Just My Life

A new year

2011-01-11T16:57:00.002+08:00

A new year 2011 is here, so many people got so many new year wishes. I wonder have they already achieved their last year goals ? Everytime we watch those science friction movies or dramas they alway protray that 2010 is a world of advance technology. We can see those high technology buildings, cars which can fly and all those cool gadgets. It already like 2011 yet the scenery never appeared. I wonder when would the sci fi become sci fact.

According to michio kaku a theortical physicits , he wrote a book which is known as physics of the impossible. Inside the books he discuss the possibility of tecnology which can be happened in theory but to make it practical would take thousands or years or more to make it happen. A very nice book to read on if you are interested in time travel, spaceships etc.

Back to me my new year resolution is to find a better job and look for the girl of my dreams. For the job part might happen but for the girl part might take very long I guess. Don know why is it taking so long perhaps I don have the fate to meet her.

Currently I am back to wow again, yes it happened again. The deathwing is just too tempting to make me go back. Might review for 3 months and then decide again whether to continue. I thinknig of trying out DC online too it looks fun but just don have the time to play.

Nothing much is happening in my life lately so nothing big to update however one thing I am happy about is I manage to find back a long lost secondary school friend which is a good way to start the new year. I will update more on this when I have more things to add.

Quote of the day: To give up is easy, To perserve is hard. Walk the hard way eventually will be more fruitful to walking an easy way.

Exams

2009-11-09T14:56:00.002+08:00

Well it that time of the week again , exams arhh I hat exams. Tomorrow is Applied Company Law which is like all theory kind of questions. Well good thing is that you can make your own notes and bring it into the exam hall. Hopefully my notes would really help me through.

Looking on the bright side 3 weeks later I will be back in singapore even though that I should be feeling happy but still something is missing. I wonder when will I feel whole again. I don know why but I feel like even though I can buy PS3 , buy anything at all I still won't feel happy.

Recently some of my friends tired the knot, like lian seng is one of them, really happy for him even though I can't be there which is quite sad though. However glad that he has finally settled down, and congrats to yuhua too. Well even though not very close to dawn but still I also heard she got married, and guess what her husband propose through a blog. Well you all must be thinking how can that be possible , well he did it and it quite good too. The way he wrote and stuffs oh boy I guess got to hand it to him. I keep on seeing people all around me settling down, now left mi, shuyan and cheekuan not attached. However I am pity sure they will also be faster than me to find a gf and settle down.

Well not that I never try going after , but I guess I am not their cup of tea. Recently I was like chatting with some of my gal friends and found out that their prefernce for their bf are actually that they need to be tall. One of them actually said ya we gals really prefer and like tall guys. Another one was saying that as long as not shorter than me can already. Another one is like insisting must be tall. Tall or short is it really matter ? Is your love built on the height of that person ?

It been a long time

2009-08-11T20:13:00.003+08:00

Hey guys guess my blog is getting rusty for so long I never update. Ok first of all you all must be wondering what have I been up to. Alot of question mark on your head ya. So this blog entry is Q and A session:

First question: Hey Jim what up haven't seen you online or update in your blog.

Jim: Well I am very l lazy to update before and after exams in june I began to play back on wow hence for the whole 2 months rarely come online to msn and chat.

Random asker: Oh you play wow ? Can you tell me what is wow ?

Jim: It just an online game call world of warcarft by blizzard. It sort of a very good time waster and highly recommended if you are really free and nothing to do. You do have to pay though.

Random asker: I see, so in the world of warcraf how does it work ?

Jim: It basically like any other online games, there are 2 fractions which is alway on war with each other. Among the fractions you can choose a race to be and then after that choose a class. Races for Alliance side you can choose to become human, dawarfs, gnomes, night elfs and draenei. For horde side you can choose to become orc, troll, tauren, undead and blood elfs. Then you can continue on choosing what you want to be, warrior , mage, shaman , rouge, paladin, warlock, druid and hunter.

Random asker: So what did you choose ?

Jim: Oh I choosen death knight , paladin, mage and priest. The highest level you can reach is 80 which only attain on my death knight.

Random asker: What is so fun about wow ?

Jim: If you ask me actually I find that wow got this player vs player system , so if you are not on the same fraction when you see each other. You can just attack him regardless of your level. Wow also create dungeons and raids for players to group together to fight bosses. Dungeons are small raids are larger hence dungeon requires only 5 player and raids require 10 or 25 ...

Random asker: So When you started and who brought you in ?

Jim: In my army days one of my CQ he is inchage of store, and he recommended me to play , I played at first and tried the trial but I find it boring cuz it all abou questing. Until after army I met april she sort of recommend me to go in again. This time I went in and played with her and her friends hence started the adventure.

Random asker: Well do you really like the game ?

Jim: Actually I don really mind the game, but then what I hate about the game aspect is that people tend to look for good geared charactor, and if you don reach the standard you can't join in the fight. Hence I feel so left out and worse of all you join a guild hoping they could run you but end up they do their own stuffs leaving you to do everything by yourself.

Random asker: Sounds like the wow community isn't really friendly ?

Jim: Not really perhaps it a new group of people I met, actually one of them is my friend, this guy luwee help me alot hence very appreciative of his efforts.

Random asker: Ok enough of wow I guess people are more interested in your social life, so is there anyone special in your life ?

Jim: Well I aren't seeing anyone right now, still single as suggested in blog homepage. Not that I don want to update it, it there is no one for me to update. Tried going after a gal but end up it didn't work out.

Random asker: Oh gosh you are still single after so long ? I don believe it.

Jim: Yes it is , look like I am fated to be a loner.

Random asker: So how many more years to finish your studies ?

Jim: By next year june hopefully everything can worked out.

Random asker: So what makes you suddenly want to update your blog?

Jim: Actually you see it all about feelings and the right timing. Today I feel abit emotional and wow is on maintainance so I am free therefore here I am.

Random asker: How your uni life so far?

Jim: My uni is very boring, everytime I go to uni is just for lesson and then go home everyday same routine. I don have much friends in uni too which is very similar to wow isn't it lol..

Random asker: I can't believe this how could you have no friends ?

Jim: Well it is a fact, I don have much friends in uni, perhaps I aren't that next door wanted guy and I don talk much.

Random asker: Alright then so last question your wow has a time limit right, so when is it ending ? Do you have any plans to extend ?

Jim: That is a very good 2 question, first of all it ends on sunday and I really want to extend but then I find it no point in extending because I can't join in any raid and been going to dungeon only. Sort of sick of going into dungeon hence still considering whether to extend or not.

Random asker: I see alright then till next time let have this Q n A again ?

Jim: Yeah I don mind, when I have the time, and if anyone has any questions feel free to post at the side of the chatbox. Now before I go I have to ask this who is this random asker ?

Random asker: .....................

Alright then people that what been happening to me, and for some tv news updates. People who are catching fringe, house and doll house, they are coming back in september with fringe on 16th of sep, dollhouse on the 17th of sep and house on the 20th of september. The long awaited and one of my fav is stargate universe, that is coming in oct it about time too so excited so many shows coming back. Alright guys till next time...

A dream

2009-02-19T20:11:00.002+08:00

Hi people I touch down at sydney yesterday night at 7.45pm after going through all the customs and finally came out, I saw my uncle and cousin at the airport waiting to pick me up. My cousin is quite young and got his license when he is like 17, well I was sort of worrying when he is driving me back to his home. His dad my uncle is beside him supervising and I believe after months of practising I think he should be quite stable now. Anyay last night when I reach home around 9 don know why I am so damn tired, afeter bath and watch Korean version of metoer garden I went to bed at 11pm I think singapore time is like 8.00 pm. Must be time difference I wake up in the middle of the night arhh need some time adjust I guess.

Anyway today I went to westfield shopping center did some shopping and buying my wow game card. After I reach home I got this very tired feeling and needed some sleep. Hence I took a nap and I guess I must be really missing her so much so that she even appeared in my dreams. Well I can remember cleary that she was talking to me something about her work, and she was like saying she is very busy with her work and needed some chicken essence as she is alway staying up late in the night. I being in the dream quickly offered that I can send it over if you want. I got her smile that all seriously speaking that is enough lor I am quite happy already too bad it just a dream. I wanted to talk more suddenly I heard my cousin calling me zhihong hey zhihong in my dream how come got my cousin appearing out of nowhere I was quite puzzled then I wake up to find that it my real cousin calling me to go downstairs to eat ice-cream. Arhh destroy my dream with her I wanted to go back sleep and hopefully can dream of her again but this time it never came. Sigh next time I should tell my cousin I am sleeping please don anyhow call me unless it emergency.

Actually through this dream I can say I really can't just get over her, and I believe would even take a very long time. I also don know why I have such strong feelings towards her, in the past the gals who rejected me all along I could just walk away but this time I don think I can do it that easily. Sigh shall concentrate everything on my studies first hopefully all my attention can be diverted away.

The wait is over

2009-02-15T21:58:00.003+08:00

Well finally the wait is over, I am now in my lowest peak. Today my temle friends ask me to have lunch with them. Initally was just plan to have lunch with them and dinner with my secondary school friends. However don know what happen the dinner plans was cancel and I spend the time with my temple friends instead. After lunch my temple friends suggested to go one of the guy's home and sing KTV. He bought a set and has transferred over 300 songs. Before we start I went and check my e-mail and the reply mail is finally here.

Before I can check the mail they come out and because the system require the computer hence I can't check. I was like thinking all on the mail and not really concentrating with the singing. They see my oddness and enquire me what happen and such then I told them I need to check the e-mail. So the owner say I can stil check while they sing because the system isn't affected even though I am checking mail. The e-mail reply is just as what I have expected feeling sad is all I have. And I happened to have choosen guang liang's song di yi ci and before I sing that song my friends all know I don't sing very well. When I started singing they was amazed like what happened to me how come I suddenly so good in singing that song. I also don know what happen when I sing that song I just go by the flow and when I reach the chorus part, I think my emotion is up to the limit which I can't really control tears began to fill my eyes. I trying very hard to stop it flowing out but it still did.

Well they started to joke about it to cheer me up, they also never really expect me to sing that well in the first place and then to be so emotionally singing they say alright they know it the first time cuz I was singing first time. Anyway back to topic perhaps I just meant to be a friend only, all I can be is only a friend. I don want to be just a friend only.

Even though I know what the outcome already but still I can't stop feeling sad, 2 more days and I will be leaving here, hope all these sad memories would not follow me.

To sweetamy85: There is no one beside me now, currently single as of yet again. I really want to treasure if I got one. Perhaps I aren't meant to have one, it just seems so impossble for me. No one ever understand why I am looking for her, everyone just think I am just trying to find anyone I see or grab. This is not really true all I am looking for is having someone special to company me. I believe everyone is also looking for that, maybe I seem like trying very hard that all but doesn't mean I am just anyhow looking for one and tackling anyone I see. I don hope everyone would understand me because everyone got different views and comments and I also don really blame them for not undersanding me. As for me now I guess rls just isn't going to happen to me in any time soon. When people ask me how many gf I have before I tell them 5 and they was like saying you got gf before mah how come still so hard in looking for one. What they don know is that my gf in the past didn't really share any memories with me, they are abit like virtual dating or gals which didn't really appeared by my side when I needed her. So all in all I don really have a real relationship happening in my life. I wonder y some people fight to surivive and some people just want to end their life. When I look at the people fighting from the disease I am blessed because I am still alive and when I see people ending their lives I am sad because they give up their life too easily. Everything in life don't just happened, it happened for a very good reason, I will have to take some time to sort my thoughs out.

Don worry people I will be fine and if it isn't meant to be mine, no matter how hard I fight she also wont be mine. I just wonder when will she appear...........

The longest wait

2009-02-14T20:46:00.003+08:00

I believe this is really the longest wait of my life, I can't help but prepare for the worse case secenario. Seng I read your blog, thanks for the advise but I believe there are gals who aren't so $ orientated. I though for once I have found her, but look like it just an illusion.

Thanks sweetamy but I guess no matter what I do , I still will end up where I am. Hai don know what else can be done or say maybe a simple thank you is all I can show to all those who cared for me. My right gal seems so far away that I can't even reach out to her. Maybe your right guy isn't as far as you think, just be hopeful and take your time in finding. I believe you will find a better one than your last.

A way

2009-02-13T00:41:00.002+08:00

Life is alway so unpredictable just when you think there is no way out, another path would open up for you. It just a matter of whether you want to walk on that path or not. Why show me the path only when the time is running out, just like showing a candy to a dying kid. It makes the kid happy but can't live long to taste the sweetness. Hai since it has to be this way then so be it, go with the flow and hope something good would come out.

I been having some dreams lately and how I wish I could just sleep in forever and live in that dream. It is really the perfect world that I hope to have but couldn't get in the real world. If only my dreams will become relality I would forever be so thankful and appreciative of what I got in my life. My world is still so incomplete I wonder when can it ever be a whole.

Anyway replying to the tag boards sweetamy thanks for the console, I will try to live strong and happy. As for what you has said you broken off with your boyfriend last year and reason being his friends don like you so he break off with you. Seriously speaking I think that is a very lame excuse, I think when 2 lovers met and when they are meant to be together no matter how diffcult the situation is , eventually something can be made out. Afterall you are dating him not his friends or someone else, what matters should be solely on you and him. If there is no problem between you 2 but because of friends then cause problems then I must say the love between you 2 aren't that strong. Well at lease it is good now that it is discovered rather than later if not will be even harder and sadder than now. If drag longer would even take a longer period of time to recover and while recovering you might even miss the chance of meeting the right guy. If a guy really likes you, he shouldn' care about what others look at him or look at you. Other views or comments shouldn't matter. So my initial comment still stands, no matter even though now you got rejected but then don forget you are still choosing your future bf, so only time can tell a person charactor and such. Hopefully as time goes by you can observe who is being good to you and eventually stay by your side all the time while you are sad or down. I don know is there such a guy but just saying it in general hopefully you would see such a guy soon.

A new hope ?

2009-02-11T22:05:00.003+08:00

I hope it really is going to be one should I carry on and hitting the wall ? I have a belief that if I try hard enough I could fly or maybe in this case succeed. However time is running out for me, I really wish I could have more time here , all I ask is one day , one chance and one opportunity. Is it too much to ask ?

Anyway I leaving next week wednesday 18th of feb 9.30 am, I wish to stay longer but cannot have to go off earlier because no one is around to send me to airport. That why time is not really on my side. I wish before I go I could do something here but would I end up like before ? or would I succeed ? I want to say alot of things but all in all I have to keep it inside me. Sigh 9 months is a really long time, anything can happen let hope my miracle would happen when I come back.

Thank you so much friends for read my blog and supporting me, I understand all your sayings and well thoughs. All in all I guess if my life is fated to be like this I can only say I resign to fate. Sweetamy you mention that you are also single, but you forgot one thing, you are a gal and hence you are the one choosing who to be your boyfriend. You can reject or accept so eventually right you will find your ideal guy one day. Therefore for you is a matter of time, maybe by the time I come back in nov you would be happily attached. Wish you all the best hope you would find the right guy soon. You know even though you been reading my blog I still don know who are you haha, but with your support that is more than enough. Thanks for reading, take care and all the best in everything you do.

Zegui you are so happily attached now, all I can say is wish you and her happiness and eventually hope to receive the red bomb soon from you.

April you are happily married, too bad I can't attend your wedding dinner but don worry my blessing will still come all the way from Australia.

Lianseng even though I don know what is happening in your life , but I roughly guess what has happened. Glad you could move forward in your life. Advise for you don just charge into any wall you see, look first before you charge. You could leap over if it is too hard meaning give it a pass. If not you would be end up hurting yourself and finding yourself alway recovering from injuries.

Choonfai I think no one knows your matter better than me all in all if it a closure already then just let it go. In life there is no such thing as there won't be a better person coming. You have to believe that it would happen in the first place. Someone who keep on thinking I am going to fail and don't try anything eventually he will fail. First attitude isn't correct second his mentality also not correct. And that carries on will lead to lack of self confident and whatever things he do will not be a good outcome. When a person keep on failing what would he do or think ? He would blame himself for being so useless and also imcompetent and when he lack the will to live he would end his life. Saying all this I don know how much can you get in but I hope you would understand that the next person who come might not be the better person you hope to be but to judge that you would have to find out yourself first. All the best and hopefully this 9 months would be a good recovery period for you.

With that I shall end my blog here, with regards to the story I want to say I decided to postphone until I got a proper script and motivation to write it out. I will try keep this updated.

A fail attempt

2009-01-07T06:34:00.002+08:00

Just read april blog a few days ago, on her blog she mention something about taking the first step out to do something. Taking the first step indeed require bravery and guts. Actually I did make a first step of do doing something which I think is worth while to do and I really did my best to do it. However the result isn't what I really want to see even though I already expected that something like this would happen already.

Perhaps my life is already fated when I am born so short , or perhaps there is something that I did in the past life which cause this to happen. Whatever is the reason all I can say is that it seems no matter what I do , there won't be any changes to this. I can understand and I don blame anyone for this, in fact I will try to stay happy and also wish that she would attain her happiness. Perhaps all I can be is just a friend. It feel so sad to know that how much efforts you put in also will end up no where.

I alway wonder if someone else who is taller , better looking who did what I did before , would it change the outcome ? At lease I think that person would stand a better chance than me. I think she feel grateful for helping her and that all, but is asking for a chance too much to ask ? I can already tell that this is going no where. People who are reading my blog now must be asking what have I done ? Well everyone know about the little nygoya show that air on 9pm channel 8 which ended on monday night. A friend of mine recently missed her episode on new year eve. On that day I actually already though of asking her would she be missing , but I though she really like that show so maybe she will watch it then meet her friends after that. Shortly after that she sms me asking me did I manage to download everything of the show? I do download dramas however because the uploader will be quite slow in uploading so I told her I don have the complete series and maybe a few days later then the uploader will upload the torrent. Only then I can download the episode she missed. However since it a drama therefore missing one episode will make one feel very frustrated I can full understand that.

Then somehow on new year day my mum told me she manage to record it on tape, so I decided to take the tape and went to my friend's place to request for his help on converting the tape to computer playable format. After doing for many hours and I though it finally done only to find out that the tape didn't record finish because my mum start recording too early. By then it was already quite late and if she didn't get to watch the episode before it would be hard for her to continue on that night's episode. My friend suggested using demand tv since he got cable, we search and there is no mediacorp dramas. Therefore the only way out is to subscribe to mobtv. That what I did and I manage to download the episode which she missed and also the advance ones so she could watch it before airing on tv. Therefore she don need to wait to monday to see the ending.

After that we planned to meet again on tuesday, but my friend who got married recently wanted to treat a dinner for the people who helped him during his wedding therefore I have to ask her to change to another day. She suggested monday because she is moving office and if I get to meet her then she can ask her dad don need to drive her back her stuffs. We had dinner then go home, I tried to ask her go out or go somewhere she said she wanted to watch little nygoya on tv. Actually I understand that she don want to so I didn't say anything. So after sendng her home, help carry her stuffs upstairs to eight floor then she carry it home from there. I really tried to ask her go out again but she say she will be busy. Well not that I am complaining here or anything just want to say out some of my feelings. Giving a chance or not is up to her mah I can't really force her, if I am not her type of guy perhaps she did what she feel.

When I know her few years back, I already sort of got feelings for her, but I didn't do anything because I know this outcome, and a few months later she got attached. Until recently then break off, I though now would be the time if not missed the chance again. However now can see that she really has no interest in me so no matter when I do it is still the same, I guess all I can do is wish her happiness and find someone better to take care of her. I do feel sad but if this is going to be my life then I will accept it.

My birthday

2008-10-06T19:31:00.002+08:00

Well it been really long since I updated my blog, I guess it starting to rot. First of all today is my birthday yeah another year has passed and I am 26 years old already. Thinking back it really amazing how fast time passes. Yet I am still studying and have to take another 1 years plus to finish my studies. I don want to ta bao but yet it just keep on coming to me. My parents will alway say I never try hard enough as I alway play games and such. Well they are right I didn't really try hard enough maybe I just can't seem to find the motivation to study.

My birthday I am suppose to talk about happy stuffs right, alright then one thing worth mentioning is that I somehow manage to find back a very long lost friend in facebook. Some one who I really have deep feelings for even though it been a really long time which we lost contact. Happy and at the same time feeling sad, because she is happily attached to her boyfriend. Perhaps I should feel happy for her that she manage to find her ideal guy, sad that I can't be the one to be with her.

I will wish her all the best and hopefully she really has attain her happiness. I have made a birthday wish but I won't be saying it out here. Lastly I wanted to start on a story perhaps a brain twister type of story. I think maybe I will start on the next post when I have brainstorm enough ideas. Oh ya forgot to mention I got a number of friends married and engaged really happy for them too and congrats to them. Upcoming wedding in Jan will be Mr Jeffrey Tan so looking forward to your wedding. Another wedding will be in May which belong to April. It quite sad though I can't attend her wedding as I will be back in Sydney studying. I shall end here look forward to my next post as I will start off with a story type telling. I will try to make it interesting alright, don fall asleep ya.

A change

2008-08-21T13:45:00.002+08:00

It been a really long long time since I updated my blog. First of all I want to say I am no longer a marketer but changing to an accountant. Yeah marketing just sucks I wonder why they just don accpet my answer which I think I wrote correctly. Therefore I think it will be best since I will be having extra semster out might as well change to accounting. However I still can't seem to set my mind to do something, I wonder is something out of the ordinary is bothering me. Anyway I will try my best to cope with that. Enough about my studies and I want to talk about something else.

I finally get to add her someone who I been wanting to add a long long time but I just don have the chance to. However I wonder does she still remember who I am after all we haven't been in contact for so long I think about 9 years back. I just want to be friend that all and glad to see her happy not asking for too much right.

Before I fly back to sydney shuyan pass me 2 set of anime which he is watching and recommend to me. First off will be soul eater and second is macross frontier. Both anime is really good but I seem to envy the macross main charactor he can get to have 2 gals fighting for him haha which is quite cool. Beside macross there is code geass I believe code geass season 2 is coming to an end very soon, one of my favourite anime. In season one it was told of how the main charactor gotten his power that he can give an absoulte command to people and that people will have to obey him. Using that power he want to revenge for his father left his mother to die. If interested you all could try to download the first season and watch.

Lastly I want to say something, perhaps some thing I been trying too hard to look for. Perhaps it doesn't meant to be for me, whatever is the reason I think I shouldn't be asking for too much. Some time things are really strange, the more you try to find, it just don't appear. But if you just let go eventually it will come to you. With that I shall end my writting here with this meaningful quote I found.

Quote: 以师之志为我志，以师之心为我心，以师之行为我行，以师之愿为我愿, 以师之道为我道。

Meaning Using the teacher's determination as my determination, using the teacher's heart as my heart, using the teacher's actions as my actions, using the teacher's wishes as my wishes, using the teacher's way as my way.

The teacher here refer to a master in my religion, he is like the person who made tao cultivating enviroment possible. The above sentence is read out by the leader of my religion, however the last sentence teacher's way isn't said from him but from me. I think that is important afterall if we were to follow then the last part is the most important.

