Yeah finally alex is back, wohooooooo after his return made up of mind already. Recently started work on thursday at charted semiconductor, well it not bad actually though the pay is quite low but anyway it not doing for long so might as well. There is this guy who worked with me really said some very good advise to me. Well after listening to his wisdom I suddenly think back. The reason why I am so stress up is all because I can't think out of the box. After I know the reason why I am stress up I relax up alot. And yeah finally the mj losing streaks are over, feeling so relax while playing mj and I win over 26.50. The decision making is way dragging too long, I should have made up my mind earlier. I will stay down in sg and made my studies, that way can save money and don need to worry about bank loans. Well I actually told her I will be going overseas maybe that time is confusion time and I never think properly. Firstly then I think I should made an apology to her, and finally I think that issue can be let go already. Well I don think she would be reading but just to update I deleted away her blog address so I won't be reading up on her life anymore.
Although it sad but I guess that is the best way, I think I can return back to who I am already. Confidence which I lost I think is back judging on the mj winnings I believe I have regain almost 90% maybe there is still a 10% lacking cuz I still believe I am very lucky kind of guy. So the remaining 10% shall be my luck haha. Well finally the decision is made I shall stay in sg and study in SIM. Thanks alex for coming back and finally made me made up mind wahaha. Still as humorous as ever and still the same you alway have interesting stories to share. Your real life story if really you write out a book I believe it can be the hottest thing in town you know? Lol well all my pervious entries are so alway so sad and dull.
I shall promise the next entries and the rest of the entrie you all read shall not have any sad entries anymore. Negative thoughs come due to inconfidence and lack of faith in myself. I alway feel so inferior last time but come to think of it why do I alway think that way. All the past experience I get is just a go through I should learn from it and improve my life instead of making it even sadder. Life itself is already tough why make it worse right. I think I truely has let it go, but my stand is still there, if she is willing to be my friend back again I won't reject. A friend I know or whoever is my friend I truely treasure them.
Today is crystal birthday and also her birthday well I would like to wish both of them a very happy birthday may all their wishes come true. Crystal birthday celebration sounds very good will be at a high class resturant eat . As for her I don know but I believe her family sisters and friends would give her a very good suprise birthday celebration. Crystal birthday present I bought her a frame with her name as holders clip below the frame and her picture being washed out by kodak through friendster haha. She don mind it though and glad she like it, well then today seems like alot of people's birthday so common.
I guess that it lah next entries I assure my blog won't be so dead and so dull and of course won't be so sad also. I truely sincerly hope all the best to her and hope she can stay as happy as she is.
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