Well it really has been very long since I last chatted with a friend, ever since she started working she disappeared from the virtual world. That it gone like that and also she claims her msn spoil even though she did come online but she won't be using msn. Hai nothing to say, read her blog seems like she is doing well and enjoying well also. I remember asking her to meet some time in june well she did give the go light but work disrupted all and hence she don seems to be free to meet up. Serisouly I am not angry or anything but it like before I ORD I got ask around the long lost friends to meet up. All say can but in the end busy with stuffs hence it pushed away. Well not that I asking too much right for some of your time, perhaps it like that I have to live with it. Well planned to go aust study and went up to a agency I shall not named it here to protect their rep. That agent looks honest and kind but in the end he is out to cheat my money. He make me go through 4 years so he can get more commission what is the world coming to. In the end make me go down IDP and reregister everything. Waste my pervious time and efforts everything and have to redo. Will keep me informed when the process is done. Sigh the others don want to meet me I don mind but I really wish before I fly I can get to meet her. I guess that is a wishful thinking besides I really doubt she read my blog even though I ask her before do she reads and she replied yes. I also doubt she will sms me to arrange a time to meet up.
I really hope can meet up some time in auguest or sep just before I fly is it too much to ask ? I know I know I should not be wildful she has her choice so I shall respect her then. Even though she do reads I highly doubt she knows I am referring to her. Sigh my present for her still in bag wrapped up nicely waiting for it's owner to come collect it. Perhaps it is fated not to be given away perhaps hai why am I so emotional tonight. Maybe because I finaly know something which hurts in some way but I will get over soon.
Ya ya I know I don have the looks, don have the height even though my family is well off I also don have the money. Everybody thinks hey he is a rich kid staying a big house, however my mother don want to give me pock money she thinks I should go out work and earn it myself. Yes yes everytime she sees me at home alway nag at me and yes she do refuse to give but I alway ask for meal money so she relunactly gave so it like miserable 20 to 30 bucks ? Yes I know how come I am such a failure, perhaps I should be left this way. Whatever I should just suffer in silence would there be such a day she will arrange to meet ? Well if port manage to win france I shall believe in miracles and hope it will happen on me.
Quote I read from a book:
逃避现实所耗费的代价，常远高于面对现实所要付出的心力。
我们必须先学会接受现况，才能找到解决问题的方法。
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