A personality test

2008-06-13T11:53:00.003+08:00

Hey I did a personality test on the chinese version of facebook hence the answer come out to be in chinese. A chinese facebook yes you never see wrongly lol it call 校内网。It the same interface as facebook except that it is in chinese that all. The result is as shown:

Psytopic分析：您的性格类型是“INFJ”(内向+直觉+情感+判断)
Psytopic analysis: your charactor belong to INFJ (Introvert, iNtuition, Feeling and Judgement)

寻求思想、关系、物质等之间的意义和联系。希望了解什么能够激励人，对人有很强的洞察力。有责任心，坚持自己的价值观。对于怎样更好的服务大众有清晰的远景。在对于目标的实现过程中有计划而且果断坚定。

Looking for pieces of the puzzle to join it together, wishing to understand what could motivate people, has very strong observation with people around him. A very responsible person and will insist on his value. Have a very good farsight on how to please the public. When implemting his goals there is a detail plan out and will be firm with the implentation.

INFJ型的人生活在思想的世界里。他们是独立的、有独创性的思想家，具有强烈的感情、坚定的原则和正直的人性。即使面对怀疑，INFJ型的人仍相信自己的看法与决定。他们对自己的评价高于其他的一切，包括流行观点和存在的权威，这种内在的观念激发着他们的积极性。通常INFJ型的人具有本能的洞察力，能够看到事物更深层的含义。即使他人无法分享他们的热情，但灵感对于他们重要而令人信服。 INFJ型的人忠诚、坚定、富有理想。他们珍视正直，十分坚定以至达到倔强的地步。因为他们的说服能力，以及对于什么对公共利益最有利有清楚的看法，所以 INFJ型的人会成为伟大的领导者。由于他们的贡献，他们通常会受到尊重或敬佩。因为珍视友谊和和睦，INFJ型的人喜欢说服别人，使之相信他们的观点是正确的。通过运用嘉许和赞扬，而不是争吵和威胁，他们赢得了他人的合作。他们愿意毫无保留地激励同伴，避免争吵。通常INFJ型的人是深思熟虑的决策者，他们觉得问题使人兴奋，在行动之前他们通常要仔细地考虑。他们喜欢每次全神贯注于一件事情，这会造成一段时期的专心致志。满怀热情与同情心，INFJ型的人强烈地渴望为他人的幸福做贡献。他们注意其他人的情感和利益，能够很好地处理复杂的人。INFJ型的人本身具有深厚复杂的性格，既敏感又热切。他们内向，很难被人了解，但是愿意同自己信任的人分享内在的自我。他们往往有一个交往深厚、持久的小规模的朋友圈，在合适的氛围中能产生充分的个人热情和激情。

This part is very long, I lazy to translate, maybe when I have more time I will go a translation.

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Anyway that it for my test results, and now is my exam period, 2 down 2 more to go, with one at tomorrow. The last paper will be on tuesday, there will be a suprise coming forwrad. I shall keep it a secret for now haha ...

A meaningful quote

2008-05-28T07:37:00.006+08:00

Sartorius: 放弃吧，你的命运已经是注定要败给我。何必再作挣扎呢？

Jayden Yuki: 命运可能是生下来就获得的东西，不过就算是在被有限的选择里，也一定能选出最适合自己的生活方式。

The above conversation comes from Yu-Gi-Oh Gx where Jaden Yuki he is main lead of the charactor is fighting with Sartorius in a card duel game. In case people don know yugioh is talking about dueling through a card game, using monsters traps and magic. The pervious season is call yugioh where the main lead is Yugi Muto. Anyway I like the way the writers write out this story, it shows of the determination of the duelist and also say out some menaingful words good enough so inspire people. Like what he say up there.

Fate might be something we are born with, however even in this limited choice we are force to make, we still can choose out the most approriate way to live. How many people actually think that way ? When they met with diffculties, they will just give up easily and say it my fate. Thinking I am fated to fail so no matter how many times he try he will still fail because is mindset isn't correct. However if there is one who refuse to give up and thinking that even if it is fated, even if forced to make a choice, he still can choose out the most appropriate way of solving the problem and live his life the way he choose to be.

Now yugioh has gone into the 3 series, first is yuigoh , second is yuigoh gx and now third is yugioh 5ds. The 3 series talk about using D-wheel to duel, this time the charactors can use a motorcycle to duel. Quite funny concept but still it came out. If using a D-wheel to duel, you will need to have speed counters in order to activate magic. The main charactor is call Yusei, he is also another influencial charactor. The main charactor in yugioh Yugi Muto uses spellcaster deck, Jaden Yuki in Gx uses warrior deck, now they introduce Yusei using dragon deck. Interesting it sort of make me want to buy some of the cards Jaden and Yugi has used.

Anyway been a vegetarian for quite some time already, however my determination is still not as strong as I though it to be. When I first started out, people discourage me but I was never tempeted now don know why there is an urge to eat meat. Controlling very hard and eventually I can succeed for now, but is is possible to last forever ? I wonder can I really do it, perhaps time will tell. My exams are coming in fact just two weeks away. The final are here so fast just like I finish my mid yesterday and here it is final. Look like I can't be playing wow for the time being and beside the expiry date is on the 1st of June. Looks like just nice for me to stop and concentrate on exams first. Wow is actually a not bad game just that the world is really big and it takes a long time to walk from one end to the other end. After my exams I will go buy the card or will stop for a while. Let see how things goes.

Quote of the day: 命运可能是生下来就获得的东西，不过就算是在被有限的选择里，也一定能选出最适合自己的生活方式。

A new reborn

2008-03-20T04:05:00.002+08:00

It been some time since I last update my blog, hmm what happening in my life right now? Haha nothing much basically just the same old routine currently now in Australia. So far away from my home land some times I think I shouldn't have made the decision to come here. However who knows what will happen if I never choose to come here perhaps I won't be a vegetarian ? Yeah I am a vegetarian for now would it be for life ? I can't really say I can do it or not even though I really hope I can do it. I must say thank to april for being such supportive, well at lease I am sure telling that to other people their reaction would definetly why vegetarian blah blah blah but she is different, she told me do what you think is right go with your feelings. Perhaps she is right some times if you really think or feel you wanted to do something and can't do it then there must be some obstacles along the way. Clear the obstacles eventually you can move on to what you really want to do. I am referring to the right course of actions to doing good things not those criminal minded people. Please don be inspire by this and go do bad things hopefully I won't influence the wrong mindset.

I just chatted with a friend some time in the morning in msn, it like 3am and she is still busy working. I was like huh how come still working so late it must be very tiring well at lease good friday is coming I guess she can have a good rest and enjoy her weekends. After chatting with her I feel sort of emotional so I decided to write an entry.

How many people actually know what is a relationship ? How much does it mean to them or how important does it stand to them ? There are alot of people in this world all has different mindset, and attitude towards relationship but how much do they actually treasure it ? Some guys would go by the attitude that it just a normal relationship, I go through all the trouble to get her hence I must get the full out of it. Maybe after getting her feel that there is no more trills decided to break up and so on. I not saying all guys would have that kind of mentality however I believe there are guys are like that or even cheated on their gf. If you don love her why go after her ? If you love her why don't you cherish her ? For as far I know when a girl fall in love with you, that is if you really manage to touch her heart then she is prepared to be with you whole heartedly. I believe there are people who are serious in relationships also to these people I am happy for them and hope all lovers will eventually be together. To those people who are just playing around please stop, you are not only breaking their hearts you are also making them skeptical about love.

There is something I must say, when a relationship ended yes it hurts alot I am sure it really hurts. This pain is hard to bear but it is also this pain that make love so percious and so true. If you never seek for true love you will still feel the hurt, the pain and sadness. Don give up trying eventually you will find the true love even though you are badly wounded, don worry the true love of your life when found you will see that all are worth it and eventually all will healed.

Quote of the day: Pain is a very uncomfortable feeling, but without pain there will be nothing to differniate that painless feeling is actually a very comfortable feeling.

A new Chapter

2008-01-22T21:42:00.000+08:00

It been some time since I last updated sorry for the delay. Oh ya you all must have noticed I removed the log in for my blog I decided it time to go public again. Anyway went to Kao Xiong on the 28th of December to attend the opening ceremony of the new temple called Sheng Wei. I must say it really a grand temple so nice and so beautiful that I was dumb folded. After the opening ceremony we move to a Kao Xiong Hotel and stay for the night the next day went to china. Spend 5 days at Guilin then another 5 days at hang zhuo su zhuo and shanghai. After that 10 days another 4 days at Taipei very tiring hor everyday like moving house expect at Taipei. Anyway the trip is really good the views are very nice and good, too bad my camera spoil all the pictures are taken at Grant's camera. When I got hold of them I shall post a few up here. Enough of the trip update, maybe when there are pictures then I will update more.

New year coming

2007-12-28T10:36:00.000+08:00

Well so fast it coming to a year end already, as I would be going overseas to taiwan and china hence I can't post my last entry on 31st of december. I would leaving today at 2.20pm that the time of my flight hence I would be going around 12pm to airport. As for my new year wish as usual hopefully my start of the new year would be a good and smooth one. This year alot of things happened which involved last year stuffs. Anyway I also don know would it be really resolved or maybe the only way is to just walk away.

My friends if they are really my friends, they would stand by me in the first place help me out. However no they didn't even though they know he is in the wrong but still it won't change anything. Frankly speaking because this matter doesn't strike them as hard as it strike me, I am the one who get it, the rest know it but because it not onto them that why they don see what I see. Hence naturally I would be seen as trouble maker trying to make his life miserable. However think of all the facts first, who is it that started all these things out ? If he really is concern for my friendship then in the first place he would not have get himself involved in all these things. I am really tired already I don wish to have anything else with him but the rest of the guys like don understand my point. That makes me wonder do they really get my point ?

Not that I am trying to restrict them to side me or what, they have all the freedom to choose what to do. Therefore I also have the freedom to choose the road that I want to walk on. I really want to walk on a road whereby I won't get involved with him anymore. Because we have a common group of friends and by all the actions I see of them I tend to feel that they aren't really helping me out. If the only way to server all connections with him is through them I won't hesitate to do it. When I do I really mean it, it only a matter of time when the rest of the group will be mainpulated by him. Whoever is reading this, if you know what I am talking about naturally you would know who I am referring to the group of friends. Not that I am suspecting you all but very obviously the actions you all shown me are all towards him. Hai sometimes I am quite disappointed, you all only see me as in I hated him for snatching away my gf but that is not the issue here, I hate him for what he is not the actions he made. He being a close friend for so many years yet he never treatd me as his friend at all. He making use of everyone of us to maintain his good image of a good guy which he isn't really of.

Naturally of cos when you all confront him he would deny it, just like he denied what he has done infront of us and his parents. So I won't blame you all for what you all believe in him and since if that is the case all I ask is just leave me alone I hope that is not too much to ask. These are my thoughs and if I am to be alone without friends so be it I rather have one true friend then have many who aren't. I must say thanks to linda she made me realise what a person he is and thanks to my many other friends who help me get through this. I hope you all read this and understand my point as in what sort of person he really is. If after this you all still want to treat nothing has happened and carry on going out with him then I will really treat all these as nothing has happened and walk my own way. I really treausre you all as my friends I really do but some things need to be resolved must be resolved.

Well a new year is coming so I hereby wishes you all a very happy new year, a new beginning hope everything would be a new start. See you all in 2008 then I will be back on the 13th of jan 2008 till then I will update my taiwan and china trip.

Quote of the day: A belief is a very strong emotion, people who make use of this belief to benefit himself is a kind of abuse, people who truely am himself then he isn't a hypocrite.

Exams coming

2007-11-12T15:14:00.001+08:00

Well really it been a very long time since I update my blog, oh well firstly it lazy, concentrating more on studying(ya right), actually it more on playing. Haha this year my results are like going down, arhhh I hate reading articles and there are alot to read on. Looks like have to get used to reading articles soon if not I am a goner. Anyway I been wanting to write something interesting like perhaps a story out. Well have a rough idea and concept but still don think it going to work because I think of the story in chinese when I translate it to english it sort of changes the favour. I don know how to explain but then perhaps after the exams I might post a story every day in the blog. Well anticipating the story it something to do with universe, space, time travel and some fighting of course. Anyway wait till when I am more free. Perhaps a small preview below:

In the big big universe we all know it is so huge anything can happen, there might be other intelligent beings out there seeking us as much as we are seeking them. Oh well it started in this solar system where planet earth was formed. When the earth is formed, it is said that there are 7 powerful mystical swords also formed in the process. They are known as sky sword, earth sword, fire sword, water sword, lighting sword, wind sword and gold sword. Who knows one day they are really needed by the mankind to fight against evil forces.

That it for now I will come up more after the exams. I am not very hopeful though hopefully really a miracle exist for me.

Updates

2007-09-07T08:45:00.000+08:00

Well no updates receently , guess must be too lazy and nothing much to update. However recently I found out one good new and one bad new. Good new I found C on friend bad new is C is attached. Don know why after seeing her on friender the urge to contact her come very strongly but then I am struggling as she is still attached.

Perhaps I should just leave her alone afterall we have remain contactless for 9 years perhaps she don't even remember who I am. But we still can be friend I hope so many things I have did for her in the past I hope she could at lease remember I existed then I am contented already.

Two weeks later would be mid-semster so fast guess must start mugging this weekend. I sort of lost for 6 weeks perhaps it time to pick myself up and move forward.

Tag replies:

April: Yeah thanks for coming in and encourage me I will try to overcome this inferior feeling. It not going to be easy and perhaps there are alot of such people around I surely will control myself so I won't get affected by them.

A moody day

2007-08-17T17:39:00.000+08:00

Perhaps recently haven't been getting enough sleep been feeling very moody recently. Why is it when I though something good is going to happen , it ends up nowhere ? Perhaps I am ill fated right. Or this my retribution ? Sigh whatever it is I will still live on with a smile on my face.

Sometimes things can't really be explained, if it is so I rather be it left like that, I don want to find out anymore. Perhaps ignorance is the best, why bother to dig and dig in the end hurt my hands, hurt my feelings, hurt my every part of the body ? In case people are reading this post want to relate back to my rls back I can say this is a different matter not in any way similiar.

Why people alway like to compare this and that, compare how tall you are , how fat you are, how capable you are. Everyone has his own uniqueness that what make everyone different. If everyone is the same then compare this word won't even exist. Sigh really don know what to say already. I guess that it.

A story

2007-08-15T19:34:00.000+08:00

There once lived a guy call Z. Z life isn't very bad or good either, his life perhaps isn't really much of a problem to him. He can say come from a well known family so basically he don lack anything but he lack one thing. That one thing he has been looking for but can't find it. He don want to use money to buy love because he believe in true love and so he will find a gal who will truely love him. One day he met this beautiful gal on the street call C. C is a poor fated girl, she wants something which all gal been wanting to have, a loving bf to love her , take care of her. However the rls she been to are all full of spikes which hurt her alot. L also after so many numerous failure think to himself I want to be the one who can take care of her I believe I am the one. However when he wants to approach her, another guy name D come into the picture. He also notice her and decide to go after her, Z tried to approach her , D knowing this that this Z is a rival come up with alot of cruel remarks. Things like height, things like what he stands more advantage you he will make sure of it to make Z look so much smaller and inferior.

Z of course was sad but then he never give up because he knows that if he peserve he surely can make it. Still doesn't look like he is stand much chance, perhaps of all the past failures he has gone through plus all those remarks made by D make him feel so insignificant.

Oh well a story I sort of hear from somewhere, perhaps I must say Z shouldn't give up because if he do give up then everything he has believed in will be gone. A strong rival appears doesn't mean we should just let the strong rival win without even putting up a fight. He can be all bigger in size, he can be all stronger we know, he can have alot of good points he can be the most desirable guy on earth, still doesn't mean a gal will just like him. Qualities he has you don have it doesn't mean you will be on a losing end, everyone is unique and special in their own way. What you lack in something , I believe you will be make up for it. I believe Z surely possess something which D don't even have.

I am thinking back on my past rls, a long distance rls I have before. I can't help but think that long distance relationship is really really hard to maintain when it is not even stable. Perhaps I build a rls on a sand castle that why when people try to flood it , it crumble. I don wish to make the same mistake again, went through the hurt again, went through the pain again. Sigh if only I am in singapore now, how I really wish I am studying in singapore now. Perhaps there is really a thing call fate , retribution. Am I reaping a bad seed I have planted that why I have to go through all these nonsense again and again ?

Tag replies:

To crystal: Yeah nice to see you in here and thanks for visiting. Take care and stay happy always.

April's complaint

2007-08-02T09:42:00.000+08:00

Lol After reading her blog, she was complaining how come bloggers are not updating their blog. Well I can't say for others but for me right, maybe you know already lah one word can descible lazy ? Wahaha and also pretty nothing much to update lei, My life quite boring one lor. Eh I reach australia today around 8.00 sg time. The plane reach sydney quite early was suppose to reach around 955 sydney time but it reach 9.25 instead quite early right. Well oh ya april I think you are going to laugh at me , I being a cuckoo today I got food with me but I declare no on the paper provided to me. Not because I want to take risk because I lazy to read through everything, I just read the first line, did you bring in you drugs or sort of alike things. I think the rest will be asking those kind of same questions I go tick all no thinking ai ya surely is the same mah. In the end right the custom officer was like seeing the paper and the food I have he nearly want to charge me 220 for violating the law and almost want to charge me in court sia. I really not on purpose one lei really not that I want to go take risk lor I just mabye lazy and tired lol. Anyway it ended up he give me a warning instead lucky me eh *wink.

Anyway finally reach back in australia, I was told by someone apparantly now australia is very cold now around 7 degrees. I though really so when I reach australia what the heck , where got 7 degrees. I step out of the airport ok lah not as hot as singapore of course but also not as cold as the fridge lei. Haha on the plane right I need to complain this, I took midnight flight I sort of can't sleep mah so I browse through the shows they have, a very long list get me very excited lei I though what so many nice shows I can watch over 60 titles. The first one being spiderman 3. I haven't watch it mah so I happily go turn it on, guess what it shows me indian show. lol damnn funny lor I was like huh how come spiderman become indian show. Nvm lei the acting really very funny , it shows of a man barge into a room , inside the room got one couple and another guy. The man who barge into the room was holding onto a gun. He was shouting everyone don move, then the guy was like huh why you come in like that lei. The man with the gun hit him down onto the floor and tell him you think I holding a flower in my hand is it ? It is a gun ok . Lol then he go ask the couple guy's name. The guy told him what rambutan or something similiar I began to laught then he told rambutan if he didn't barge in , the guy who he hit onto the floor will also do what he is doing lol. Then I begin to try to switch shows. I cannot swtich any movies I think they ddn't on the system damn sian lor and I don want to watch the lame show. So I off it and try to sleep. Really man the indian show entertaining sia the subtitles they translate damn funny. Then after I change and see all the same liao wanted to carry on watching, it auto swtich to another show what the. I sianz half lor. Then after I sleep and wake up at 5.30 am singapore time I go on again. This time right I lucky they random to spider man 3 I go rewind to the front then started watching happily until I watch midway they change to shrek 3 . Wah lau I nothing to say lei then waited awhile again they swtich back to spiderman 3 . I think it like watching movies with commericals in between the show you want to watch will be interurrpeted with another show. Damn sian lor I wanted to ask why lei but then I think midnight and still early morning mah they surely think we all should be sleeping so they didn't bother to set the thing right. Hai so I know liao take midnight flight see so many titles interesting shows don be too happy first will get disappointed later or in the end watch funny indian movies lol you think I holding a flower in my hand ? It is a gun ok lol . I still remember that line.

Anyway enough of my flight experience. Oh ya I forgot to add, the plane also got house. I manage to watch one epsiode but I think not the first one, I think in the middle one. Then I finally know house refers to the doctor whose name is call house. He ya abit scarcastic. The epsiode I watch is he get shot by unknown guy. Then afterwards he got warded with the same guy who shot him, apparantly something happen to that guy that why hospitalised together. Then he was like go irrate the killer, and when they are disccssing on how to save another patient, he say hey killer you cannot sleep must see how I save people , or something like that lol. Ok lah quite interesting maybe I will try to find the show.

Lastly tomorrow I will go enrol to my school, hopefully everything will goes well. Will try to update you all more about what will happen next. Till then see you all around.

Departing to Australia

2007-08-01T00:35:00.000+08:00

It been 2 months already since I come back in June. So fast so many things happen during these 2 months, some happy some sad. Let not go into the sad part ya don wish to make dampen the reader's mood whoever is reading my post. Haha perhaps let just say somethings ended in a way even though not the initial way I wanted but still the same outcome I wanted. I was asked do you think it is good or bad ? I myself really think it is good. Anyway so fast I am going back to australia again, back to study my second year university in UTS. Perhaps it is another new start for me ba.

I am begining to think to quit mj, not because of the losing streaks I occured ever since I am back. Perhaps mj just isn't the game I am into maybe those losing streaks are showing me something ? Lol in whatever case let wait and see how it goes when I come back in december if possible with yan.

My life pretty much the same nothing much interesting and still alot of people is asking me so have you found a gf in singapore ? Hai perhaps let just say I am not the type of person whoever gal I see will want her to be my gf type of guy. I don look so desperate right ? I hope it would clear any misunderstandings of anyone having on me. I have no target now or anyone perhaps not now, or not even any time near. As I have said before some things are just fated perhaps I am the fated one who is to remain single? A quote I read of I believe it is quite true, if she is meant to be yours would be yours surely one day, if she is not meant to be the one no matter what you do eventually she will still leave you one day.

Anyway enough of my updates it time to rest. I am quite happy though even though I can't have one but seeing others happily together perhaps I am contented already.

Postphone departure

2007-07-04T23:05:00.000+08:00

Well was suppose to be flying next week monday 9th of july but because my visa not yet approved I can't fly. And because of that, I have to push my flight to another date. However july seems to be a hot season for people to be flying around, I can't find any slot in july to postphone the flight. Worse still even the business and first class are also fully booked that would show how pretty tight the planes are on that day. Hai so the next best alternative is book another date which is free however it will be in augest 1st. That would means I have to miss my orientation, my class and everything. Hai sadly to say I would have to miss school but happy thing is I get to stay in sg for a longer period of time lol . Perhps it is partly good and bad ba.

Anyway been back in singapore for some time, been eating with my friends, playing mj with my friends. Nothing much interesting to add up, even though went out with some gal friends but they are mostly attached. Pretty sad eh no single gal to go out on date with lol. Perhaps a guy just fated to be singe, it doesn't matter much to me though. One good news is that my good friend fai finally I believe is more stable in his rls, well at lease that shows how deeply bonded they should be even though there are some problems along the way. Through him, it has shown that no matter how hard the road is up away you, if you believe you can walk past and overcome it, eventually you can succeed. As for another friend of mine, perhaps another guy would be better suited for her. I hope you would look on the bright side and don let him get away after what he has owed you. Don alway think he don want to do this, force him also no use crap. It like someone owe you something, no matter where he go or run or hide, you must hunt him down and out and get it back. Because this is what he owe you. A small amount like peanuts ok can forget it, but it is not peanuts so therefore can't just let him off ok.

