don know when will I feel like writting another entry again. Well how come I still exists it a miracle you know.
Jimmy stop typing at 5:20 AM
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