Well so fast it coming to a year end already, as I would be going overseas to taiwan and china hence I can't post my last entry on 31st of december. I would leaving today at 2.20pm that the time of my flight hence I would be going around 12pm to airport. As for my new year wish as usual hopefully my start of the new year would be a good and smooth one. This year alot of things happened which involved last year stuffs. Anyway I also don know would it be really resolved or maybe the only way is to just walk away.
My friends if they are really my friends, they would stand by me in the first place help me out. However no they didn't even though they know he is in the wrong but still it won't change anything. Frankly speaking because this matter doesn't strike them as hard as it strike me, I am the one who get it, the rest know it but because it not onto them that why they don see what I see. Hence naturally I would be seen as trouble maker trying to make his life miserable. However think of all the facts first, who is it that started all these things out ? If he really is concern for my friendship then in the first place he would not have get himself involved in all these things. I am really tired already I don wish to have anything else with him but the rest of the guys like don understand my point. That makes me wonder do they really get my point ?
Not that I am trying to restrict them to side me or what, they have all the freedom to choose what to do. Therefore I also have the freedom to choose the road that I want to walk on. I really want to walk on a road whereby I won't get involved with him anymore. Because we have a common group of friends and by all the actions I see of them I tend to feel that they aren't really helping me out. If the only way to server all connections with him is through them I won't hesitate to do it. When I do I really mean it, it only a matter of time when the rest of the group will be mainpulated by him. Whoever is reading this, if you know what I am talking about naturally you would know who I am referring to the group of friends. Not that I am suspecting you all but very obviously the actions you all shown me are all towards him. Hai sometimes I am quite disappointed, you all only see me as in I hated him for snatching away my gf but that is not the issue here, I hate him for what he is not the actions he made. He being a close friend for so many years yet he never treatd me as his friend at all. He making use of everyone of us to maintain his good image of a good guy which he isn't really of.
Naturally of cos when you all confront him he would deny it, just like he denied what he has done infront of us and his parents. So I won't blame you all for what you all believe in him and since if that is the case all I ask is just leave me alone I hope that is not too much to ask. These are my thoughs and if I am to be alone without friends so be it I rather have one true friend then have many who aren't. I must say thanks to linda she made me realise what a person he is and thanks to my many other friends who help me get through this. I hope you all read this and understand my point as in what sort of person he really is. If after this you all still want to treat nothing has happened and carry on going out with him then I will really treat all these as nothing has happened and walk my own way. I really treausre you all as my friends I really do but some things need to be resolved must be resolved.
Well a new year is coming so I hereby wishes you all a very happy new year, a new beginning hope everything would be a new start. See you all in 2008 then I will be back on the 13th of jan 2008 till then I will update my taiwan and china trip.
Quote of the day: A belief is a very strong emotion, people who make use of this belief to benefit himself is a kind of abuse, people who truely am himself then he isn't a hypocrite.
Jimmy stop typing at 10:36 AM
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