Through this two person, I learnt that gals can be sometimes seems unreasonable but looking at their side and think I still think there is a reason why they flare up. They can't be totally no reason flare up, ignore you. Everything happened because of something that triggered. Therefore if can compromise I think should be solved easily. However it would be hard for guys not that they don want to give in, not that they don want to listen just that it is hard for them to just listen from another point of view and use it. Therefore hopefully if both parties can just sit down and reason things out, try to give in abit here and there then I believe that rls would surely worked out. Wouldn't it be ?

Back on sat

2007-06-07T13:51:00.000+08:00

Wow finally back ever since I left in oct touch down the plane on a sat afternoon 2.00 pm exactly. It been a some time since I came back the feeling like everything has changed. From the car park at my dad's office change to cash card, jurong poing parking lot also has a new look, the stadium fially built outside my place. Too many well haven't go down to CCK yet so can't much is there any change there. Perhaps will be going on a friday evenning. Yesteraday went to a friend's hostel and play mahjong. Well apparantly a friend of mine want to tag along for his privacy decided not to mention his name. Apparantly at the beginning I was losing like 15 dollars wow so much depsite the fact that we are playing 10 cents 20 cents. Then in the end I manage to win $1 dollar. That would prove to say towards the behind I was trying very hard to catch up. Finally I did manage to win alot and recover my losses lol. My friend afterwards then tell me that they are all very good in playing that game. Every move I take was deeply observed well seriously speaking I alway never go notice other players movements. I guess it time to notice on this friday.

Well I didn't manage to lose any money but when I reach home I get a hell of scolding from my mom. Well ever since I touch down she has been like finding all my faults out and screaming at me. Hai seriously I did try to stop an arguement with her but it is not easy. Then she came up with this idea of work. Well for one month how can I work plus somemore so short no one will surely employ me then she ask me go office help out my dad. Well here I am working at my dad's office and typing this entry. Seriously I don see anything needed my help here. The office isn't that big, then my aunt take leave and my uncle might leave the office any time to attend to his family business. That is the reason why I am here to help look out for the office in case my dad need to run.

Well for an update my finance result is out so fast. I can't believe it. Well I was lucky enough to pass it without any distinction or credit. So sad but can' be blamed because the mid semster was quite poorly done just manage to pass in the mid semster. It was the end of semster which manage to saved me but not enough to secure anything else. The rest will be out by tomorrow crossing hands and praying hard.

A test

2007-05-25T20:52:00.000+08:00

You Are a Good Friend Because You're Supportive

You are almost like a life coach for your best friends.
You give them help when they need it... but you also know when to give them a push.

People tend to rely on you for moral support and advice.
You've probably always been mature for your age, so this is a role that's you're comfortable with.

A friend like you is one of the rarest kinds.
You are both a good mentor and companion.

Your friends need you most when: They are confused or worried

You really can't be friends with: Someone who only wants to complain

Your friendship quote: "The only way to have a friend is to be one."

What Makes You a Good Friend?

Well 3 papers done and 2 more to go, finally since october I been here and it seems like only a few days has passed now it May going June. I can't believe it man when time flies so fast. Anyway good luck to all who are going to have exams coming.

Friendship quote: The only way to have a friend is to be one.

A true life story

2007-05-17T17:54:00.000+08:00

"Hey Who is this J & C in your company's name in myicicle?" -Nikki

"Eh......................................................." -Jimmy

In the year 1997 decmeber, there was this guy who is named J and there is this gal named C living in a town call CCK. One day J went to the library with his gang of friends and while browsing some books, he caught sign of a beautiful girl. His group of friends urged him to go know her but he is shy and holding back but with much persuadation he finally raise his courage to go up and chat with her. He said to her hi I am J may I know your name please ? I would like to be your friend. She was quite stun and abit rejective and feel uneasy. J never give up and keep on trying, she see him trying to hard finally give in and tell him her name is C and they even exchange contact numbers. They chatted on phone every day for 2 weeks, can tell that J like her alot even thought it is a short time. There was once when they was chatting on the phone, her father snatched the phone over and ask J who are you , why are you calling my daughter ? He was stun and out of desperation he accidently show some disrespect to her father. Her father impression was not very good with this guy and told her why she know such a jerk. Well that was a small drama however didn't affect the feelings between them. In the modern times handphone wasn't so popular as then, so they was using pager. One day he received a page from her, unknown to him because it was kept in a cupboard. After one hour later he check his pager and found out that she paged for him. He see it as an hour before got so worried hence decide to call back to her. He call her numerous time but couldn't find her starting to get more worried. He lost all thoughs he began to think maybe she wants to meet up hence he quickly changed and run all the way to the nearest shopping mall. He run so fast that there was a police patrol car nearby saw this, they got worried quickly drive the car to stop him. The police was asking him hey are you being chased by a hooligan or is there someone after your life ? J was stun like why would he ask such a question. Well during that time gang fights were quite common that why police patrol are on the rise to stop the fights. Upon seeing that sight they though he is being chased after by someone hence stop him. J replied to them no it wasn't what they think it is, well I am in a rush to meet someone that why run so fast. They was curious ask him who are you meeting ? He say a very important friend to him indeed. They ask for his I.D then left him.

After they left he carry on to the shopping mall to search for her, search for so long still can't find her. He begin to get more worried and then suddenly his pager rang. He saw her number, return call and told her what happened. Well her reactions is that J is silly and funny but all those actions for her so she feel quite touched. The year ended and the new year came , the year is 1998 January. J decided it time to ask her to be his girlfriend. So he braved all guts and ask her to be his stead. She agreed it came as a surpise to him and this is his first love. He feels so happy and so loved. On the 3rd day they went out together and that was the first time they hold hands together. Perhaps it fate the relationship was a short one after 5 days later she wanted a breakup. He was devesated and keep on asking why, she can't give him a reason. Hai J was so sad that news came as thunder bolts with all of the bolts being zapped into him. He lost himself and over that one year he live like a zombie. That year 1998 was his worse times, it also was the mark of his end. Luckly he didn't give up on himself, he lives on because he knows there are still alot of friends around him to care for him, his family behind him supporting him. All this kept him going the toughest of times sort of gone over for him, through this experience he found out that true love can be sweet but at the same time devesating if it is ended. After knowing tihs he decided to carry on his life helping others to acheive true happiness, he wants to let people know that true love is not easy to come, so should treasure what they have. Don abuse it and think it is presumeable yours. He don wish to see another poor soul like him and suffer like him hence he tried to help whoever is in help. Sometimes he get so emotional and ask himself is it really worth it to help others and yet it still don come out as what he has expected ? Things aren't alway as planned as it should be isn't it ? This is life, what you don expect alway come unexpectedly.

A friend of mine, got into a relationship and she is unhappy of the stuffs that his bf don't do for her. Let just say perhaps everyone's expectations are different, hers might require more higher standards. Her bf perhaps didn't really manage to reach her standards now is on the point of being eliminated. You know how hard is it for me to stand at the side looking at all this happening and yet I can't do anything about it? Someone will ask why are you so concern over them ? Why bother to help me maintain something which is not making out ? Keeping them together won't it be more suffering for both of them ? I do admit I can see the problems they have and they have really tried their best but yet it still don't seem to work out at lease from the girl's point of view. From the guy's point ? Seriously I don know and I really want to leave them as it is. Just when I though eveytime they make out and become stable, I though it time I can finally see them happy together. Something bad will happen again. Well perhaps fate brought them together at the wrong place ? at the wrong time? or at the wrong moment? But I can really tell and know that she love him alot, he knows that so is it he is using that point to abuse her? Seriously I never have actually discussed this with him before but his actions everything don seems to be able to tally what he should be doing. This make her dishearted, make her feel sad, make her depressed. A bf actions can mean alot of things to a gf, your every action, your every move or even your breath can cause an uproar with your gf. I don believe guys are really that dumb until they really don understand what their gf needs and wants. Seriously I do hope to see you happy and attain your happniness as what you wanted. If you really feel he can't provide you with the sense of security you looking for is it breaking up is the only way ? Think about how much love you have for him, think about everything you and him have done together. I don encourage giving up lightly but I also don encourage holding onto a meaningless relationship. How do you define meaningless you ask ? I can't possibly tell that depends on your standard. I saying it in general that is all.

So many things has happened, one best friend has relationship problems too, another close friend of mine is going to do somethng very bad. Seriously I am disappointed in one of my friend's actions, and the other I feel sorry for him. Disappointed and disgusted by it, you know who you are I don wish to spell your name out. The other I think you are also having a hard time, to maintain friendship and also your love. I know what has happened, I really do wish I possess something which I can make it all right. Hai anyway finally the cat is out of the bag, remember the earlier conversation. J & C well J would naturally stands for me that is very obvious, but then who is this C ? Never knowing that she stands an important place in my heart right before ? As for now perhaps not as strong as before maybe do miss abit. So who is she ? What is her name? Well this I would perfer to keep it inself me, however fai I think you know who is she right ? She is someone who I mention to you before you should have an idea. That it a pretty long entry this time round haha anyway I am preparing for my exams next week might be abit busy perhaps after exam will blog again. Oh ya I forgot to mention, hai it been so long I think I should have forgiven a wrong being done to me. The chinese has a saying 的饶人处切饶人 meaning being forgiveful. I know of this long ago but it was reminded to me through my temple. We must be forgiving to everyone who has done wrong to you. Remebering what wrong one has done to you is only making you being revengeful and unhappy. I think I can truely let go and also there is another saying very true 害人之心不可有，防人之心不可无。It means don't posses a heart to harm people and at the same time you cannot let your guard down even if you don have the intention to harm people , other people might have. Anyway I just wish I could see more happy people.

Tag:

To nikki: Sorry I didn't quite keep to my promise, but this is really bugging me I need to let it out. Hope you don mind remember to stay happy and don stress out for the coming exams.

To nic: Yeah finally thanks for coming in.

To seng: Please think about what we all have said.

To fai: I know it hard on you, but don forget you will alway have my support.

To crystal: I know the going is not easy, so if you need someone to talk to you can find me. Which I don wish to hear too much lah because that would means you have alot of problems. Remember to smile more often ya.

Rare personality

2007-05-04T17:41:00.000+08:00

Your Personality is Somewhat Rare (ISFP)

Your personality type is caring, peaceful, artistic, and calm.

Only about 7% of all people have your personality, including 8% of all women and 6% of all men
You are Introverted, Sensing, Feeling, and Perceiving.

How Rare Is Your Personality?

Hmm perhaps it make sense in a way. Feel free to try it. Anyway been quite busy with school assignments. Alot of work being piled up I guess that is the result of being a procrastinator. Haha more to come for next week and star gate is also a reason for slowing my progress and my dark eye bags arhhhh. Now at season 7 I think by next week perhaps can finish season 8.

Tag replies:

To April: Hey thanks for your advise and perhaps I didn't say clearly there is no one in mind to go after. Hehe thanks for your concern though. Take care and you too rememeber to keep a smile on your face.

To gui: Haha I no longer idol her already I guess.

A touching love story

2007-04-19T17:37:00.000+08:00

I read a love story sent from my friend through friendster. It is in chinese so I took the time to translate it. The story goes:

There was a guy and a gal and they both love each other very much. The guy folded one thousand cranes and put them in inside the gal's room and told her he will love her forever. The gal was so touched and drop her tears, the guy though she was so touched that why she cried and never ask her is there any problem. The very next day the gal told him that she has changed her heart for someone else , a very rich guy who owns a benz, a bungalow and is the owner of a very big and famous company. This company is known as the Lim company which deals in electronics. The fine young man appear infront of the guy and tell him not to bother the gal anymore because the things he cannot provide for her, He can. This guy who the gal's lover was devesated to hear a news from her new lover and not from her. He knows he is poor and cannot provide her with anything and therefore he back out and left. No one knows of his whereabouts, and the gal was known that she went to paris with the rich guy and was living a happy life. 3 years later the poor guy appeared and this time he is wearing a suit, looks like a very successful businessman. It was known that during the 3 years the poor guy whose name is Jaki was actually trying to invent something out. His father was the famous well known scientist and he himself possess a very intelligent mind. There was a breakthough he manage to finish a theory which his father never managed to complete. He was suddenly famous and now he is of almost equal status as the rich guy before. Jaki even though was away for 3 years he never forget about her at all. All the 3 years are torture to him , what kept him going was the though of maybe showing what he can do to her and letting her know it her loss who don want him. He came back and tried to look for her but he failed. Just now when he was about to give up, he suddenly thouh of a favourite place which they hang out at last time. He went there and he was quite shocked because the tree which they alway hang out at was hanging with the 1000 cranes he folded for her. He was puzzled and decide to find out what has really happened. While he was looking, came along a little boy who carry with him a gardening tools appears to be taking care of the tree. He decide to ask the little boy about the cranes as in do he know where the cranes come from. The little boy said to him that the cranes come from a pretty gal 3 years ago. The pretty gal give the boy instructions to put the crane and also paid him money to take care of the tree. Jaki began to ask where is that gal now the boy say he don't know ever since 3 years ago that was the only time he met her. After saying this and do what he is instructed to do he left the tree left Jaki pondering. Jaki is not stupid he begin to link back why is the tree decorated with the cranes and why is she crying at the time when he give her the cranes. He began to doubt of the story that rich man has came up with and also the tales that they live happily at paris. He made a trip to paris to find the rich guy. The rich guy seen Jake become so successful was also happy for him. He began to tell him what really happened. The rich guy bring Jaki to a place, the cementry. He was stun and puzzled why did he bring him there. And to his horror he saw her name on the tomb and on the tomb lies a crane. As he recalled he counted the cranes on the trees there was only 999 left one. So he finally linked everything together and see the one lying on tombstone. The rich guy said the tree is you and her favourite place, even though how much I would like to be with her but then I can tell she has only you in her heart. I didn't force her to be with me, and we never did get together. I got to know her in the hospital. She got an uncurable cancer at that time, I pity her wanted to her with all I could but she refused me. You know she request one thing of from me that is to get someone to look after the tree. The small boy you saw is actually I paid him to do all those things. Right after you disappear she fell into a deep coma and before she died she was calling out to your name. Now you know the truth, I am happy you finally become someone but sad at the same time because she is dead. Jaki after hearing this news was stoned to the ground, dumbfolded and very sad. So sad that no word is there in the dictonary can decribe his feelings at that point of time. It began to rain, those rain are like blood he is shedding. The pain of loss he began to knee down infront of her tombstone and cried.

Well this story is not exactly the version I read, as I took the liberty to change some parts of the story lol. Anyway it really is quite sad to know that someone you love actully love you too but because of some reason cannot be together. She don want to be a burden to him decided to spend the rest of her life alone. Imgaine the pain and suffering both has gone through. I sometimes wonder is it really that hard to have a simple relationship? Is it really really that hard and complicated? Remember my pervious post, as I mention a dark storm has gone? I think perhaps it a mirage the dark storm was never gone or in fact it is alway present. Is there really a need to fold out and not even a friend anymore? Hai I guess there are some things can't be helped, I wanted to help however it alway doesn't seem to follow my script or will go according to what I think it will be. Are we man really that hard to understand woman ? Even more she is the one who you loved, is it even harder ? Perhaps I think the understanding is not enough for both parties. Perhaps there are other issues which never surfaced before. Whatever it is what matters isn't it the fact that you love each other very much ? Sorry I am so emotional again well perhaps it an experience I have learnt so far. From these two friends I seen, I finally knew something. It was never easy to be in a relationship, needless to say maintaining it. For one I can say he has never put in efforts in trying to maintaining the relationship. He must be thinking since there are people helping him, he surey can make it. Then I have to say this, if you don try to put in any effort don expect any flower to bloom. A very simple logic, how much care you put into taking care the flower seed will show when the flower bloom. Alway expecting others to help you take care of the flower seed you can see the flower will bloom but at the efforts of others what is there to be proud of. Please if you are not serious in a rls then don start it in the first place. When a party has devoted all her time in just to get a such attutide I don think it is really fair. For the other hai I think perhaps it a misunderstanding. I know you two love each other very much, perhaps the guy has fault I agree but then not to the extend of sentencing him to death right. I mean I undersatnd trust is very important here however it is not like he did something really really bad and try to keep from you. I know I know whatever he has done has done can't be any excuse to help furthermore it happen more than once. I can understand your feelings perhaps if possible all I ask is of giving one more and one last chance. Think about the memories you two had, think about whatever you two has done. I think it is worth it to give another shot don't you think so too ?

Lastly I hereby really wish to see this dark cloud scattered away and hopefully the two friends can really attain what they really wanted to have.

Another of my thoughs

2007-04-13T14:03:00.000+08:00

Oh well I guess the stormy weather is out of the way already for them even though there is still some small quarrels here and there but then I think should be alright now. Bascially someone ask me about this question well how your school ? And did you manage to find someone you like ? Eh with regards to that question I guess pretty obvious isn't it ? I guess my fate is not here yet even though have someone in mind won't necessary drive me to action anything. I basically have lost it I guess the will to find someone I like. Perhaps can say my heart is dead, some may say why give up so easily. Some may suggest only now for the time being only don worry she will appear some day.

Ya some day don know how many people have been telling me that haha guess I am being skeptical but I believe it is the truth. Anyway enough talking about me, just glad my friend's problem is solved and hopefully it will stay the way she wanted it to be.

Tag replies:

Candy: No worries man I will surely tag your board lol

evilgui: Fianlly you wanted to explain something better clear it up before it become even worse.

Just my thoughs on some stuffs

2007-04-04T17:28:00.000+08:00

Well recently there has been some things happening, let start by first explaining why I decide to lock up this blog. I have invited only a few friends to read this blog. First of all I really don wish some people to read my blog so I made this decision. Some may ask who are they oh well let just say some people who I don wish to say. Secondly a friend of mine started her relationship some time in January however this guy doesn't seem to be able to meet her expectations. You all might be wondering is she a demanding girl ? Or is he really that insensetive ? Seriously both parties I got talk to I can't say the girl is really demanding afterall what a girl wants from a guy is just attention, affection. The problem is he just don't get his priorities right, he been placing friend first compare to her gf. Erm I do try to tell him on this before but he doesn't seem to get through. Maybe he is really simple minded and because of his actions she get so hurt. I standing at the side I see it very clearly I know what is happening but when I try to help it doesn't seem to be able to do anything. I know what she wants and she is just asking for the basic a bf should be doing. However the bf of hers I really have no idea what is he thinking for once you might think he is really serious for her but suddenly he can just suprise you with another stupid action of his.

I think at first maybe he is serious for her but then he just don know how to express himself or financially he cannot be supportive in this. Money do play an important role however if he cannot be supportive in this area there are many other things he could do to improve. However he alway don like to put any effort in this from what I see I begining to think he is trying to find reasons to push her off. Some things he could have done but he just don want to do it. I don know why or is this just his way of dealing in a relationship. From her point of view it looks like he is not serious for her at all and that is really hurtful to her. I chatted with her and to hear to crying on this issue not once , not twice but many times. I feel so sad and sorry for her too however if it is so painful then you all must be thinking why not just let go. There might be better guys out there for her that is the best solution for her isn't it ? Why bother to teach a dog a new tricks when you can buy one which has learnt it. Ok not very good expression here but the theory is correct. A bf who needs to be taught how to be a bf then that guy is really not suitable for her. In my point of view I really wish to stand on her side and stop defending him, but if I do that I scare I am like destroying a relationship. She ask me this why do you care so much ? I really have no idea on how to explain this, I really care as a friend.

Take another friend for an example, this friend of mine is one of my closest friend in singapore. He likes a girl but he tends to do wrong things and hurt her in the process. I know they both like each other so I would alway stand and defend him hoping they won't fall out because of some small issues which can be solved easily. In this case I see some similaries here even though not totally the same I would still hope they won't break up because of an issue which can be solved easily. However a fish without water will still die, I can save the fish once, or twice can't expect me to be guarding at the bank to save the fist forever. I don wish to be the one killing the fish but if the fish is meant to be killed then I rather it be killed naturally instead of man made. I standing at the side I would rather save something then killing it. Hope this would somehow explain my actions and hope this would be clearer to you if you are reading my blog.

Lastly I would wish that you don think too much about this, and hopefully it has been resolved. There are still many things to look out for and there are still many wonderful thingss just waiting to be happened. After a heavy storm what would one expect to see ? The answer is vey simple 7 beautiful colours will alway show up in the sky aka rainbow. Therefore the darkest period is only a transaction after that will follow up with something good and nice. Hope after reading this post might make you feel better. Remember to keep a smile on your face, life itself is already very hard and tough with so many work , homework, assignments. I would rather smile and take on the day rather than gloomy and dull whole day. A beautiful view exist as long as one is in good mood. When one is in bad mood, seeing a beautiful sun set can also be an ugly one. You get the idea so smile is the key and move on your life.

Tag:
To Evilgui I am wondering why is guni so happy for you, ask you is ther any good news you say don have. Of cause I have to trust you right anyway may your wish come true if it is what I think it is.

To Tina thanks for coming to visit and thanks for the wishes. Hopefully you can also get good results

To candy Well I have to apologise to you, perhaps I don have a limit in joking alway make you angry. Next time I will surely control myself. Don worry you will alway be my good friend no matter what happens.

To Jill If you are reading this, can you please do something about your blog? I really would like to see an update from you. Do I need to give you a call or someting haha. Take care and hope everything is fine for you.

To Nikki You are a nice, good and helpful person;therefore someone who don know how to appreciate you shouldn't be worthy of your tears perhaps your decision is correct. I know you will stand firm on your decision and don worry you will alway have my support and also the rest of the gang. :)

Well a happy news perhaps

2007-03-23T19:11:00.000+08:00

Since you tell me so much it fair that I trade some information with you- by mike

thursday..................................ok you get the idea -by mike

From the above conversation to protect the party invovled the conversation has been censored. Oh well I think it meant to be a good news to whoever is involved well really quite happy for them. What more can I say perhaps some things are really meant to be this way. I think I will take a break in blogging for a while so people I wont be updating my blog for the time being until further noticed. Thanks for reading for those who alway come in and support me. :)

Tarot cards

2007-03-23T07:24:00.000+08:00

You are The Hierophant

Divine Wisdom. Manifestation. Explanation. Teaching.

All things relating to education, patience, help from superiors.The Hierophant is often considered to be a Guardian Angel.

The Hierophant's purpose is to bring the spiritual down to Earth. Where the High Priestess between her two pillars deals with realms beyond this Earth, the Hierophant (or High Priest) deals with worldly problems. He is well suited to do this because he strives to create harmony and peace in the midst of a crisis. The Hierophant's only problem is that he can be stubborn and hidebound. At his best, he is wise and soothing, at his worst, he is an unbending traditionalist.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

Taken the test from evil gui's blog and here is the result. Well recently nothing interesting happening lately. Don know what to write that why so long never update,anyway mid semester is coming so fast, law and marketing should have no idea on it just like started in week one. Anyway would try my best hopefully won't die too badly.

Recently haven't been sleeping well, don know why maybe it is pre exam stress haha ya right you all must be thinking would I be even stress in the first place. Well never know I am quite serious one ok.

Tag replies:
To candy: Well girl you are the only flooding my tag board. Unlike yours there are so many people flooding it. Maybe I should be the one considering removing my tag board haha.

