Well today is another boring sunday, stay at home whole day watch drama serial. I feel now my life is getting more and more boring although just yesterday went out with jeff, zegui , lianseng and yingbiao to eat at marina south steamboat. As usualy our choonfai never turn up went out to study. I still don get it whenever I ask fai about the question about him and her, he alway tell me like it not possible stuffs like that. Then he come up with funny question like how to ask her, then what if she agree to him. It like the feeling he is giving me is that he worries alot of factors. Ya I agree it also depends on her whether she got the feeling or not. Then ask how is possible to tell whether is also she interested in him. I mean more or less right he should know it. Hai fai ar if you are reading this , I can tell you that you are just feeling inconfident. Put in some trust and faith in yourself and believe that you can do it I am sure you will make it. Yes she is not an item correct but if you keep on holding back and back you surely will not make it. In life is like that isn't it ? Miss the train that it you never get to board the same train with her and ride together. However I can go around telling this and that but I just can't seem to apply it to myself. Maybe I wish not to see another poor soul like me so I hoping everything can make out for him or infact my friends around me. Everybody is like the main charactor I am just like a support charactor alway at the side or behind hardly being noticed. I guess that is just my fate for being short. Or I am just being punished sometimes I really hope I can just be another person I hate myself and I really do for being so useless, no talents at all only know how to play and a guy without any good points. Why I feel this way I also don know but all I know I have to live like that and maybe it forever who knows. I wish to change my fate but can I really make it ? I highly doubt so.................
Jimmy stop typing at 10:24 PM
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