To jill: As I suggested lazy and don know what is there to update that why never blog for some time. However Jill your blog is offically dead right ? So long never write anything come on man do update something about your life. Oh ya btw you have the whole of an island on your back when you go on court to play isn't it very heavy for you ? How you going to run around with such a big burden on your back lol.

LAW 305

2007-02-21T19:14:00.000+08:00

Hands up who want to take business in UTS. You what you going to take ? -John Taggart

Finance -iori82

How much marks do you want to achieve for this LAW 305?- John Taggart

100 -nikki mcmasters

Well today have a lecture on LAW 305, John Taggart our lecturer well let just say he is a humourous guy. Firstly when he start the lecture he go around asking who going to UTS after insearch then ask who want to take business hands up. As my hand is not up so he ask me what am I going to take after insearch I go tell him finance. I though he asking what are you going to major in so that why I answer him in the end become the laughing stock in the class lol. After that he say finance is also business, be it accounting, managment all is business, then ended finance ha. Next he ask me how much mark am I going to achieve in this LAW 305, I told him I don know then he say just shoot anything. I told him pass then he give a disgusted look and say pass meaning you want to achieve 50 ? Next nikki was sitting two person away from me so he ask her how much you going to get ? Since nikki was a bit distracted due to the fact that she left something behind at downstairs and getting worriend and paranoid so when she got ask that question she answer 100. Then he was like saying wow 100, then you have to work doubly hard for it. He mention there are alot of books on LAW in the library so then he told her you better read them all to score 100 or whoever want to score 100. The tone he use and the way he said it is very funny and sacarstic haha. The next best lectuerer other than John Tyler I find very humorous and funny. Looks like all those boring modules alway have humorous lectuerer not so bad. The worst I have encountered so far accounting 305 teaching us is Peter Wells I must say he really CMI. John teaching style is so much better than him and when john crack jokes he do it with style and you will surely know it is a joke. Peter when he crack a joke he will go asking why you not laughing it is meant to be a joke. Duh we all don't even know he crack a joke lol.

Anyway chinese new year of the pig arrives on the 18th of february so fast it the year of the pig again. 12 years ago it came and go and now it 12 years later so fast getting older and older each day. Hai not that I am sad about being old hai anyway just wishing all chinese have a happy chinese new year and have a better year up ahead.

Tag replies

To seng: Perhaps you are lonely as your gf not here and your family also not around. Don be too hard at lease you still have friends around right stay happy and may you have a good year ahead.

To gui: Well haha perhaps perhaps not in poly I admit poly abit more slack that why now regret have to go overseas study so sianz. I really miss those days back in singapore. How I wish now I am studying in singapore instead of overseas.

To candy: Well you are already missed by your bf liao lor still want me to miss you meh ? Wait your good O bf come looking for me how I don want wait he come after me with his SAR 21 haha.

An old serial

2007-02-13T19:19:00.000+08:00

当紧要关头不放弃，绝望就会变成希望 - 单均昊

在面对敌人时，不管你有没有信心，都不能够露出胆怯，相反的你要想像自己君陵天下，他看过来你要更具气势的面对让对方语塞 - 单均昊

Well just watch finish the show prince turn into a frog. Ya ya it a really long show I know I dled it some time ago but just plain too lazy to continue watching it so finally pick up the time yesterday to finish the show. Watch finish it today and I really like some of the phase so I posted it above. The name is pronounce as Shan Jun Hao, I think he really act out the charactor cool and stylish. I particulary like the seocnd phase when you are facing the enemey, it doesn't matter whether you have confidence and also cannot show your fear infront of him. On the opposite you have to think you possess greater aura, he stare at you, you have to show greater stand and debate him making him speechless.

It really meaningful and I think this is one the my favourite show, I like what he has said above and I find it quite meaningful. Usually you will show fear when you are facing the enemy and even more fearful when you know he possess a greater talent than you. Learn quite alot and quite touching the show at times rating for the show perhaps a 8 out of 10.

Tomorrow is Valentine day spend it quite differently this year, spending it with a group of friends partying then go enroll. Quite interesting eh first time I guess invited to a valentine party haha.

Tag replies:

To candy: BH means beyond hope , explain now already so when I go back don ask me again. Oh ya not sure when will be back most probably a chance in june but not confirm I also miss singapore alot of things I wish I could go back spend chinese new year but hai nvm . Quite looking forward to going back.

Finally results are out

2007-02-09T13:10:00.000+08:00

Woohooo lucky me, HD just nice 85 if I got miss by one mark well I won't want to think about it haha. Econs got distinction too well so happy at lease I know I am not on the wrong track. Accounting well what can I say manage to pass is already quite happy, ACAD that irrating tutor don give us high marks well no choice just plain unlucky to have met her as our tutor. Management know it long ago and it is not exam subjects well anyway this semster is over heard the next semster would be even more diffcult looing ahead for the challenge let see how far I can stretch. And ya evil gui who says I can't make it, told you I lost the feeling now I am finding it back.

Tag replies:

To evilgui: Of course I know that game Kingdom hearts, but I am not referring to that haha. Anyway kingdom hearts 2 have you managed to defeat Sephiroth? I think there is a pattern before I go manage to find it but still not very successful.

Birthday meanings

2007-02-08T15:49:00.000+08:00

Your Birthdate: October 6

For you, love is a natural progression from friendship. You are almost always friends first.
In love, you are loyal, steady, and honest. You are not a cheater or even much of a flirt.
You are likely to stay friends with your ex... and open to rekindling something in the future.

Number of True Loves You'll Have: 4

Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 5

You are most compatible with people born on the 6th, 15th, and 24th of the month.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean For Your Love Life?

People Envy Your Confidence

You have the attitude and self esteem to take on anything. Failure is beyond not an option for you - it doesn't even cross your mind.
People envy your ability to take on any challenge ... and they're secretly afraid you think you're better than them. You don't. You're just sure of yourself.

What Do People Envy About You?

Hmm you all can judge for yourself I guess wheather is it true or not. haha results coming out tomorrow praying hard.

Some things are best left like this

2007-02-04T19:54:00.000+08:00

Today feel very emotional so decide to leave an entry. Just now was chatting with a friend online. Oh well maybe it me or what I try to ask her out for a movie, or try asking her to go out. The replies I get is alway concern with her sister and her bf. Well not that I want to say, it like won't she feel she will be too bright I mean afterall they are couple mah. Anyway it not up to me to say I just find it strange perhaps she is trying to find an excuse to push me away. That the feeling I get anyway she is just a normal friend, just trying to ask her out for a movie doesn't mean anything but then she react so defensively which makes me kind of uneasy or let just say I won't want to try asking again. Everytime I tried asking something it like end up in failure. Am I lacking confidence or am I starting to lose the belief in myself ? I think maybe it both after all the failures I been through. I think I can conclude that some things are best left like this. I won't want to pursue anything already. I seems to be losing myself , losing my motivation everything that makes what I am seems to drift apart.

Someone once told me if you want to know what is your past life is like, look at your this life and if you want to know what is your next life going to be like look at what you are doing now. Everything has a cause and effects I also strongly believe in that perhaps I am reaping my effects which I sow some time in my past life. Nothing much can be done if it is meant to be like this then I will go through it. Anyway I will be fine afterall I survive through so many ordeals what is this one going to be. There is no way you can prevent what is coming in your path but we can be sure what can be avoided. Looking at what are your doings you would jolly well have an idea what you will be facing maybe not now but it will eventually come to you.

Quote of the day: To live without a heart is like walking bodies without a soul. A body can't survive on it own neither can the brain function without the body. Everything is connected if you want a way out then you have to see the roots of the problem.

Exams ended on 25th of jan

2007-01-30T18:27:00.000+08:00

Finally exams ended on that day and feel so lazy to write my blog hence late update. Well nothing in particular happening, just another boring day as time goes by. Busy playing yugioh ds quite interesting, hoping to get the best of cards those which I posseses in my hands now. Level still so low can't get it I guess.

When will there be something interesting happening in my life, seems so dull and no colour. Who would come and paint some colour? I really wish that would happen. Haha maybe living in fantasy or dream world might make it come true.

Yesterday is alex birthday, well wish him happy birthday and all the best to him hopefully he can have his wishes granted. I don know though just hope that his birthday wish would come true.

The though of moving

2007-01-18T15:19:00.000+08:00

Today only have accounting tutorial and no more management lecture. The last lecture conducted was last week. Went to library study finance and econ with a friend. Nothing much actually today after school went home, the first thing my aunt asked me about what time I slept yesterday. I told her 12 to 1 am. She like don believe me and even question me about a phone call last night. I didn't answer any phone call last night and I really sleep early, I told her this but she like still don believe me. She even commented she don't want me to be a bad example to her children.

Well nothing much to comment on that, if she really think that way perhaps I really also feel the place here is not really suitable for me. Just when I though something good is going to happen this happened. Should I say I am relieved that I finally got an excuse to move ? Or should I be sad anyway it doesn't matter anymore. I shall discuss this again with my family see what verdict they can come up to.

Tag replies:

To evilgui: Well perhaps it really is not what you think I am haha . Really I help both genders.

Gain a new piece of information

2007-01-16T17:32:00.000+08:00

"If we could teach you accounting in one lecture, we will do it" -John Tyler

Today accounting lecture, john the most humorous lecturer we have, today said the above. Well basically because this is the last lecture and all the pervious lecture he never see alot of students but today last lecture he saw alot of people who perviously never come to lecture. So he said that, as to why they all appeared not because it is the last lecture it is because he is giving us the format of the exam paper next week and also telling us what are the key points to study about. Thanks to him roughly have an idea of what to study for next week tuesday.

After class went for a drink of coffee with ryan, cassie and also nikki. Nothing much was chatting about movies, and ryan was chatting with cassie. Then we went for our last acad lesson hand up out last essay and that it wohoooo finally we are done seeing her. I think should be able to pass this acad if not surely she is going to get complain I am sure of that. After ACAD lesson, jacinth, nikkie ryan and cassie was downstairs loittering around the corridor. So join in the chat and interestingly found out some piece of so call good news. A friend of mine got attached, and very interestingly she told me herself she won't want to find a boyfriend here, guess her fate is here sooner than she has though to resist. And all resistance is furtile well all I could say is wish them all the best. Looks like have to keep a distance from her already, will still be friend that is for sure.

Tag replies:

To evilgui: Well evil gui looks like you don understand me well enough, I help both genders alright, be it guy or gal. Gays and lesbians are also welcome I don reject anyone come asking for help from me.

To guni: Drill hard on the econs right I understand don worry I will drill myself hard on that lol.

Teaching econs

2007-01-15T19:40:00.000+08:00

"I went to library teach a friend economics" -iori82
"Oh can teach people is she a chio bu?" -evil gui

Well today went to school library to teach a friend macroeconomics. You all would surely be thinking that person must be a gal. As you can see from the conversation above evil gui already guessed it a gal. Hmm asking him why would he guess that he told me because it me. Hello am I that sort only help girls out ? I also do help guys out one ok haha. Anyway today teaching perhaps also enhance on my understanding of the subject. Hopefully I didn't pass her the wrong information and wish her the best for tomorrow quiz, mine is on the wednesday. The whole afternoon was teaching her the concept and how to calculate the questions.

Before I go to library, my bag snapped some days ago, I decided to buy a new bag and so I got it then went to library. Upon reaching the library saw jacinth and the indian guy I sort of never catch his name. They were smoking outside and so when I reached they ask me how come I am here. So I tell them I coming to teach a friend econs, they was like oh it is it susan ? Eh haha susan is the girl sort of alway together because we take the same railway line. Well I said not her it another gal from another class. Then they ok and then they ask can ask me if they got problem too haha. Eh not that I am saying I am very good, just happen to understand some of the concepts. So I don mind helping them but then they also never ask me much questions. Having a sore throat really sucks , was teaching her and most of the time she is like hearing my clearing my throat and that really really is not very nice.

Lastly reach home around 7.30 then bath and take a break playing yugioh until gui message me and started the conversation above. All the best to everyone who is taking the quiz and exams next week.

Headache

2007-01-13T19:48:00.000+08:00

Hmm I think the weather is too hot yesterday and never drink enough water resulting my head very heavy and feeling headache. Or perhaps it the coffee that I drink and the side effects kick in. Anyway today wake up at 9.30am, after eating breakfast play abit of yugioh and it lunch time already. After eating lunch eyes really feel very heavy so went to sleep until 4.30 then wake up. First thing I checked my phone and I though wah it 7 already so fast. Then I think perhaps I am still in a dizzy state that 4.30 is the actual time here I though it singapore time so I add another 3 hours.

Anyway studied econs and do some acad editting, perhaps will start doing some accounting tomorrow. Econs is abit confusing but then I think I should have grab the idea already. Hopefully I am not thinking in the wrong way. The quiz next week should be able to tell how far I know of this marcoeconomics. Nothing much to say today nothing much interesting to say tomorrow will be going temple again.

Tag replies:

The tags are accidentally deleted away feel so sad, all my pervious tags all gone. Anyway it shall be a new start then.

To gui: "Thanks" you hor for saying your truthful words, well as a matter of fact I never hold in poly doesn't mean I never hold before in other stages of my life hor haha. I shall prove it to you I can do it again.

Miss an entry

2007-01-12T20:38:00.000+08:00

"Why are you home on a friday night?" -Dawn

Opps initially wanted to blog every day but I miss an entry yesterday haha perhaps I was too busy doing my finance work that I forgot to blog. Anyway today finance tutorial also nothing much interesting but our tutor tell us one interesting fact that in determining guys whether are you blod or not would have to see on the mother's father genes instead of the father of the guy. Hmm interesting facts and this tutor he is really like know alot of stuffs quite glad we manage to have him as our tutor and in lecture.

Been playing yugioh gx DS and even tried online playing with someone well basically just started out my deck so not much of a fight, would try to build up a more stronger deck before I go play online again. Waiting for some interesting games to ocme out like zelda, final fantasy vi a real classic but nice game been remake into ps 1, was on snes and now gba. Anyway a friend of mine ask me this question: "Why are you home on a friday night ?" Hmm I guess the question should be asking why is the shop closing early and besides I want to go out also with who no one else is here, my class mates eh perhaps they don go out much.

Lastly exam are around the corner and would try my very best to perform hopefully I won't let myself down and I really hope I can score high cuz that kind of feeling to be holding a distinction in my hands I have lost it for a very long time.

Opps

2007-01-10T21:52:00.000+08:00

"What kind of girls do you like jimmy ?" - by nikki mcmasters

Oh man today in a rush to go out forgot to bring my finance lecture notes along. I though I remember clearly I put it in my book last night, oh well must be I make a mistake. Anyway still manage to copied down the notes and now copying into the lecture notes. Just finish accounting homework not long ago now doing finance. Lucky tomorrow is afternoon lesson so it isn't that bad, would be going to sleep after I do some of my finance homework.

Nothing much to say just another normal boring day just waiting for my doomsday to come. Anyway a classmate of mine ask me this question, what kind of girls do you like jimmy ? Oh well so sudden struck me this question haha well can't really describle out to her so I just point out one girl who was in the lecture hall. Then she was like oh you like quiet girls, well according to her because when she tried talking to the girl I pointed out to, she never answer much to my friend's question. Asking her a question would end up with a single answer back so my friend concluded that she is a quiet girl. Haha then we discuss on this topic for some time they even ask me why don't I go after her haha. Well not really interested in her just saying she is my type of girl that is all besides I don think I am her type. The girl who ask me that question is nikki a local girl studying with us. She is quite a nice and caring girl, she even help me print out my assignment oh well really own her one. Would try to treat her to something one day.

Lastly whoever is reading my post now, hope you enjoy your day and oh ya thanks for wishing me good luck for my exams on the coming 22nd.

A tiring day

2007-01-09T18:43:00.000+08:00

Well today went to school for this accounting lecture and acad . Seriously speaking I really hate this acad it a waste of time, plus the tutor is very bias and also not very good. Compare to other classes, who do the same module, they wrote rubbish yet they get you know very high, where esle ours she is like very strict and give very low marks. This is really really unfair anyway it ending soon and ya don ever let me meet her again. It just our luck really damn suay to have such a bad tutor.

Today went to student services and enquire about the re-enrollment, sadly to say that person I speak to no matter what I say she just say no cannot you must be present. No one can help you or do it online, please come to this venue for re-enrollment if not you miss the date you will get a penatly of 500 aussie dollars. Oh man this really sucks, therefor no choice cancel the flight to singapore. Sorry guys I really want to come back but I guess fate just don want me back in singapore yet. Let look forward to june I am really really sure I will be back by then.

Sigh there goes the plan of playing mj with gui at friday night, there goes the plan of meeting my primary school friends, my other friends who I planned to meetup. Really really sorry when I come back will compensate you all. And ya fai , crystal you two have you wait another five more months before we can go eat the raman again. Really miss those days of eating that, and the rest really miss those days of playing mj, playing games, playing bb. I wish I could be in singapore now instead of staying here. Now thinking back really quite regretful for being so playful if not I would be in singapore now sigh what is past we can't do anything however I will do what I can now for the future.

Tag replies:

To Jeff: Well there is really alot of misunderstandings between us if we carry on like this guessing we can get to no where. Well it also good to clear up all those misunderstandings and hopefully it is resolved. :)

Birthday calculator

2007-01-08T13:38:00.000+08:00

Birthday Calculator

6 October 1982
Your date of conception was on or about 13 January 1982 which was a Wednesday.

You were born on a Wednesday
under the astrological sign Libra.
Your Life path number is 9.

Life Path Compatibility:
You are most compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 3, 6 & 9.
You should get along well with those with the Life Path numbers 1 & 5.
You may or may not get along well with those with the Life Path numbers 2, 7 & 11.
You are least compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 4, 8 & 22.

The Julian calendar date of your birth is 2445248.5.
The golden number for 1982 is 7.
The epact number for 1982 is 5.
The year 1982 was not a leap year.

Your birthday falls into the Chinese year beginning 1/25/1982 and ending 2/12/1983.
You were born in the Chinese year of the Dog.

Your Native American Zodiac sign is Raven; your plant is Ivy.

You were born in the Egyptian month of Choiach, the fourth month of the season of Poret (Emergence - Fertile soil).

Your date of birth on the Hebrew calendar is 19 Tishri 5743.
Or if you were born after sundown then the date is 20 Tishri 5743.

The Mayan Calendar long count date of your birthday is 12.18.9.6.4 which is
12 baktun 18 katun 9 tun 6 uinal 4 kin

The Hijra (Islamic Calendar) date of your birth is Wednsday, 17 Dhi'l-Hijjih 1402 (1402-12-17).

The date of Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 11 April 1982.
The date of Orthodox Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 18 April 1982.
The date of Ash Wednesday (the first day of Lent) on your birth year was Wednesday 24 February 1982.
The date of Whitsun (Pentecost Sunday) in the year of your birth was Sunday 30 May 1982.
The date of Whisuntide in the year of your birth was Sunday 6 June 1982.
The date of Rosh Hashanah in the year of your birth was Saturday, 18 September 1982.
The date of Passover in the year of your birth was Thursday, 8 April 1982.
The date of Mardi Gras on your birth year was Tuesday 23 February 1982.

As of 1/8/2007 12:34:02 AM EST
You are 24 years old.
You are 291 months old.
You are 1,266 weeks old.
You are 8,860 days old.
You are 212,640 hours old.
You are 12,758,434 minutes old.
You are 765,506,042 seconds old.

Celebrities who share your birthday:
Taylor Hicks (1976) Janet Gaynor (1906) Amy Jo Johnson (1970)
Elisabeth Shue (1963) Britt Ekland (1942) Carole Lombard (1908)
Le Corbusier (1887) George Westinghouse (1846)

Top songs of 1982
I Love Rock `n' Roll by Joan Jett & the Blackhearts Eye of the Tiger by Survivor
Ebony and Ivory by Paul McCartney & Stevie Wonder Centerfold by J. Geils Band
Maneater by Daryl Hall & John Oates Jack & Diane by John Cougar
Don't You Want Me by Human League Up Where We Belong by Joe Cocker & Jennifer Warnes
Abracadabra by Steve Miller Band Hard to Say I'm Sorry by Chicago

Your age is the equivalent of a dog that is 3.46771037181996 years old. (Life's just a big chewy bone for you!)

There are 271 days till your next birthday
on which your cake will have 25 candles.

Those 25 candles produce 25 BTUs,
or 6,300 calories of heat (that's only 6.3000 food Calories!) .
You can boil 2.86 US ounces of water with that many candles.

In 1982 there were approximately 3.6 million births in the US.
In 1982 the US population was approximately 226,545,805 people, 64.0 persons per square mile.
In 1982 in the US there were 2,495,000 marriages (10.8%) and 1,180,000 divorces (5.1%)
In 1982 in the US there were approximately 1,990,000 deaths (8.8 per 1000)
In the US a new person is born approximately every 8 seconds.
In the US one person dies approximately every 12 seconds.

In 1982 the population of Australia was approximately 15,288,891.
In 1982 there were approximately 239,903 births in Australia.
In 1982 in Australia there were approximately 117,274 marriages and 44,088 divorces.
In 1982 in Australia there were approximately 114,771 deaths.

Your birthstone is Tourmaline

The Mystical properties of Tourmaline

Pink Tourmaline promotes female balance and protection. Green Toumaline promotes male balance.
Some lists consider these stones to be your birthstone. (Birthstone lists come from Jewelers, Tibet, Ayurvedic Indian medicine, and other sources)

Opal, Jasper

Your birth tree is

Rowan, the Sensitivity
Full of charm, cheerful, gifted, without egoism, likes to draw attention, loves life, motion, unrest and even complications, is both dependent and independent, good taste, artistic, passionate, emotional, good company, does not forgive.

There are 351 days till Christmas 2007!
There are 364 days till Orthodox Christmas!

The moon's phase on the day you were
born was waning gibbous.

Well happen to see this on a friend's blog decided to try.

A very big thank you khas.

You all can go to the birthday calculator link above at the top to check for your own. Do tell me if you take it because I want to know too.

Well I hopefully everything is resolved, don think too much ok stay happy and all the best.

Explanation?

2007-01-08T08:09:00.000+08:00

Well I am not pointing at anyone's finger here, but then if you want to think that way I have nothing much to say. I never distort anything, I merely just point out some facts I observe that is all. I didn't imply or say thing to the others suggesting jeff is gulity or something. However when first saw him,which is yesterday a simple hi and where have you been up to. He give me this reply I don know how to explain to you? This sentence means what ? I never even ask him for an explaination then he come up with that. Did I demand an explanation jeff you ask yourself clearly. I from the start never ask you for anything to explain yourself then yesterday you finally appeared. I just merely say hi to you and you first thing come to mind want to explain this and that why ? Only then I find it strange so finally give you a call wanting to clear this up once and for all. But What do I get? I don think I need to explain here right, you say you will sort out everything then get back to us. I never point my finger at you saying hey you are the one who did this and that that result in my rls to break up. Linda you want to say I didn't do this and that I never treasure you fine but then why a simple explanation from him must take so long to explain? Why must he tell me there are other implications? Get the point ? I not blaming anyone for my spoiled rls, I never was. I know what I am into so if you really feel that I am distorting anything, then you better ask jeff what I asked him about. I must stress this point, since new year he give me a message after that I no longer see him until yesterday. So tell me what makes you think I am saying he is the third party in the rls ? I never never say anything like he is the third party, don believe you can go ask the rest of the guys. This issue is really bothering me. Why do I even bother to post this is not to let you think I am blaming anyone for the spoiled rls. I don think I need to explain further, if you still can't get what I am thinking then I really have to say nothing much I can say on this. If jeff is really stress over this, tell him don be I never intended to isolate him or anything. The rest think what; I never at any of my part influence them to think, ask jeff why he don't even come to msn. He been missing for so long and yet when you come back he just tell you whatever he think is correct. But did he bother to come online and chat with the rest? No he didn't why ? I don know why. So just don because you don know anything don't assume I am spreading causing and making you all feel miserable. The rest never had a chance to speak to him ever since this incident happened. He never come at all, I don know is he avoiding me or not, so I just ask him are you avoiding me ? That is all, I find it strange, very long never see him and the rest too. Yet he think that way nothing much I want to say already if you still don believe me fine think what you like. I also have enough of this, I never intend to lose this friend, however he on his part never even bothered to come back contact with us. Yet when you come back first thing he say to you we suspect him as being the third party. Why can't he come online and chat with the rest and clear himself up if he really feels that way. Why don he come and ask what is happening first before he jump to conclusions ? Really sad linda even though we never was meant to be together but you should know at lease am I the sort going around spreading nonsense or rumors ? I am not suggesting he is but I think he think too much get himself so stress up for what ? No one is blaming him or anything, yet he think I am blaming him and telling the rest. I have already explained believe it or not up to you two. The problem should't be so complicated why it become complicated I also would want to know. Trust me I never never point my finger on him saying he is the third party, that all I have to got to say. After this post whatever you posted, I would not responded I find it meaningless to carry on this matter. I don wish to let you all think I am so sad of the rls that ended and hence if you with who I will blame whoever is with you. I am not that insensible, I understand the feelings one has. If we are not meant to be together then if you have found him I would be more than galdly happy for you. Do you get my point? So I presume after this post you would have a clearer view of my thinking and hope it solve your problems too.

An overseas call to jeff

2007-01-07T20:16:00.000+08:00

As suggest in the title I made an overseas call to jeff and chat with him about the situation we are in. Well ask him alot of questions but didn't really manage to get an answer out from him. Anyway shall wait till he is ready to answer my questions.

Morning went to temple and before the master talks I though I would be very engertic to listen to her wisdom but just when she started her speech my eye lids don know why suddenly become so heavy and hence I can't fight against my sleeplyness and fall asleep. Well kind of embrasssed after all she is giving her wisdom out. Even though I was sleeping I still manage to caught some of the things she said. Well deeply understand her points and will keep in mind what she has said today. After eating lunch play a game of yugioh with some kids in temple, well even kids almost can defeat me I guess I must really review on my cards and strategy.

Oh ya today went through all my pervious post and I remembered about quote of the day. Well I removed it from since 2006. Read back all my postes really bring back memories and make me realise how time flies, from the time of army to now all those that happen 2 years ago is just like yesterday just happened. Well today perhaps I will add in code of the day only for today.

Lastly yan got himself a new specs, I guess he play ff 12 too engrossed untill his eye degrees increases. Well yan it time to take a break and come back and chat with us haha. Just kidding enjoy your ff 12 then. Well it kind of fun heard from gui and look at yan's playing I guess it really is addictive. Wait till I go back get my hands on that.

Quote of the day: To be sitting down and shaking leg, one must have attain a very high postion in place of the company if not he is just waiting for death.

A boring sat

2007-01-06T21:07:00.000+08:00

Well today basically been sleeping, not much of doing any work due to the fact that last night was chatting throughout with alex on the skype. We chatted to this morning 5am singapore time and my time would be 8am. Haha discuss alot of stuffs like the days of hardship we went through of the ns experience and discuss of life. Talking about games, issues we discussed are confidential so haha won't disclose of any here. I must say a very big thank you to alex, for companying me to chat to this morning. Alex you are alway the best, whenever I have any problems confide with you I surely would feel better.

After the chat, my auntie like quite angry in the morning I have no idea and then she ask why I never sleep and say it is an action that shouldn't be done. So she is restricting the time usage of internet hai. Anyway I would try to sleep early tonight then. Yesterday while chatting with alex fai come in skype and give me a call due to the call I have with alex so I never pick up and reply to him saying that I on phone with alex. After that wanted to ask him more questions he gone offline perhaps he is busy ba. Fai a very nice, friendly and funny guy my secondary school classmate since secondary school sec 1. Really glad I sit beside him and get to know such a good friend currently studying at NTU.

Crystal is fai's uni classmate both are equally tall and quite compartable for each other. I wonder what is stopping them from being together, it really is a sad thing to see two compartable person and they have feelings for each other but still not together. Anyway can't comment much it their decision, just would like to wish them all the best hopefully when I come back I could get to hear what I would like to hear. She is a very kind and good person and further more she is very sharp well, a very worthy friend to befriend with. Thanks for listening to my grumbles and your patience to listen to my stories. Really appreciate that well really hopefully fate is allowing me to go back.

Alex got to know him in secondary school sec 2, a transfer student from CCKSS. Well initally not very close to him I think towards the middle or end of year then quite close to him. Alex a low profile guy but a very clever guy, practically never study and still can get As for his exams I really think he is a genius haha currently studying in NUS. A genius with no proudness, no arrogrant and no attutide that is unless you go provoke him until he really cannot take it then his attutide will show trust me no one would want to see that part.

Evil gui a guy who brough into our circle by another friend and that friend is not in our circle already. Anyway a really friendly,nice,funny and caring person. After knowing what has happened tried to hide the truth so as to protect over me scare I will feel hurt. Thank you for your concern and concealment really appreicate it.

Gunizui a very good and humorous guy, get to know him in sec 2 also another transfer student but I don remember where. After knowing what happened tried talking to me and console me and also try to make me feel less sad. Worried over me and also don wish I anyhow think.

I am really glad I have such friends above all so concern over me, scare that I cannot take it. Blessed so much perhaps god is fair to everyone, he never grant me one thing but he grant me alot of others. For that one thing pehaps it is in waiting to come poping out from somewhere. I wish good luck can befall on them and all the best in whatever they do.

Tag replies:

To gui: Come on you are loved by everyone, when you are put into that category means you are loved. Well maybe this is not the love you seeking for but then you know true love is not easy to find. But don worry you still have us, we can't give you the love you looking for but then you can have our support from behind you.

Another boring day

2007-01-05T21:08:00.000+08:00

Today have a finance tutorial in the morning 9 to 11 and follow by econ lecture 11 to 1 pm. School end at 1pm yeah I like fridays end early and mondays no school; today super damn tiring nearly doze off in econ lecture. Today finance tutorial tutor mention to us that perhaps alot of people would like to come and make friends with us be prepared to leave e-mail behind. He says this is because this class 9am one alway do his homework, hand in work on time compare to other tutorial groups he has, he find us is the best, and also due to the fact that the semster is ending soon. Haha we all think he is being sacartisc but this tutor out of the rest I personally feel he is the best. He teaches maybe boring but as you get to know him better you will find that actually he is a really nice and dedicated guy. Sometimes he will joke with us too a very good financial tutor maybe he is not very suited to be a lecturer but nvm he is still the best. Then follow by econs lecture today, finally get to know what is marco is about. The past two lectures was like so lost today finally get a bit of understanding revise more I should be able to get it.

After that go eat lunch and go home sleep so tired man now two more weeks and it going to be exam already so fast, not very prepared though perhaps will start a bit of revision tomorrow. Today I forgot to do one thing to go to student service centre and ask about the stuffs. Looks like have to drag to next week and see how well if this carries on perhaps I will be going back to singapore sooner than I though haha.
Oh ya recently been playing back neopets thanks to my cousin who played it and revive me to play it again. So long never play already when playing back they have added alot of new stuffs, new worlds and new games. Well it sort of childish but haha who cares it the games I am after inside.

Tag replies:

To sweetamy85: Yeah thanks I also like death note, before this movie and anime I read the comic. Though it kind of short it ended at book 13 but still find this story not bad, now got anime and movies I would want to watch it. And ya my life kind of sucky now alot of things happen read my pervious post you will understand why. Thanks for coming in though it been a long time since I last saw you in here.

Accounting presentation

2007-01-04T20:19:00.000+08:00

Today had my accounting presentation, initally was quite nervous but when it really started I am quite alright with it. Although I am not very sure whether my presentation got do well or not, since my tutor never comment much hai I guess must be quite badly done. Anyway bought chocolates for the whole class, two packets and it was all given away I only manage to have one to bite. Give two to the tutor hopefully can earn good marks for my presentation. I never go ask I guess just leave it as it is.

Oh ya the prepost presentation well went to buy chocolate at paddy's market, and get my friend a perfume. Total cost me about 70 dollars in total 59 for the perfume and 11 for the chocolates. Now I am almost broke already anyway still can survive until I go back to singapore. Today never have the chance to go ask, tomorrow after school end at 1 I would go down and ask whether the re-enrollment would need to go down personally or not if possible use internet to register the I can fly back to singapoe already.

Well one big news, my third sister is getting married. I only know it today she having her ROM on the 24th of january. I only come back 2 days later due to exam hopefully she can change the date to 2 days later then I can make it in time haha. Don have the chance to chat with her yet, when got would suggest to her see is it possible. This good news sort of revive the though of going back but still maybe it is still not strong enough. Hai how I wish all what has happened is just a dream, a really really bad nightmare; wake up and that is the end however easier said than done. Everyone understands how I feel, I am really glad I have you friends around. Well even my uni classmates get to know this tried to console me. One of them said this well studies is still the most important thing, given it up then you won't even survive let alone such trival matters of love to be bothered of. Ya studies is afterall the most important, I still have my dreams my company well just a dream hopefully I can really have one out. Another of my uni classmate the one I give present to although she never give much good advise but she asked why I never chat with her about this when it happened in msn? Well I guess this question is the thoughs that counts even though not so closed but can see she is quite a caring person but I guess she don know how to console people. The way she say things like so not serious haha anyway I still quite touched when she said that why don you chat with me on this. It like firstly never get to see her online secondly not very close. Anyway thank you so much to everyone who is around me. I am blesssed in a way so afterall I think I can still raise my head and put on a smile to brace whatever more is coming because I believed I have you all to support me from behind.

Tag replies:

To Tinkerbell: Thank you however don know how I flare hopefully it is really not that bad as I think it is.

God of luck

2007-01-03T20:02:00.000+08:00

Well today did my management test, although god luck was smiling at me but still I never did grab the chance to perform as what I expected I would do of. Today test got 7.3 out of 10 quite badly done I must say because the essay question I got 2.5 out of 5 only. According to him I miss the point so perhaps I did talk about the point but I elborate it in a wrong way. Hai I was hoping question 2 come out and it did but then hai I just hai never manage to score. One person manage to score 10 out of 10 and arhhhh really really don feel good anyway it over I am done with management I think should be able to get a decent credit or luck is with me I might get a distinction.

Gui told me to read his post, as I did read it and I must say the story he wrote is somehow similiar however it quite different to what I have encountered. There are alot of things you don understand, it is not so easy as you though. It is really complicated even up to now I am still quite confused just that I don wish to think anymore. I also wish these issues are over and done with no point still holding onto it. Your friend he might be died or might not be we all don know, perhaps he has recovered and walk on his life. In life there are so many things so many decisions to make. Who can actually come up and say hey your decision is not right, hey you should follow the social norms and you shouldn't do this and that. Even a robber wants to rob a bank we know that is bad conduct but we can't possibly run towards him and say hey stop that you will get caught and sent to jail. Do you think he will care and stop and listen to you and actually turn from a robbter become a good guy? No one is perfect, when one makes a decision I believe one would understand what is the consequences of the decision. Your friend did what he believe in, he despite of his health go aganist all odds just to see her. This shows how much he just cares for her but at the same time we know it is at the expense of his health. After when totally he has given up on his life he no longer cares about anything more. Frankly speaking there was a time I though of that, but still I manage to survive through. I been through worst of times and I think this is not in any way worst than what I have encountered before. If I want to use a word to decrible how I feel it would only be disappointing. After this incident it really widen my sight and thoughs also made me realise some points in life. Perhaps this is an experience for me to go through after this gain I think I have leveled up and hence I will be stronger. Anyway thanks for writting your story and frankly speaking I don have the excited mood to go back anymore. After I have confirm somethings then I will decide whether to cancel off my flight back to singapore. I will surely keep you all informed don worry some things refers to some school stuffs. If it can be settled most probably I won't be canceling the flight. Let see how fate has for me, if I am not meant to be back then I am not. Destiny is in control of your own hands according to gunizui ya I agreed but then you can fight as hard as you want, maybe it can really work but then if everything is already written and place infront of you, no matter what route you take eventually you will still be lead back to that route.

Lastly tomorrow got accounting presentation I though it was going to be tough but lucky it is not. Last year 24th of december was one of my uni friend's birthday well didn't actually buy anything for her. Perhaps tomorrow my presentation I would get something for her. Since I would also be buying some chocolates for people who answered my questions. Wish me all the best .............

Management test

2007-01-02T20:05:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow is my management test straight after school reopen got a mgt test so sianz, still mugging for the test. The essay question is kind of hard, as mostly you have to think about it yourself and you can get information from the book even though you try to memorise also won't be much use as you need to explain the things mostly as in the books won't provide you. Hopefully tomorrow would come out a question I am more familiar with.

Today nothing much happening, lately so many things have happen I beginning to get confuse and almost lost sight of myself I guess it time to pull myself back together. Facing the problem instead of running away from it. I don know what to say I just want to get over this and done with.

Trying to hide the fact I understand what your intention and quite greatful for that thanks for trying to protect me. Really blessed to have you friends around, espically thanks to alex, crystal and choonfai who go through with me together with this and also consoling me. Well really owe you guys and gal a treat when I am back let go out and have a feast. Without you people supporting me I don know I got the strenght to move on or not. Yesterday did so much thinking almost can't sleep eventually fall asleep and in the morning so legathic drag my self to school and the sky is raining. Like very chiam like that get my shoe wet, socks wet, jeans abit wet even with umbrella I am still half wet at my side I mean. A rainy day today just like my life, a stomry day arrives only then I never get to see the rainbow after it left. Anyway hopefully this storm is over and won't coming bugging me I just want to have peace that is all.

Lastly hopefully I can score good results for tomorrow mgt test, for the past 2 tests score quite well, one get 9.6/10 and the 2nd test got 10/10. The 3rd and last test can't pressurise scare can't do well. Hopefully tomorrow I am blessed with god of light.

Tag replies:

To Kene: Of course new year mah I must be efficient you know haha.

To zegui: zegui ar thanks for your concealment but next time perhaps you could use some practise from naruto. Master the art of kagebushin then you would more clones to gather up the accurate information haha.

To guni: Thanks why you never update your blog, alway go the same entries ...

New year 2007

2007-01-01T17:55:00.000+08:00

The first post of the new year, well where do I start? Perhaps can star by saying this morning went to temple backyard and do some gardening. It is really quite a tiring one, the lawn mower is heavy and after going through a few rounds my hand , my back almost gone. I guess that is the effect of long time never exercise. Quite a good workout I must say haha. Today just nothing much happening just do some gardening and also some cleaning up of the temple.

School reopens tomorrow arhhh I hate that feeling however think of when the faster finish of school term I would be back in singapore the more motivated I am. Can't hope to go back to singapore faster so as to meet up with my long lost friends like very long lost already. Just now was playing BF 2142 with one of my army friend who went to usa study. Oh well maybe because he is from usa joining AU server he get to kick out quite often as a result he never get to fully play the game hai nvm perhaps next time shall join his server.

A new year must have a new look so I shall have this new blog skin here hopefully that would my blog more brighter haha. Kene as you have commented on a new blog skin here it is. How is it ? Give comments I waiting to see it hehe. Lastly 2007 let hope this year is full of good stuffs waiting to be opened or encountered I really hope so.

Tag replies:

To kene: So how this for a change, I think now is so much easier to scroll right the tag box is at the side not at the bottom anymore and it is also easier to see from the side and also thanks for visitng my blog.

To Guni: Thank you for coming in may you also have a very good year.

Last entry of the year 2006

2006-12-31T22:55:00.000+08:00

Well finally it that time of the year again, 31st december the last day of 2006 and the welcoming of 2007. For this year 2006 I must say nothing much interesting nor special. Just another same old year and plain days of my life, review of my actions I think I need to improve on alot of things. Hopefully I can improve in the coming year 2007. First thing first just went to see the fireworks at sydney harbour bridge it really is so beautiful and wonderful. Too bad I forgot to bring my own camera if not I could have taken the beautiful shots and post it here. Well as a matter of fact in sydney now is offically 2007 already, in singapore about 1 more hour will be a new year.

As for my new year wish, I shall just make it plain and simple, to be able to excel in my studies and hopefully bring glory to my self and my family haha. It would be great if I could also manage to find her next year. Well almost every year is the same wish but never seems to come true perhaps I need to show my actions hopefully next year I could get my wish. I also would like to wish for peace and harmony , happniness for my family, may they alway blessed with good luck. As for my friends hopefully you all enjoy your life to the fullest and stay happy always. Remember the darkness of times shall stay as long as you wanted it, so whenever there is a flaw or bad things happen don hold onto it instead let it go by quickly. Pick yourself up and walk on bearing in mind what you have gone through. Only then you will grow stronger and the bad times will come lesser. Trust that you can do it and the belief will be rewarded by your actions. What you think will be what you are going to do so think postive and everything shall work out nicely.

Lastly hereby would wish to say to everybody happy new year 2007 and may all your wishes for the new year come true.

The truth

2006-12-30T20:01:00.000+08:00

Well I just happen to read a friend's blog and feel really emotional so I decided to add another entry. First of all I would like to say about a rls I have ended some time ago when I am in australia. Perhaps ya it is right the time we met and the time to start is really really a bad time, so this girl I have some feelings back some years ago I decided to start a new rls with her in hoping that we can go through these together. I even told her all my dark secets that even whoever is closest to me also have no idea about. I am prepared to tell her that of cause is believing that she is the one for me. I did all I could but she is never happy about my actions. I admit when she say must alway chat and send messages, I really find it a hassle not that I don care about her, I just don feel the need to everyday. My style is perhaps like this, I will still keep in contact don worry I won't go missing but if you keep on wanting to chat and chat I of course would run out of topics be it who the person is. I don have alot of things to say also it my feelings I think as long as I have her in my heart is alright already isn't it. In my last entry I mention about air ticket notice the difference now as I would add in more details. One question she got in her mind is why I never bother to try booking hard for an air ticket to go back in december. Is really cash that important to me compare to the love of hers? The answer to this question why I avoided it and even in the end result in breaking up is because I wanted to give her a suprise. The air ticket booked on 26 jan 2007 is meant to be mi appearing at her doorstep while we are still together with perhaps my ideal dream of having flowers in my hand to give to her. There are alot of things I never wanted to explain it is not because I don care or I don want to, it is because I only meant it to be something suprising outcome for her. As I only say and I really don want to just say only I want to show some actions but how am I going to show when we are so far apart? Anyway it doesn't matter anymore but perhaps some things are still best explain. I say this is not out to make her feel sad or what. I say this out to express my feelings on this, as I said before she has found herself a new bf already. I don think time is an issue here what matters is how you feel towards each other. This post is not out to make anyone feel sad or guilty or anything. If you are reading this please don feel you owe me something or you have let me down. I have choosen to let you go also, since you have already made your choice then go by your choice. I really wish to see you happy, I know the times we are together it is really stressful beside I only make you cry so perhaps there is someone better out there to take care of you. You have already found it and really glad for that. You shall have my blessing on these, and don have to worry about anyone views on this. Feelings no one can control just promise me to stay happy as you are and never have any regrets. The angel you have found have better to treat you good, if not one day I shall be the first to ask him why but I guess that day won't be coming from what I see he is really good to you. Remember that no one is hurt through this and everyone should be happy right? I really wish you two all the best. After knowing the truth perhaps it is also right for me to explain the truth up there. That is all don worry it nothing against you two so I must stress on this point. Remember to stay happy always.

Second last day

2006-12-30T19:25:00.000+08:00

Today went to a friend's house play lan craft on warcraft 3 maps. The maps we play is dota and battleships. Well went with my cousin also, and my cousin team up with me only in dota to play with another group of guys. I think perhaps they are new to the game so we give them handicapped. We only two person in one team and they have 5 person in one team. We still manage to win them. As I said before, they are relatively new that why we manage to trash them even at the extend when we go vs with them 5 we still manage to get double kill or triple kill. After that we try a map they have played before battleships. Well it using of ships to battle like dota but then you don control heroes you control ships. Got interesting quests to do and earn exp and gold if you do it you will be richer than the others. The quest is time consuming so if you do quests then you can only support your teams mates by giving them money to help them buy better weapons or better ships. The outcome, got win and lose we also play vs maps eh perhaps too long never play liao become rusty and I also not very good at that so lose lor.

Spend whole day at his place until dinner then go back reach home already 8 plus already. Finish dinner went back to my room dl death note 12 finally it out. It becoming more and more intense, how I wish it could come out everyday haha. Yesterday I do a search on youtube happen to come across this funny clip. It is talking about CDPRO in hokkien, and it is not the andy lau internal affairs clips it taken from yet another show. They make it super funny espically the second and third clips I can't stop laughing. It would be best if you understand hokkien as mostly hokkien language espically crude words are super funny. I shall upload some of the clips here.

This part 1

This is part 2

This is part 3

This is part 4

This is part 5

This is part 6

Enjoy laughing then it is really damn funny.

Tag replis:

Fai: I know it is really nice, but you got the whole series already ar ? I though haven't fnish ? Anyway thanks I shall get it from you when I am back.

Just a feeling

2006-12-29T18:41:00.000+08:00

Well it nearing the end of the year 2 more days and we will be in 2007 already. Counting the days past, I wonder what have I really achieved this year. I don know also still getting to somewhere I hope. Well read a friend's blog glad and happy for her that she found herself a bf already. Perhaps girls are alway easier to find another bf to care for her. Even though she just fallen out from one not long ago. What can I say hmm only to say congrats to them and wish them all the best.

Today went to get my air ticket yeah and finally it is fixed I shall be back on the 26th of jan 2007 to 25 feb 2007 wooohooooooo finally I can go back for chinese new year so so happy I guess no words I can find now to describle how I feel. Going back on a friday one day right after my exams haha see you guys back then.

Oh ya been reading naruto manga I must say it getting more and more exciting just when is the anime going to switch back on track with the manga. According to gui the anime will go back on the feb well really looking forward to that. Last time there is this DS game call jump super stars whereby they combine alot of manga charactors in the game where you can use them to fight each other. The series include death note, naruto, yu gi oh. Those that are fightable will be use as charactor to fight as for those like death note the charactors will be out for support only. Anyway back to the point why I said so is because there is an improvement to the game they came out jump ultimate stars whereby they add in more manga charactors like from slam dunk, captain tubussa, and also improved charactors for the series like naruto since it is still drawing they mange to include the latest naruto improvements like when he got 3 tails and lastly 4 tails included inside you can use them to fight. Sasuke also improve they have him as in the manga the improved version after training with orichimaru that is also why make me want to go chase back the manga. Haha quite strong for sasuke and I must say he is a realy cheater. I think jeff if you are reading this go and dl the game and play now every thing is so much more simpler than last time. Now really looking forward to Final Fantasy VI for DS coming out next year in feb, Zelda DS not sure when would it be released but hope it is soon. Phoneix Wright 2 even though I have played before now playing again I still can get struck haha perhaps I really should read the guide again. Looking forward for wii to stable and most probably will buy it next year when it is stable to PS 3. Even though PS 3 is so much better in terms of grapics and performance but I think nintendo wii has much nicer games. People reading this will surely come up with this idea why not buy bot of them PS 3 and wii as a matter of fact I am not printing money or have an inifinite gold mine hiding in my house somewhere so I don have money for both.

Lastly lately I been doing some thinking on my life, every year I alway wish for the same wish yet it never seems to be fullfilled. Well perhaps I never put in effort to show my sincerity to my motherly god. I still hope maybe my wish would come true, whatever it takes be it be vegetrain I also will do haha. Perhaps it me is the problem the wish didn't get granted must have a reason behind. I believe there is a cause and effect so perhaps I am reaping effects arise from the cause from before. Anyway my new year wish is still early to say, perhaps I shall post it on my last entry on the last day of this month which means the last entry of the year 2006.

Tag replies:

Gui: Hell rider ? haha perhaps I really don understand what you trying to say here pehaps you can rephase or explain clearer

Fai: As I know of you for so long, you are so interested in PSP alway saying it is so much better than DS. I guess buying you a DS will result it kept away at one corner haha anyway shall be waiting for your treat next year hopefully I would be back by then.

Some things are just meant to be......

2006-12-23T17:58:00.000+08:00

Well it really been so long that I update this site, alot of people is asking why you not updating perhaps the question should be ask where to start? Well I guess shall start with the break up with my gf, as a matter of fact perhaps we really aren't meant for each other, even though how much I would yearn this to work out but still if you force to hatch an egg without a hen still it won't hatch into a chick. I guess it best we stay this way may she found her happiness one day. As for me perhaps it best I am left like this, I wonder is it because of me or is it she that make me realise that being a bf you must really give in alot of things. I use to think that relationship, isn't it alway so simple ? Why must people complicate things now then I finally understand the logic behind. Perhaps I am not a good bf, perhaps I really don know how to love or perhaps I only know how to advise people when it comes to own problems I am at a loss. Seriously I been thinking is it really I never been doing my job as a bf ? Anyway it over let just leave it as it is, perhaps some things are just meant to be.

Tomorrow is christmas eve, counting the days I been here I must say time really passes very fast here in sydney. I don undertand why also haha perhaps it a good thing faster come faster go then I can faster go back reunite with my friends in singapore. The though of staying here perhaps is not so strong anymore basically it is good here no distraction but I can't bear my friends my family in singapore I think most importantly the food in singapore is so much nicer than here. If hungry int he middle of the night can go out buy food but if you are hungry in the middle of the night here in australia I can tell you go to sleep or drink more water perhaps it can ease your hunger.

Oh ya recently bought two new games in australia, an original game of battlefield 2142 cost me $68 aussie dollars conver to singapore will be roughly $83 quite expensive though but then can play with them online ya it worth it somemore I believe the game can be traded back to the store so if the fever dies down I will go trade it back see how the system work ba. Another game is CSI dark motives this game cost me roughly $19.85 aussie dollars roughly will be about $24 singapore dollars so still quite worth it haha. Not bad the game quite interesting maybe can lend to friends when I go back to singapore.

Fai birthday happens to be yesterday 22th of december well what he hopes for is a PSP for his birthday I must say it quite expensive yet to buy perhaps if he don mind can consider buying him a DS console instead wahahah perhaps to welcome him into the nitendo family. What I mostly interested in would be the wii pronounce as we however according to jeff the system is still unstable wait till the second batch then buy if not I should have own one now in sydney haha. Lastly happy belated birthday to fai and may his dreams come true.

Tag replies:

To nic : Thank you so much for alway encourging me really appreciate it though it still never work out. Well you take care of yourself too and have a nice day always.

To khas: Well I must say sydney is not bad, if we can minus away the littering part it would be beautiful. Even though it quite boring here as there is not much entertainment and also they closes early as early as 6pm or 7pm. I must say there is no night activity. Drinking perhaps got but I don drink so I really don know haha anyway how about you ? Must be also enjoying your school life right?

No mood day

2006-11-13T19:50:00.000+08:00

Well yesterday was our first month anniversary, and I made my dear waited for a long day and finally at night then got a chance to chat with her. In the end we got a tiff and it like I als don know how to face this problem I am having. It not that I don want to be bothered with her, it not that I don care about her, in fact I really do but all she sees now is my words only, actions wise by chatting online would be show how much affection I want to shower over her? I am not insensetive I know what is happening around me and I alway do but what could I really do to make her feel better? Now she is angry of me and not choosing to come online, so I think some might say ya he deserve it man, who ask him to ignore her in the first place. Well come on people at the side shouldn't butt in with your own views man, it alway easy to comment from the side, but when they are in the game, or whatever then they would know ya say is alway easier than done, it alway the actions are the hardest to prove what we said. Now perhaps I don think she will be reading my blog, she is infuriated now, I just want to tell you, I know how you feel how sad you are, how much you wish I could do the same for you I not trying to use the distance as an excuse , but I trying to tell you, now it really hard, there are insecurities around us, I trying very hard to make you feel comfortable but sometimes I just don find the time to do it doesn't mean I feel you are less important or anything, please don be angry anymore I really love you lot.

I found this video on youtube accidentally and my "brother" is inside so decided to upload it to my blog haha enjoy .

A nice mtv

2006-11-08T21:59:00.000+08:00

Well saw this mtv on my dear's site, seems like a very nice and touching mtv so I decided to post it here. Well school started for some time , initally was still alright until like now haha tons of homework coming my way, exams also coming my way presentation also come my way. What the world coming to ?

For people wondering who is this guy, I think he is cai ming you come from where basically I also don know perhaps he got famous through I guess a taiwan variety show. He seems like a school kid a high school kid.

Tag replies:

-dear well glad you enjoy eating the cake. Must take good care of yourself and don alway stay up late!

-nic thank you I know I will

-khas ya sort of if you consider studying with stress a fun thing to start with haha

-evilgui basically I tried asking you in a chat room, I don know why you never reply me in the end jeff is in the chat so he ask you after I ask so many times you never replied you replied him. Well what more can I say ?

A memory

2006-10-23T18:25:00.000+08:00

Well was looking through a friend's blog and by subconciously her blog make me remind back of a friend. A friend who because of misunderstandings decided to step away from my friendship. This up to now is still a mystery anyway it just a feeling I got so writting it down here. Anyway been 2 weeks school passed well I must say for now is still begining perhaps still can relax a bit think the hetic work will start from next week onwards ba. Anyway after I reach sydney, a rls decided to start for me, I guess it fate that brough her to my side. I am quite happy but it really do come at the wrong time. At a time of unexpecting time and not readyness.

She was one of the girls I like before but during that time got rejected by her and got hated by her. That time was like one of the hardest time to pass however I manage to live through then now she appeared infront of me again and this time willing to know more about me and wanting to start even though she knows of my past. I must say it been one that I been looking out for thanks for appearing by my side though it abit late but I am still happy you came. We even started our own blog perhaps will spend lesser time on tihs blog and more on that.

Tag replies:

sweetamy85: Well nothing much happening in my life, got a gf back in singapore that the latest update I guess. Well hello and welcome to read my blog. Hope you enjoy your stay.

A new life

2006-10-14T19:04:00.000+08:00

Well been over here sydney since 021006, it been a week plus and still feeling very tired. I guess two hours of time lapse really is getting to kill me. Anyway school started last week with orientation and offically started lesssons this week. I must say studying a whole new thing is not easy but I will try my best. Hmm a new life refers to my life as a whole new not only because of studying it also refers to something else. This I shall not elborate too much first haha when I am back shall tell you all anyway a friend told me to do this:

Hmm I never know I look like takeshi sorimachi haha anyway quite happy finally I have found myself a reason a really strong reason to believe in and also most probably I would be going back not staying here for good. Unless something else triggers if not I would really want to go back singapore.

I been wondering how come why has it to be like this only when I am overseas then it happened best of all it really is unexpected I really at the lease expectations that would happen but it did. Anyway I don know how much to believe in but hopefully this will lead to somewhere.

-Amy85 Could you please kindly tell me who you are ? I really have no idea who you are and thanks for wondering into my blog and comment on it. Although you can choose to remain unknown but I would really want to know who you are someone I know ? or just a passerby.

-Nic Thanks for the encouragement I really appreciate it , since we know so long but we hardly contact eacth other well anyway all the best in your teaching career and I believe you can be the next GTM lol .

-evil gui To your reply I really don think it would be yingbiao cuz he won't come into my blog and pose as a female besides I never give him my blog add unless someone gives him. Anyway the results are there you can have a look haha.

Overseas studies

2006-09-07T22:07:00.000+08:00

Well looks like it confirm already finally it confirm that I will be going overseas to study. Today paid the school fees and misc fees so what is left now is only the visa application and booking of air tickets. The application for visa will only come after confirm of the place in insearch. That would roughly take about two to three weeks then apply visa do medical checkup and I am ready to fly over to sdyney.

Now I have a question for myself to stay over there or come back to singapore. Well needless to say I will surely miss my family and friends here but I really don know should I just go there and don return or come back and find a job here. This is my thinking only for now not confirm weather or not to stay there maybe as I fly over there I shall decide again. Hai there are some memories which I don wish to rethink back however running away does not solve the problem. Anyway as I said after I go over there I shall decide again hopefully my conclusion is not staying over there.

The three weeks work at polyclinic I must say is not a bad work. I really quite like it there although in the end I can't stay for another week or two but I really enjoyed myself working down there. Offically ended my work on 4th sep really can't unbearable but I guess all stories should come to an end. The ending maybe good maybe bad depends on how you look at it. I find it quite fun and enjoyable there the boss is good if I never go overseas studies I don mind applying full time working down there, anyway this is really a very memorable memory and shall be with me that I won't forget.

The job although quite simple teaches the elderly how to get the correct que number teaches me how to communciate with people. Chatting with people and find out all sort of interesting kind of people. There are impatient kind of people who when you want to teaches them they just don listen and give you attutide. There is nothing much to do but smile back at them. There are complain kind of people when you offended them then you get a complaint. There are nice people also who when you talk to them they listen to you and willing to learn. Lastly there are people who try to ignore you or answer you back questions like I ask them: "are you here to see a doctor?" They would either ignore you or reply you: "If not here to see doctor then I come here to see you is it ?" Those kind of stupid answers. Well to those we have to explain why we have to ask you those questions and guide them to get the correct number.

Actually after working there I found out that I can go as long as that and without flaring out at them. If in the past I would have reacted differently guess I really have change. Anyway what is past I hope it shall be over, I don know how long you are going to treat me like that but if it forever then so be it I guess nothing can be done. I wish all the best to everything you all do. Friends that know me be it reality or virtually I wish you all the best.

A question

2006-08-27T10:17:00.000+08:00

"Can I ask you a question? Why is that the feeling you give when you type the blog is sad but when I get to know you; you are not?" -Crystal

Oh well with regards to that question ask by crystal who is fai's friend, we happen to meet up with jeff fai and her for a simple meal last night. The answer to that I afraid I also don know maybe perhaps when I type is the time when I am full of emotions and maybe that time is I think too much. Alone tend to be like that I guess, and actually if I am around with my friends I won't show but does not mean don have just that it not there only.

Anyway nothing much to say , still working at the polyclinic can still have to wake up 5.45am from monday to sat. It quite a tiring job though but I don find it hard I think maybe perhaps I like such customer service job. Get to interact with people and talk to people and attend to their needs. Ya there are confirm people who are very bad tempered very bad attutide. However through them only then I know myself. It like they are a mirror reflecting different sides of people. Getting to know that will help seeing my true self I guess.

Too bad it only three weeks, and the next week would be the last week. I got a flu cough and sore throat at the second week and looks like I am spreading to the staffs around the counters haha. The staffs keep on urging me to see a doctor well I refuse so it dragged. Now I am feeling better already let hope it will be keep that way.

Lastly I must say last night dinner is really rewarding finally we get to know the true reason why fai is being poor. He claims to be poor because we play mj and win his money however there was a different story told by us through crystal. Muahahah finally the truth is out but then for his privacy I decided to keep that converstaion to myself and the three people around. Don say I not good ar fai I don go around spreading your "good" deeds. Please fai if you are reading this I need you to know. With regards to being special right, whatever actions you do is very important. It not like I say it you understand it and apply it straight away. It not maths or whatever so. It like how you deal with things I know you are like that can't possibly have you to change to suit everything. At lease the very lease you can do is perhaps show more attention to her and instead of all those non relevant people around you. Chasing a girl is not necessary to have good terms with her friens. Being friendly with her friends is alright you can get information easily but then don forget where is the line you must cut at. Well hopefully you get my point and hopefully you learn the correct way. If not you will need to take a very long detour to finally understand what I trying to say. Well then all the best hopefully when I come back I get to hear good news from you.

Lose again

2006-08-10T19:28:00.000+08:00

Well it been some time since I last updated my blog, bascially don know where to start. Ok let start from my work. I believe I should haved work at woodlands some time started on 280706. However decided to quit after working 4 days. Alot of people ask me why I quit, actually the job I don mind doing one at first , after the decided to end the other guy's contract then I have second thoughs. Well I carry on the fourth day then found out the job really getting tough without him, so I decided to quit the job. To make a long story short, it like storeman work and without the other guy I cannot survive. A few days earlier I got a call from the same agency told me that there is another job at a polyclinic located at bukit merah. A bit unexpected cuz I though they will get piss for me quitting so fast. Anyway accepted the offer and start work next week monday.

Today manage to finish watching Fate Stay Night, I have to say it a very good animation and should be highly recommended to see. It really has a nice story line and plot but the ending is quite sad though. Anyway if you all have not known about this anime, please go and download and see it for yourself. You will be hooked as it really is a nice animation about fighting and abit of romance.

Well lastly maybe my luck is running out, the losing streaks don seem to die down and continue on. Last winnings of 26 in the end have to fork in 4 more dollars to the government for a summon ticket. Well maybe confidence itself is not enough, I put too high on confidence already. Luck should at lease stand 70% in the game, 30% will determine how you manage to avoid letting others win if you know the key to blocking.

Alex is back

2006-07-29T22:35:00.000+08:00

Yeah finally alex is back, wohooooooo after his return made up of mind already. Recently started work on thursday at charted semiconductor, well it not bad actually though the pay is quite low but anyway it not doing for long so might as well. There is this guy who worked with me really said some very good advise to me. Well after listening to his wisdom I suddenly think back. The reason why I am so stress up is all because I can't think out of the box. After I know the reason why I am stress up I relax up alot. And yeah finally the mj losing streaks are over, feeling so relax while playing mj and I win over 26.50. The decision making is way dragging too long, I should have made up my mind earlier. I will stay down in sg and made my studies, that way can save money and don need to worry about bank loans. Well I actually told her I will be going overseas maybe that time is confusion time and I never think properly. Firstly then I think I should made an apology to her, and finally I think that issue can be let go already. Well I don think she would be reading but just to update I deleted away her blog address so I won't be reading up on her life anymore.

Although it sad but I guess that is the best way, I think I can return back to who I am already. Confidence which I lost I think is back judging on the mj winnings I believe I have regain almost 90% maybe there is still a 10% lacking cuz I still believe I am very lucky kind of guy. So the remaining 10% shall be my luck haha. Well finally the decision is made I shall stay in sg and study in SIM. Thanks alex for coming back and finally made me made up mind wahaha. Still as humorous as ever and still the same you alway have interesting stories to share. Your real life story if really you write out a book I believe it can be the hottest thing in town you know? Lol well all my pervious entries are so alway so sad and dull.

I shall promise the next entries and the rest of the entrie you all read shall not have any sad entries anymore. Negative thoughs come due to inconfidence and lack of faith in myself. I alway feel so inferior last time but come to think of it why do I alway think that way. All the past experience I get is just a go through I should learn from it and improve my life instead of making it even sadder. Life itself is already tough why make it worse right. I think I truely has let it go, but my stand is still there, if she is willing to be my friend back again I won't reject. A friend I know or whoever is my friend I truely treasure them.

Today is crystal birthday and also her birthday well I would like to wish both of them a very happy birthday may all their wishes come true. Crystal birthday celebration sounds very good will be at a high class resturant eat . As for her I don know but I believe her family sisters and friends would give her a very good suprise birthday celebration. Crystal birthday present I bought her a frame with her name as holders clip below the frame and her picture being washed out by kodak through friendster haha. She don mind it though and glad she like it, well then today seems like alot of people's birthday so common.

I guess that it lah next entries I assure my blog won't be so dead and so dull and of course won't be so sad also. I truely sincerly hope all the best to her and hope she can stay as happy as she is.

2006-07-26T07:27:00.000+08:00

Your Deadly Sins

Greed: 40%

Pride: 40%

Wrath: 20%

Envy: 0%

Gluttony: 0%

Lust: 0%

Sloth: 0%

Chance You'll Go to Hell: 14%

You'll die in a castle, surrounded by servants.

How Sinful Are You?

Well that shows I am not that sinful right ? haha 14% only. Well to make things short and simple cuz I don want to say more and make more mistakes. Maybe it the way I phase my words which end up make the matters even worse. I shall not say anymore on that matter and hope she would be happy as she is. Maybe I should not even appear at all, maybe it sad to lose a friend, but if losing it make her feel more comfortable so be it then. I guess this is the best way and yes I know and I will do it. So in the end I am the bad guy right, everybody just scolds me, for I am messing her life. Why her comments hurt me, sigh why explain when no understanding is there for me? I don want to say anymore on this matter and yes I don want to be bothered any more. The more I try to save a friendship in the end I cause a bigger hole to it. So just because I am a virtual friend I can't have my emotions right, ya grow up man I should have grown up. I don get it what has that got to do with growing up? Sigh I should have just leave her alone in the start. Maybe that would be best or maybe I should have contacted her back constantly instead of so long then contact. After it my fault. Nothing to say le don wish to say anymore wait I get the blame again. I understand everybody wants to protect her, so just let me be the bad guy then.

To the anonymous

2006-07-24T00:07:00.000+08:00

To the anonymous

Actually I am glad you actually do come in and read my blog, but I do hope my emotions don affect you too much. You have the rights to do what you want, you can avoid me I understand and I have let it past. Of course I also have let it go, I never blame you or anyone for your actions or so. I don wish you to feel remorseful over what I have written. What I write is how I feel at that point of time, I seriously still treat you as my friend, but well if you really still feel uncomfortable talking to me then take your time. Well since you write a post out that shows you still care as a friend which I am already very happy.

Well it like maybe I think too much also, I also is a sensetive guy who been through alot of things which made me like that. I can tell by the actions of someone and roughly know what is going on. So since you choose to aviod me I can understand and I never blame you or anything. Yes it do hurts but it over please if you are reading this I hope you could get what I trying to say. No matter what happens right I still treat you as my friend I do hope we can still be friends as we are in the far past.

Is it too hard to ask ? I really don wish to lose you as a friend, whatever decisions you made I will respect it. Guess like that how many sms I send also you won't reply. It alright then I shall not contact you for the time being until you have sort out your thoughs. As for the studies thing, I really can't make up my mind as yet, so many things has happened. It made me feel so lost suddenly well I shall be fine maybe perhaps the next entry I shall conclude my decision.

Speechless

2006-07-23T00:07:00.000+08:00

Well I guess I am being blocked by someone, some things are best left like that I guess. I don wish to ask or do anything any more. Everyone has their own choices, guess just have to recognise fate ba. Today guni msg me asking me how come gui and jeff got drawings on their blog and why I don have. It like I have no talent in drawing and maybe plus also abit of lazyness. Yesterday went to gui house play mj, finally ended my losing streaks however win not much. The whole week been going down sim lim. First on last sat I went to sim lim to buy a graphics card. Which after buying found out that the board don support so go down second time on wed again to change and my brother in law ask me to buy him a winning eleven 9 game plus ps 2 converter and controller while going down to sim lim and change.

The things I bought the game and controller works however the converter spoil one connect to computer but usb port don recognise. So in the end go down third time again on friday to change the thing uncle like know it long ago it spoil so willingly change for me.I am suspecting that he going to rewarp back the spoil one and sell. Before going meet fai and gui at lot one to eat, and we saw yuhua. So long already never see her feel like she has shrunk or something haha. After the change go gui house play mj. Reach home on sat morning 3 am and finally the converter works hurray. However brother in law's brother is also quite interested in the game and the converter. Well maybe there is a fourth trip down to sim lim ?

Lastly I think maybe I have been not my self lately and during all these years I like a changed person. Well I really hope to find back my old self and not be bothered by what happening in my life. I seriously say this and I shall abide by to it. I believe most probably I will go overseas to study yes the bank loan will kill me but without a push there is no motivation and when there is no motivation I can't excel. Guess I alway been so relying on others it time to stand up on my own. I believe I can do it but I shall wait for more confirmation before I offically say out what my decision.

Brain gender test

2006-07-13T18:03:00.000+08:00

Your Brain is 47% Female, 53% Male

Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female
You are both sensitive and savvy
Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed
But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve

What Gender Is Your Brain?

Hi well saw this on a friend's blog and have a try. Well hmm I can't believe that I have such high percentage thinking like a woman. OMG don't know whether is it so accurate haha. Maybe because I got three sisters at home got a bit of influence haha.

Anyway decision made by mom, she wants me to go overseas study for one year and see how. For she feel I staying in sg will alway be playing games and won't concentrate on studies. Well I can vow I will study hard even though I stay or go overseas. Well does not seem convincing right. My personal thinking ? Well it would be good to go overseas and have a new experince. I will consider going overseas study.

Zidane heatbutt

2006-07-11T00:47:00.000+08:00

The world cup fever has ended yesterday morning with zidane spectular headbutt into metarazzi. Well serisouly I don understand why he do that, even though whatever actions or speech he has provoked he could have bear with it. Afterall so many years of soccer already he can't bear with it ? Maybe he really want to show the world how good his head must be. Who knows maybe now metarazzi has internal injuries already. haha anyway as expected italy win the cup without zidane and henry france has to go to second placing congrats to italy for getting the cup and amzaingly the keeper buffon never let anyone score a goal expect for penalty and own goals. Seems like world best keeper title is really not for show.

Well give it some thoughs but still can't decide about staying or leaving. Most probably I will be staying or maybe last min I might change my mind again. I wish to escape from here and maybe enjoy the peace for some time. Hai anyway further updates will post here again.

I should be happy for her

2006-07-10T00:40:00.000+08:00

Everytime I read her blog I will have alot of emotions. Well just read finish a friend's blog, maybe I should be happy for her, as she find herself a new bf already. In her blog she wrote it herself although not saying she has a bf but it quite direct already the phasing of the words. I remembered she said she is single but not available and won't be thinking of finding bf so soon. Well I guess her fate is here faster than she has expected. What else can I say ? hmm other than happy for her I can't use any better words to express my feelings out. This weekend she claims she is quite free howevever she never think of meeting me, maybe that a sign of indication I should be looking out for. Maybe you all will say she it just slipped her mind, it alright as I said I am just another normal ordinary person and I will remain that way.

Maybe I should not have called her back that time at camp when I am doing my boring COS duty. Tonight I really has nothing else to say, no words I can find to describe how I am feeling now. I feel sad, disappointed the day I looking out for will never come. Hope itself is just a word not powerful enough to make things happen, actions itself although not a word maybe powerful enough to make things happen but actions with no luck will be like hope no it will reach no where.

I having second thoughs about going aust, partly is because I want to stay in singapore with my friends, maybe part of the reason is her but I guess it does not matter any more. I thinking whether should I just leave and go overseas study maybe I will feel better ? Or stay down here and study and get myself a new computer? My next entry I will tell my decision.

Lastly Whatever happens, I still wish her all the best as for the presents I guess just fated to be lying in the nicely wrapped box. Maybe I will keep it with me as a momento from japan.

So the miracle don't exist

2006-07-08T02:28:00.000+08:00

Well portugal didn't even manage to put a scrat on france, well let just say france are really lucky to have that penalty. Anyway the fact that it lost still means miracles don just happen. I believe it will happen for a cause surely but don think it will happen on me. Lately been down on my luck, mj losing streak. If this carry on I guess I have to think of some way to increase luck. Well it really been very long since we just chatted.

Virtually she disappeared, in real life the last sms was like on last saturday that that when she explained why she never come online. Well I do believe her however I really wish to have a chat with her maybe online or perhaps a small meeting. Sigh I guess I just have to let nature take it course.

Sigh I don know what to say already and why my bit torrent is like taking forever to download finish on the longest journey 2. It like taking forever one day I been out and it just move a few percent. Hai nothing is going smoothly for me, where has all my luck been to ? In the past I could have alot of strange things but good happenings to my way. Ever since out of army my luck is like been used up already no more. What the world coming to man is it the end already ?

Anyway I shall wait for the miracle to happen but hopefully not after I went to aust then she begin to feel regretful that she never make time for me. Anyway maybe I will sms her before I fly off to aust, hopefully she could fork up some time to meet up. You all may think why am I so concern over the meeting ? Well let just say it a long known but forgotten friend which just keep back in contact. I don wish to be lost again hai but I guess I am just so ordinary won't leave any impression in anybody's memory. Maybe when they flash back they will see a boy standing in the background so far away so vague they won't even make it out who is the boy. The boy no matter how he waves his hand still remain unseen. I guess that just the fate of the boy.

It been so long

2006-07-06T02:21:00.000+08:00

Well it really has been very long since I last chatted with a friend, ever since she started working she disappeared from the virtual world. That it gone like that and also she claims her msn spoil even though she did come online but she won't be using msn. Hai nothing to say, read her blog seems like she is doing well and enjoying well also. I remember asking her to meet some time in june well she did give the go light but work disrupted all and hence she don seems to be free to meet up. Serisouly I am not angry or anything but it like before I ORD I got ask around the long lost friends to meet up. All say can but in the end busy with stuffs hence it pushed away. Well not that I asking too much right for some of your time, perhaps it like that I have to live with it. Well planned to go aust study and went up to a agency I shall not named it here to protect their rep. That agent looks honest and kind but in the end he is out to cheat my money. He make me go through 4 years so he can get more commission what is the world coming to. In the end make me go down IDP and reregister everything. Waste my pervious time and efforts everything and have to redo. Will keep me informed when the process is done. Sigh the others don want to meet me I don mind but I really wish before I fly I can get to meet her. I guess that is a wishful thinking besides I really doubt she read my blog even though I ask her before do she reads and she replied yes. I also doubt she will sms me to arrange a time to meet up.

I really hope can meet up some time in auguest or sep just before I fly is it too much to ask ? I know I know I should not be wildful she has her choice so I shall respect her then. Even though she do reads I highly doubt she knows I am referring to her. Sigh my present for her still in bag wrapped up nicely waiting for it's owner to come collect it. Perhaps it is fated not to be given away perhaps hai why am I so emotional tonight. Maybe because I finaly know something which hurts in some way but I will get over soon.

Ya ya I know I don have the looks, don have the height even though my family is well off I also don have the money. Everybody thinks hey he is a rich kid staying a big house, however my mother don want to give me pock money she thinks I should go out work and earn it myself. Yes yes everytime she sees me at home alway nag at me and yes she do refuse to give but I alway ask for meal money so she relunactly gave so it like miserable 20 to 30 bucks ? Yes I know how come I am such a failure, perhaps I should be left this way. Whatever I should just suffer in silence would there be such a day she will arrange to meet ? Well if port manage to win france I shall believe in miracles and hope it will happen on me.

Quote I read from a book:

逃避现实所耗费的代价，常远高于面对现实所要付出的心力。
我们必须先学会接受现况，才能找到解决问题的方法。

Death note

2006-06-29T00:49:00.000+08:00

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Taken the quiz at a friend's site. Well finally ORD on the 18th collect IC on the 19th well too lazy to update so never write anything here. Well nothing much to update will be looking out for part time job. Two days ago I flash my DS finally can dl the roms from internet and play hehe.Together with jeff we dl and let play together yeah. For the past few days someone there is someone I really wanted to chat with never come online. I wonder is it because the work load is so much plus WC so that why never come online. Anyway hopefully get to see that friend online soon. Today also went to katib mac find jill pass her the present. After that nothing much she carries on studying and go back home with a million thanks haha Lastly come back from japan been having strange stomachache and bleeding. Only today the bleeding stop I guess it too hot plus constipated I though for a while I going to die of colon cancer haha anyway I am still alive kicking so don worry I am alright.

Back from japan

2006-06-16T22:15:00.000+08:00

Well just come back from japan trip today. Hmm most of the time is walking around seeing sceneries and taking pictures of it. Bascially not much of a shopping only manage to shop for some toys and cds. I bought presents for gui and fai,for gui bought him a hard gay figure toy set. It quite funny cuz the guy will be in a container and you will have to poke him with knifes. Bascailly there is one vital hole when you put in he will jump out means you get his vital point. Haha guess he will like it cuz he alway see hard gay haha. As for fai I bought him a figure which represent money. Guess he needs it more than we all do cuz he is like intending to support a family already lol.I also bought a perfume which is number 1 ranking at the place one haha I buy for huiting. For Szesze I bought her a music box set, it shaped in a crystal like thing with a rose inside. It will spin around slowly and there are lights shinning inside it quite pretty I guess she will like it. However it battery operated so will be a bit costly if she ons it too much. For Jill I bought her a figure which represent love. The rest of the guys right seng, jeff don worry I also buy you all something. I most probably will bring tomorrow if we are playing mj. Oh ya bascially the places I went are not much people so meaning I don get to see alot of girls that a sad thing however when I do see, it like out of 10 among them 3 to 5 are quite good looking. Anyway that all hokkaido can go if you are out for seeing flowers sceneries. However if you are out to shopping type I would sugguest going tokyo that would be better. I also taken pictures so will be posting in friendster once I get my hands on the pictures from my sister.

Lastly the day I come back is the day szesze go bangkok. Well looks like have to pass her when she come back. As for the other girls will try to find time to meet up then pass them. Friends don worry I never forget you all tomorrow if meet I shall pass to you all. It quite a wonderful trip actually minus away all those long tiring journeys to a place. That it forks will update again next time.

Japan trip

2006-06-10T18:26:00.000+08:00

Yeah today going japan with my family and my sister's husband family. Well and some relatives also going. Well going to the trip is good but have to miss World Cup sounds like guys will be more sad then however I don watch soccer that eagerly so it does not effect me that much. Well a few days ago fai and I went to the bukit timah market there and eat dinner. Searching for place to sit happen to see a friend terrence a camp mate. Well he was with a girl so I presume it his gf mah then he introduce her to me is his wife. Then I though he must be joking since he is the joker type mah so I never take it serisouly until when I chat with him online then I know it the truth. Well was quite a suprise haha he alway seem to be joking type of person suddenly tell me he married liao abit unbelievebale untill went to friendster see his engaging tape. Haha that really a good one terrence well sincerly wish you all the best. Anyway today going to hokkiago well not going tokyo abit disappointed but nevermind I guess the place hokkiago also has it good points I shall go there explore of cos not explore those you all know lah espically gui. I will be away from today to next friday so it 10 to 16. Need to find me or anything please e-mail to my mail box iori56@hotmail.com. Well all those asking for presents one most probably will miss it cuz I can't check my e-mail lol. Anyway lastly jeff finally got his M3 adapter yesterday and went to kaiyan house test. I bet he must be very happy to spend 228 to have unlimted games played. I thinking of buying it also maybe I go japan see how if it exp then I come back then decide again.

Fairy whoever you are thanks for the console I would appreicate it if you could tell me who you are. The ones who play mj with me are countable however he claims is not him so either he is lying or you are lying.

Jill Well it like we are chatting on phone that day so I don wish to make you feel miserable cuz it not your fault. So I choose to keep inside me hope you can understand that. Well don worry I am fine already.

Another sad conversation

2006-06-07T00:44:00.000+08:00

Well this happen to one of my friends. He told me that he got someone in mind and he don know whether he should carry on liking her. So I ask him why he hestiate he told me she just broke off with her bf and the bf is like cheating on her. What cheating on her is like making me boil I don understand why is there guys out there who don really cherish their own gfs. It like not everybody has fate like that. Fate don come easily but it goes like fragile glasses. Hai anyway so I told him yeah that good at lease you should be able to stand a chance. He told me no he is scare and somemore she don even know him well yet and also he is not bold enough to express out his feelings. So then I encourage him telling him hey don give up hope man just take step by step you can do it . Then he told me he tried hinting to her like asking questions. Indirectly it refers back to him of course he ask it in such a way that she never suspects anything. Then the answer he sort of gets is not very postive neither is it negative it like stuck in between so he don know whether he should carry on or not. Then he say he feel inferior because of all the past exp he got. Well then he sort of like me have a bad past so I told him hey man what past is past don let the past affect your future decisions. If the past is going to hinder and affect your future then it a wrong cuz past is mistakes meant to be learnt and do better in future. So whatever he goes through he should not take it and presume it will happen again in future. Whatever happens now then will affect the future so meaning present now is what of past happens. Then it up to one to choose again in now to make the future better.

Oh well I can't help him much because it up to him whether or not to listen to me,I however wish he can make it. His wish is to bring the gal to MT Faber to view the sights together with her. I sincerly wish him all the best hopefully he can made it.

An emotional conversation

2006-06-04T17:16:00.000+08:00

Well for the past two days my internet connection is down, as I am typing this post does not mean my connction is back yet. I just happen to be using it at fai home oh well the guy from singtel will only come on tuesday it like telling me there are errors almost everywhere you need to book a timeslot for the guy to come down. Hello how am I going to know when the error going to start hai nvm. Anyway last night was chatting with a friend, I was mentioning something about her blog pictures that there is a quite a pretty girl xiaoqi inside. And she told me too bad she is attached already, her bf is 1.75m tall and she herself is 1.66 like that. It like she is still complaining for the height that he is not tall enough cuz when they hug she rest on his shoulder not the chest. So the feeling quite of not very feel protected. Oh man that really strikes me to thinking again. It like oh man must a guy be really tall then he can protect her gf ? So does that mean being short is alway at an advantage? So short people will not be able to protect her so efficiently right. So that why girls will perfer her bf would be taller. So the though of that makes me feel like ya I am going to be fated to be alone. Someone may say hey don give up hope there are shorter girls out there ya I know but would she also want taller guys ?

Yesterday after hanging up with her was feeling so sad that I tried calling a primary school friend.Actually wanted to ask her some questions but never manage to because she sort of find that I am unusual so trying to hide the fact I never tell her so I continue a another kind of convesation with her. In the end I tried calling my dead sect huiting she really feels I am not right but she is on phone so I tell her nvm after she use finish then sms me lor. In the end I sms and tell her about how I feel. Although she is really trying to console me I really appreicate it but does not seem to help at all. I never did tell her totally what happen she only knows part of it anyway I told her I will be fine so ended the message.

I really keep on thinking why am I still existing and living I even though of dying at one point of time. However dying does not solve my problems at all but I feel so miserable I wish someone could just come and help me. However the problem can only be solved by myself. Hai sometimes it really a pain living like that but I will carry on.

Can't sleep

2006-05-17T04:50:00.000+08:00

Hai don know why I can't sleep, now blogging in the middle of the night or so call morning 4.48am. Oh man what happening to my sleeping habits, recently been like that I guess I thinking of too much stuff lately. Maybe it time to rely on some pills to make me sleep. Finally after today tomorrow thursday I shall start clearing my leave and yes I won't be returning back to camp until my ORD date. Finally I can feel the date is coming I can feel my pink IC is calling out to me. Nothing much is happening just hope time can pass faster.

A touching story

2006-05-13T22:43:00.000+08:00

Some time back I receive an e-mail I think it in poly and the title is what I put here. As the story goes: There was this couple who love each other very much how ever the girl's parents keep on objecting to that relationship because they feel the guy is a poor guy who can't even support himself how is he going to support their daughter. However no matter how strongly they object, still can't affect the love between them. The girl under so much pressure alway ask him how deep is your love for me. The guy who is not good with words just replied with words very normally like I do love you very much. She feel very sad but upon seeing him that he is very sincere she still remain with him even though how much her parents objected to it. Then one day the guy graduated and decided to study overseas and before he go he tell the girl he will love her forever and ever no matter what happens his love for her will never die and finally ask her will you marry me. The girl got so touched she cried and she agreed to marrying him. So before he left he engaged with her but before they can do anything, her parents come in and strongly object so they told her if you want to marry him , we will disown you. The guy who was around at the spot heard this. He get very upset but he never give up he told them that after he come back from overseas he will give her a good life and he swear to god in front of them and begging them as he do so. Afterall they are humans, and they do have feelings so upon seeing what he did they finally give in and give them their blessings. After a year has passed their love never seems to die down and they manage to keep in contact through phone calls and writting letters even though the going is hard but they never though of giving up because they truely love each other. While he go oversea study she found a job and work there. So one day while she is walking along the pathway a truck seems to be losing control, due to the driver feeling drowsy the truck give way and went into the pathway hitting her and she suffer a head concussion as she hit her head against the ground. She was sent to the hospital and the doctors operated on her. When she regain her conscious she saw her mother and father beside her. She tried to call out to them and telling them she is alright but she can't. The doctor say the vocal got injured in the crash and she will never get to speak again in the future. She was devesated after she recover from the injuries she discharged and go home only to find that it a torture. She can't speak and she felt she is a burden to him so she decided to break up with him and even write a letter for the breakup together with the ring returning to him. The guy not knowing what happen try all means and ways to communicate with her however to no avail. The number of phone calls he make make her feel even worse. Every call is like pierecing through her heart. All she can do is cry and cry, her parents upon seeing this decided to move house so as to stop all communication the guy can do to find her. After moving house, she miss him very much but since she already made the decision so she decided to try to forget him. Another one year has passed she manage to learn hand signs and one of her friend tell her that he is back already and he seems to have really succeed. He come back wearing a suit seems like he is a head of a company. She was very happy for him but at the same time she don wish him to know of her accident so she request that don let him know. Her friend agree to help her keep the secret so after that there was no more news of him. While reading the news one day she saw him on the cover and as she carry on reading she got dealt a blow because the news show that he is getting married. She told herself ya I will be fine afterall someone else should take care of him instead of me I won't cry but tears just flow down uncontrollably. Then she think of the past promises he made yes he made it big but I guess he has forgotten me already. After the accident she work at a hand sign home then as she go for work the manager hand over a wedding card to her on it writes the guys name. She was suprise how come he manage to find her and even ask her to attend his wedding. She cried when she receive the card, the manager signal her not to cry and read inside. As she read on she saw the name of the girl is herself. She got puzzled as what is happening then the guy walk out and appear infront of her. He use hand sign to signal to her that I been learning hand sign for the past one year just to communicate with you. I made a promise before that I will give a girl good life no matter what happen to her and marry her take good care of her and that girl is you do give me a chance to be your voice I love you . After that he put back on the ring on her finger. The gal smiled and hugged him.

Ok I do modify abit but the point is there.

Treat every relationship as if it is the last then you will know how to give
Treat every moment the as if it is the last then you will know how to treasure
You control your FUTURE, your DESTINY. What you think about comes about.By recording your DREAMS and GOALS on paper, you set in motion the process of becoming the person you most want to be. Put your future in good hands?- your OWN."
Not yesterday's load we are called on to bear, Nor the morrow's uncertain and shadowy care; Why should we look forward or back with dismay? Our needs, as our mercies, are but for the day.

Lastly true loves will only come if you believe and put an effort into it, those who never put in effort and go after her because she is pretty will never ever get the love he wants. What a girl want is reliable guy who they can hold onto not flirting guys. To all the couple in the world may it blossom into a beautiful flower.

A new month

2006-05-01T11:30:00.000+08:00

Yeah finally it may, getting to may means it nearer to june which is my ord month. Finally after so many months of suffering finally it all coming to an end. Just pray hard that time can some how pass faster. Recently nothing much is happening a boring week has just pass. Weekend also nothing much and the game I bought of winning eleven 10 it just can't work on my PS 2 but somehow it work on the uncle's shop. I wondering is it some kind of magic? Serisouly my set right is quite old but quite steady so far there is no games I buy can't be played. I trusted that shop tampiness because it never give me any fault so I seriously don believe it the set problem but the game disc. However I can't prove it spoil, I just don know what happen hai just my luck I guess. Anyway maybe I don intend to but anymore, will take note of other shops around so I can go exchange for my spoil ones haha . Lastly fai exams are coming to an end and that means my leave starting to clear very soon, it a very good news indeed. Finally can don stay in the boring camp, how i wish I can get my ic earlier.

End of the month.

2006-04-30T12:51:00.000+08:00

So fast april is ending, today is the last day of april. However one guy he just has the power to spoil my day. I also don know how in the world did I make an enemy out from him. Hai forget it the more I mention the more boil I get. Anyway my blog skins I did get some help from my friends. Forgot to give them credits for that haha. Well thank you so much candy, thank you zegui and thank you jeff for all your help. Sigh my tummy is getting bigger I need to do some exercise ba. I shall do so running very soon. Yesterday buy three new games and one of them cannot play looks like have to go back and change. Lastly I guess it time to stop playing mj for the time, I shall wait until shuyan come back then I will play again. MJ losing streak does that mean love streak is coming ?

A new skin

2006-04-29T18:36:00.000+08:00

Yeah finally done in doing my skin, well the pervious skin fatal frame I find it too plain and too bright, so I choose another dimmer one and most important of all I choose kingdom hearts as the background. Actually I have another better in mind but however I can't use that skin which I also don know why. Well ock ar seriously it just slipped my mind that you are a MAN U supporter, yes although we know so long yet I never bothered to try to understand you at all.

Actually not that I purposely do it I really just happen to forget it. Hope you don blame me ok, I sincerly apologise to you already in msn but you choose to ignore me. Am I really that ungrateful in your eyes ? I also can't blame you or what for thinking that way but do try to understand me also mah. You also never bother to tell me anything so I must be very observant about you, your every move, your every speech should I take a note book and jot it down ? I seriously treasure you and everyone around me as my friends. Please don take that incident so seriously.

Anyone also want to be recognised, I trying my best to but is there anyone out there doing the same for me ? Hai is there anyone truely out there try to understand me? Although there are close friends around me but how much do they understand me? You know so many friends out there I do trust alex the most. I do trust them my close friends also but alex is different. He seems to understand more about me and he is the only one who can help me solve my problems. Yes I do feel bad for alway finding him when I am in trouble but I have no choice.

Lastly I change my tag board to a brand new one host by cbox. So now the board is empty looking forward to the tags.

Just another day

2006-04-27T17:12:00.000+08:00

Well sometimes when I review my life I know what I thinking is negative side, I know it not good but sometimes I just can't control it. Ya even though everyday I can be like laughing myself out but still negative side will come back somehow. Yes I know I trying very hard to control it but to no use. However don worry it not the end of the world yet so far I am still fine. The most stay this way or I will be happier that all. Everyday is a new day, a new begining for me. A view of the sunrise can be beautiful or ugly which depends highly on one person's mood while looking at it. So let say he is in a foul mood and he so happen to be looking at the sun rise, he will be saying the sun rise is not at all beautiful. However if at that time a person with a good mood is standing beside him, he will replied differently. Two years ago I got to know this girl who is my ex stead, well recently she just broke up with her bf. Then only a few days later she told me she find herself another guy already. So I was wondering and ask her how is he like. She told me she don know, and she is like trying out with him only. So now is it because she is too young that she don understand what is love ? Or because she feels she needs a protection against her own feelings that why she choose to test out that guy? For me right I feel why don she get to know him more before getting committed to him? Isn't that the more correct approach to relationship? I fear she will get hurt again if not it the other party. I being too impulsive that I accidentally hurt her in the process of trying to make her understand my point. Well then I did apologise to her in the end but still the problem does not solve and I fear the misunderstanding will deepen so I give up in trying to make her understand my point. So now love values are not worthy anymore, or is she just too young for it ? Whatever is the case I should not step in anymore it her relationship afterall. Lastly living through my 24 years of life I feel I still have not grown a bit yet. I feel I still like I never grow up. To tinkerbell thanks for tagging my board and yes I don deny challenges coming to me, and I know my fate is in control of my own hands. Maybe I just have not tried hard enough, if I myself don want to stand up no one can force me to stand. From where I fall I shall pick myself up don worry I will be fine and maybe stronger maybe it time to destroy the cassette tape already but I still can't put it down. I shall consider again then.

Nothing special

2006-04-23T22:24:00.000+08:00

Well today is another boring sunday, stay at home whole day watch drama serial. I feel now my life is getting more and more boring although just yesterday went out with jeff, zegui , lianseng and yingbiao to eat at marina south steamboat. As usualy our choonfai never turn up went out to study. I still don get it whenever I ask fai about the question about him and her, he alway tell me like it not possible stuffs like that. Then he come up with funny question like how to ask her, then what if she agree to him. It like the feeling he is giving me is that he worries alot of factors. Ya I agree it also depends on her whether she got the feeling or not. Then ask how is possible to tell whether is also she interested in him. I mean more or less right he should know it. Hai fai ar if you are reading this , I can tell you that you are just feeling inconfident. Put in some trust and faith in yourself and believe that you can do it I am sure you will make it. Yes she is not an item correct but if you keep on holding back and back you surely will not make it. In life is like that isn't it ? Miss the train that it you never get to board the same train with her and ride together. However I can go around telling this and that but I just can't seem to apply it to myself. Maybe I wish not to see another poor soul like me so I hoping everything can make out for him or infact my friends around me. Everybody is like the main charactor I am just like a support charactor alway at the side or behind hardly being noticed. I guess that is just my fate for being short. Or I am just being punished sometimes I really hope I can just be another person I hate myself and I really do for being so useless, no talents at all only know how to play and a guy without any good points. Why I feel this way I also don know but all I know I have to live like that and maybe it forever who knows. I wish to change my fate but can I really make it ? I highly doubt so.................

Oh no it today 20th

2006-04-20T10:28:00.000+08:00

Well finally reached 20th of the month, and yet I still don dare to do anything. I could have tried calling last night but I never yes I admit i am a coward. What to do it not that simple as you all think it is. Like just a give call can be how hard, never try how I know. I don need to try I already know the outcome. Am I deciving myself ? Am I really going to make it ? Or am I really degrading myself ? I just feel lost vex don know what to do. I really really would like to give a call and just get it over and done with but I just can't dail that 8 numbers. Oh man I guess it fated I should have given up earlier. Yesterday was listening to 933, one phase really get into me, why not try letting go, you will feel happier that way. I guess that really suits me.
And1 madness is really driving me crazy, I even bothered to e-mail the customerservice yet I never receive any reply. So I take it that madness extinct together with the dinsouars some time ago although the time difference are so big but they suffer the same fate. Well maybe there is still a miracle I just hoping for that. Maybe I can find it somewhere in singapore. Oh man please let me find it .

A tiring day

2006-04-17T20:25:00.000+08:00

Well today is my Dentai FFI was suppose to go at 1200 cuz the FFI is at 1330. However something happen which make me and the others to go at an earlier time. Well now is the ording period so we CPL are like so free as there is nothing to do we went to sleep. Then when I really get into the slumber mood and fall asleep there come pop out a guy don know from where just walk in and stand beside my bed. And he really can't see that I am sleeping and carry on asking wah what are you doing ? Sleeping ar ? I guess he must be totally blind or half blind to not able to see that I closing my eyes lying down in the bunk bed means I sleeping if not means I am dead is it to him? I mean he just come in and come out a ruckus nvm then go take down the names of the guys sleeping. Then interesting he walk inside and he saw a x-box and a guy was playing with it. He carry on wah can play x-box ar who give permission and everything stuff then he say he will want to confiscate it and even have the guts to say hey tonight we can play x-box lor and so happily like he found gold.Then he say we are not suppose to play. So now we are not suppose to play nor sleep what do we do ? Sitting around in bunk and rot ? Then I forgot to mention who is he, he is an officer on duty. When he wake me up right I was thinking who the hell is he was going to scold him due to blurness I never scold him so quite lucky there. Well anyway before that he go to other bunks and also wake up them and even have the cheek to tell one of them wah don want to ord is it ? What the hell, he want to take name just take lah don need to come out with such attutide , the face also you see feel like punching then my friend he got so angry that he keep on talking about him. And because of him, makes us leave the place earlier for the FFI. So we went to jurong point and eat early lunch. Then that guy wonderfully spoils all our mood for everything. All my friends all speak of him lor, actually we though of bring out the x-box so maybe the fate won't be confiscated or what then a guy come up with an idea that hey why not keep in the cupboard then never tell us what plan he want to use. So when the officer on duty call asking where is the x-box, naturally we just say it inisde the cupboard and everything. Well the guy wanted us to like say we take it but he never before hand tell us anything how are we suppose to know. Anyway the x-box fate is confiscated in the end. After the FFI the guys wanted to go orchard and everything since I was driving I was thinking of whether to go or not then one of them ask me you want to go home is it ? I do feel like going home to settel some stuffs but I feel bad mah they just say nvm lah put them at the nearest mrt then they take mrt go there lor I feel so bad. Anyway going home after sending them to mrt I went to home and started to search online for this basketball shoe call AND1 madness gold colour. Well it seems like it a limited edition or something I just can't find the shoe at all so sad. Well I even went down to JP and ask for it they also say sell finish already. Well though of finding the shoe because one of my friend she left the shoe on her locker and when she go away for a while come back the shoe just disappeared so it like the shoe is kind of old and used and there is actually someone who want to steal it. What the world coming to man or the cleaner mistaken it for rubbish and throw away hell just because it not lock it does not mean it belong to the rubbish bin mah and the locker is like 2m high I can't believe it that she will want to reach there and wah I found rubbish and just throw it away. My friend kind of like the shoe very much even though she has a new one but it not madness and she hope she can find back or buy a new madness so I hope can find one and buy for her. So now I even went to the extend to send an email to AND1 hopefully they will reply me soon.
Anyway that officer is really really irrating and really really getting on other people's nerves I wonder how he manage to get to OCS in the first place. Maybe his acting is good , even his peers got bluff by him and he totally change. I can't believe it hey man if you are quailify to become an officer don forget how you manage to climb there. He come catch us is under orders that is ok with me but he don need to come in and come out with all sort of words lah want catch just catch don need to give us such attitude one like wah sleeping ar wah I can play x-box lah wah you don want to ORD is it and all sorts of crap from his mouth. He really makes me boiling hot make me not enough sleep.

Getting old

2006-04-15T00:19:00.000+08:00

I can't believe it, 14 is my friend's birthday and I actually though it 16 I mean I can't be wrong due to my memory last year around that year 16 I did indeed give her a present or did I really recall wrongly. So sad lor until when I chatted with her then she say it her birthday on the 140406. I really damn embrassed lor I mean I really treasure her as a friend and I really tend to make an effort and even plan to give her a present but end up back fire. Well this time I going to remember it at 14 so next year I won't make the same mistake again. Anyway I hereby would like to wish DOR a happy 20th birthday. It is belated though but anyway may all her wishes come true and to her exams lor hopefully she can get the grades she worked so hard for. Lastly on the 15th I will be going over to her house well giving her a belated present and deliver her favourite food. Eh you all must be wondering why I treat her so good, she is not my gf though haha anyway she is can say one close friend I have some time back. Well besides it for her belated birthday so ya that it. I thinking of changing my blog skin kind of like quite boring and dull. Maybe I will change to something interesting. I shall ask my friend for help.

20th is coming

2006-04-14T05:20:00.000+08:00

It been don know how long already since I last blog maybe I am feeling tire, maybe I feel there is nothing much to write haha. Well blogging don seems that interesting anymore. Besides I am a boring person that why I feel that way I guess. Yeah finally completed my Kingdom Hearts 2 at around 430am. The last stage really took me about 2 hours to fight that stupid boss, after the credits roll as I was playing proud mode I get to see the secret ending. As not to spoil the people still playing I won't mention about it total playing hours took me 40 hours plus plus with level at 65 mummies at 14000++ with my ultimate weapon. There is this optional boss Sephiroth he is really one tough optional bosses. I never manage to defeat him yet, and he has this very cunning move whereby he just dash pass you, you will surely die or left with 1 hp if you have the ability that is. If you manage to survive it then he will slash you with his long sword and the range is like very long so it sort of like cheating and his life bar I believe it is full life bar with like 9 slots below it. So whoever wants to have a good challenge can try that highly recommended if your level is like 80++ I think if not you won't get to survive his attack. I even at level 63 go also struggle and cannot make it. However I do found a way to fight him, since there is a pattern however still it don always work and his combos if it landed on you that it. Bascially the whole game plot is really not bad considering now that you can get to use mickey and changes from before some worlds in the KH 1 got removed but added in some new worlds. Disney perhaps is just too big to have all his charactors fit in just like final fantasy also cannot have all their charactors fit in. So they choose the important ones. This new KH 2 finally have yuna and auron added in. So bascially final fantasy x and final fantasy x-2 charactors not in KH 1 come into play. Yuna, rikku and paine. Alot of new features added in example is the form changing. I personally think it a great improvement however summon get lesser only four. Chicken little and stich also join in as summon charactors. Chicken little is like so cute and funny when using it to fight. Overall I would rate the game 5 stars out of 5. Seriously those who play part one is a must to buy part 2 cause it is really great.
Lastly 20th of this month is coming, every time whenever it reaches that day make me feel so emotional what is worse I can't even express it out. The day seems so important yet I can't do anything about it I feel so sad so useless. Maybe I should try to forget that day ever exists. Anyway HBTC even though I know it won't work but still would like to publish it out. Reading my entry I guess you all will feel puzzled but don bother to ask me what does HBTC stands for cuz I won't explain. Till next time I guess don know when will I feel like writting another entry again. Well how come I still exists it a miracle you know.

Chinese new year coming

2006-01-26T08:46:00.000+08:00

Well as usual chinese new year my unit will never get to celebrate wrong my company will never get to celebrate it. Deployment as usual even though the men are going to ord they still want to burn the new year hai. Damn sianz anyway I guess this is going to be the last two duty on sat and sun and it over. That it out of the window and never come back. Anyway went to friend's blog and taken a quiz below is the answer.

You are a fairy.
You're very wise and fair, and are very cautious

when it comes to meeting new people. But if

you feel they're worthy, you'll keep and

respect them forever.
Fairies are known for their hard outsides and soft,

warm insides.

Mythical Creatures
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Well that it I guess nothing much to say my life as usual never get to have something good happenings around. Anyway one of my good friend known as fai looks like going to have a gf soon. Well I hereby sincerly wish him all the best. Love is a very strange thing it will just happen without notice, so if it do it means your fate is here. As for me my fate I guess it will take a very long time.

A NEW YEAR 2006

2006-01-02T20:10:00.000+08:00

Well so fast it a new year already, yeah can't wait for it to reach JUNE. I counted as of today 020106 I have left about 168 days to ORD. Well one more deployment to look out for then the guys will be ORD then will left only the CPLS. I wonder what will happen to us. Anyway hopefully by then nothing much will be coming our way. Anyway been not blogging lately as I don know what to blog about. Recently my friend intro me to this show call Numbers well it about a famous mathematican who use maths to solve crime. Believe me I am stun equally as you are.. It really fascinate me really. I serisouly will intro this show to whoever is reading my blog.

Well a new year requires a new interface so I won't be having quote of the day anymore well maybe run out of it haha. Anyway just to wish everyone a very happy 2006 year and hopefully everything will turn out fine for this year.

It been a long time

2005-11-27T00:20:00.000+08:00

Well it been a long time since I write my blog. It like it stopped on my birthday maybe I am too lazty to continue writting. I went to taiwan on the 231005 and come back to singapore on 161105. Went to taiwan with the army and all I can say is not vety enjoying. However I bought 4 rare YU-GI-OH cards there converting to singapore dollars one will like cost around 12 however they are all in jap that is the bad thing however. Anyway my deck I hope it already stronger and hopefully when I duel I won't lose so badly. Taiwan trip first week was like very long but the second week pass like bullet so fast. Anyway suppose to have one week of hoildaying and it is already getting to an end so soon. I suppose time passes very fast when you are enjoying stuffs. How I wish it can still go abit faster I can't wait for 2006 june to come and that shall be the end of my sufferings.
Today is my cousin 21st birthday celebration although the real birthday falls on 281105 however it a weekday so she decide to brough forward to celebrate on a weekend. Bascially saw a few of my cousins and it like they are growing up so fast and quickly I can still remember them as small kids. Sigh I am getting older and older that is not scary if I have someone to company me walk through all these however I don have and it kind of like scary.
Sometimes I really envy Evilgui now maybe he is already attached so happily envolved in a happy relationship and that fai. I suspect something haha although he claims to be a friend friend I think it more than to the eye. The only truth is he know and she know that all. Anyway I just would like to hereby wishes them get what they wanted and indulge in the happiness of the ones they loved. For fai I really not sure just but still hope to see him find the other half though.

Quote of the day: Love don needs a reason, if you need to find one then you are using your mind. If you don then you are truely using your heart.

My birthday

2005-10-06T22:44:00.000+08:00

Yeah finally it 061005 le, well so fast it my birthday. Initially planned like meeting up with my friends, well in the end all cancel le. Nvm lor then evenning went out eat with my family plus my grandmother since she was staying over at my house so might as well go out eat. Basically today was quite boring day nothing much happening. Everybody birthday like very spectular mine is very dull haha anyway my primary school friend I guess as for her the best is stay down for the moment. For the time being I don think I will be smsing her, maybe will sms her once in a while only. Every year birthday is alway the same nothing special. How I wish I really can spend one birthday with just the love of my life . I wonder when will that ever happen .

Quote of the day : Be strong and stand up when you fall, only by own strenght to stand up, he will understand the pain of falling and won't repeat it again.

One more day

2005-10-05T21:04:00.000+08:00

Initally when I was surfing one of my friend's blog I come across this. It is quite funny too please read:

When you occasionally have a really bad day, and you just need to take it out on someone, don't take it out on someone you know, take it out on someone you don't know.

I was sitting at my desk when I remembered a phone call I'd forgotten to make. I found the number and dialed it. A man answered, saying "Hello." I politely said, "This is Chris. Could I please speak with Robyn Carter?" Suddenly a manic voice yelled out in my ear "Get the right f**in number!" and the phone was slammed down on me. I couldn't believe that anyone could be so rude.

When I tracked down Robyn's correct number to call her, I found that I had accidentally transposed the last two digits. After hanging up with her, I decided to call the 'wrong' number again. When the same guy answered the phone, I yelled " You're an arsehole!" and hung up. I wrote his number down with the word 'arsehole' next to it, and put it in my desk drawer. Every couple of weeks, when I was paying bills or had a really bad day, I'd call him up and yell, "You're an arsehole!" It always cheered me up.

When Caller ID was introduced, I thought my therapeutic 'arsehole' calling would have to stop. So, I called his number and said, "Hi, this is John Smith from the Telstra. I'm calling to see if you're familiar with our Caller ID Program?" He yelled "NO!" and slammed down the phone. I quickly called him back and said, "That's because you're an arsehole!"

One day I was at the store, getting ready to pull into a parking spot. Some guy in a black BMW cut me off and pulled into the spot I had patiently waited for. I hit the horn and yelled that I'd been waiting for that spot, but the idiot ignored me. I noticed a "For Sale" sign in his back window, so I wrote down his number.

A couple of days later, right after calling the first arsehole ( I had his number on speed dial,) I thought that I'd better call the BMW arsehole, too. I said, "Is this the man with the black BMW for sale?" "Yes, it is", he said. "Can you tell me where I can see it?"asked. "Yes, I live at 34 Mowbray Blvd, in Vaucluse. It's a yellow house, and the car's parked right out in front." "What's your name?" I asked. "My name is Don Hansen," he said. "When's a good time to catch you, Don?" "I'm home every evening after five." "Listen, Don, can I tell you something?" "Yes?" "Don, you're an arsehole!"

Then I hung up, and added his number to my speed dial, too. Now, when I had a problem, I had two arseholes to call. Then I came up with an idea. I called Arsehole #1. "Hello." "You're an arsehole!" (But I didn't hang up.) "Are you still there?" he asked. "Yeah," I said. "Stop calling me," he screamed. "Make me," I said. "Who are you?" he asked. "My name is Don Hansen." "Yeah? Where do you live?" "Arsehole, I live at 34 Mowbray Blvd, Vaucluse, a yellow house, with my black Beamer parked in front." He said, "I'm coming over right now, Don. And you had better start I said, "Yeah, like I'm really scared, arsehole," and hung up.

Then I called Arsehole #2. "Hello?" he said. "Hello, arsehole," I said. He yelled, "If I ever find out who you are..." "You'll what?" I said. "I'll kick your arse," he exclaimed. I answered, "Well, arsehole, here's your chance. I'm coming over right now." Then I hung up and immediately called the police, saying that I lived at 34 Mowbray Blvd, Vaucluse, and that I was on my way over there to kill my gay lover. Then I called Channel 9 News about the gang war going down in Mowbray Blvd, Vaucluse. I quickly got into my car and headed over to Mowbray. I got there just in time to watch two arseholes beating the crap out of each other in front Of six cop cars, an overhead police helicopter and a news crew.

NOW I feel much better. Anger management really works.

Well before I read this, I was quite upset over something. Today my primary school friend just give me an sms telling me hey I am sorry tomorrow I can't meet you le, my bf don like me to go meet guy alone. Before that he was fine with it maybe it because I don like he looking at other girls that why he also forbid me. Besides he is also confused whether he should react like this. Well I should be alright one and beside he is her bf he has all the rights to react like that I don't blame him. So I told her don worry, he has all the rights to do that, he should not feel confused or anything. Basically I also told her if his bf really worries that much maybe I will cut down on my sms with you and maybe once in a while just msg and see how you are doing. I am sad not because of her bf or because she never meet me tomorrow for my birthday. I am also confused how should I react to this. Today while going back home this problem was in my head all along and even my friend was asking what happen why you are so quiet today not like you. Bascially I am thinking how should I react to her? Is smsing her lesser really solve the problem? Is being a friend with her also too much to ask ? Or do I really have some feelings for her ? I really don know what is happening. Maybe I should feel happy since she has found a bf and maybe I should not disturb her anymore. I am thinking is asking a friend with her too much to ask ? Hai anyway this year birthday I guess I am going to spend it in a very low morale. Even though my close friends will celebrate with me I still don't think I will get over this. Anyway I really hope she is happy can le. I don wish to ask too much, if there really is such a need to break off contact well I guess I will choose it. Anyway back to the above. While feeling sad I read that and I actually laugh out and I feel so much better. Well Thank you so much trixy for your blog to have such an entry. Even though I know you won't be reading and you also don know I am Less I just wish to thank you that all.

Quote of the day: Don't even anger woman, you never know what you will get.

Three more days ....

2005-10-03T20:44:00.000+08:00

Hai, it seems like my birthday which is just three days away but no one seems to remember. What is worse no one seems to be free whenever I try to ask them come out on my birthday. Well it like let say they don know it my birthday, and reject my request of going out on that day because they though it just another normal day to them. Oh man so is it that I must say let it my birthday could you all mind coming out with me on that day ? Must I ask it in such a way then they will go out with me? Why can't it be like trying to ask them come out on a normal day ? I mean well no one remembers it my birthday nvm but at lease company me go out for one day also cannot ? Is it too hard to request for an outing. Sigh I guess my birthday will be another lonely one, spending it with my parents and some close friends of mine only. Sometime I wonder what is my purpose of my existence ? Do I even exist in other people's life at all ? I don blame them, I don blame anyone maybe I just have myself to be blamed for all this fate. Well you can say they don know your birthday mah ya it like must be it my birthday then yeah let go out on that day ? Must it be a special occassion then they will be free ? I don want it this way, and I also don wish to go around saying hey it my birthday let go out. Nvm whoever is reading this shall never and ever understand the feelings I am going through while typing this blog entry.

Quote of the day: For someone who is alway smiling in the face doesn't actually means he is very happy at all.

Sad Fate

2005-09-28T23:05:00.000+08:00

Well manage to get back in contact with a primary school friend. Eh quite a sweet girl, long time never see her le still as young as ever haha. I mean fair ba. Anyway heard from her that her six year relationship just ended. Well to break off from a six year relationship must be very painful. Anyway now she has found a new bf le so happy for. Initially when heard she got a new bf do feel a bit sad, can't even sleep on that day man. But come to think about it I think I am too confused my feelings over her or overall of my love life. I guess fate is cruel to me only so after I sort myself through I manage to find out that ya I am sad not because I have feelings for her but worry that I won't find a gf. I also truely concern for her as she get involved so easily in another relationship scare that she will get cheated or get hurt again. Hopefully that bf of his really knows how to treasure her. Really really don wish to see her cry again. Well bascially nothing much but that today my DYOC come up with unreasonable request. He wanted 600 pieces of data keyed into a system and it be done by this friday. Obviously it is not possible any human in the world with a brain can think will tell you that. Hai I don know why he give that command out and wants it done by this friday. I guess this friday is my doomsday. Most probably if you all read the news and it says of one guy commit suicide then that guy most probably will be me. Although I also hope it won't happen to that extent and most probably I won't let it happen but anything can happen. I just hope there really is miracle to help me in my work and my love life. Sometimes I wonder and I really scare of seeking another relationship because I will worry would she mind my height, and so on and so forth. I guess I really can't take another blow when the rejection is any one of those. I guess even nice guys who just can't make it really won't make it I am just one perfect example.

Quote of the day: Stress is a form of pushing oneself to attain higher standards. The rightful amount of stress will produce great results, hence the opposite of it of cos will be disastrous.

xian jian qi xia chuang

2005-09-19T16:59:00.000+08:00

Well today just manage to finish watching the whole series of xian jian qi xia chuang. Actually my friend did bother to burn for me but I just don have the time to watch it. Until when I was on duty on sat then one of guys in camp brough the whole set to watch it. And I watch a few and after that one day sunday book out go back home I started to watch the rest and manage to finish it by today morning. This show comes from the popular game and although I already what is the ending like but still can't help feeling sad when I seen the ending cuz I though they would have tried to change the ending to something good. Well I was wrong, both the female lead actress died in the end leaving the main guy lead behind not only that his friends who was helping him also died. The ending was so touching that I can't even control my tears sigh. Although some parts are so draggy but overall if you have played the game I think you will also enjoy this show.

Quote of the day: Love can be a very great thing and motivation to keep one alive going on, but it can also be a very sad thing if only one of the lovers is alive.

No title

2005-08-27T10:43:00.000+08:00

Hai I really wish to be that close to you as in the past we did. Looks like nothing can be done to revert it. Besides you also never read my blog even if you read you also don know who I am referring to and I will take the first option. I feel so sad though. After entering army I feel I have lost alot of friends. Friends that once chatted with me so much that once care so much. It all changed after entering army. What has happened? Is it they have grown up and change? Is it I am still young at heart I still have not grown and mature? What is wrong with me sometimes I ask myself. I wonder why suddenly I feel like I am so childish and feel like I never grow at all. Am I alway complaining alway whinning ? I wonder what is the purpose of my life in this world ? I feel so useless to anything, can't even do my job well can't even get any recognition in anything. Even going to the working society I feel I will just cannot make it. I wanted to do something great but what can I do ? It no longer about trust or faith it about one self capability. I know I don have it I just know. Yesterday went to ntu meet a friend and attended his lecture psychology. The lectuerer then started first speech on one of his friends, and bear in mind that it a true story. He say his friend was kind of a big size and alway have chest pain. So he was recommended to see a doctor. This doctor at first diagnosed him and found out that his heart was perfectly fine and see no reason for the chest pain, so the doctor then concluded that it some illness beyond his knowledge. So that guy though it some kind of will die illness ask him how much longer can he still live. Well he replied maybe 6 months since he also not sure what is it exactly. Then the guy left knowing that he has 6 months of life left , he live just as usual. Then when the fifth month comes his chest pain was so intense that he has to lie on the bed can't move at all. So he was refered back to the doctor who seen him but at that time the doctor went for a 4 months vaccaction so he was referred to another doctor. This doctor then went through all the records and found out that his heart was in perfect condition and there was no signs of showing he is going to die soon. But one thing is very puzzling while all this ordeal was going on, what he lost was only his weight and nothing else. He cannot find any logical explaination for that and told him to go back home and take a good rest. Well after about one year, the guy was seen lively , drinking and enjoying his life to the fullest. It was very puzzling why, so ask him and he said well when he heard that he was about to die, he couldn't eat anything much, so hence he lost his weight and all those chest pains was from the causes of all those unhealthy food he consumed before. So now he is perfectly fine now with no chest pain and control well on his diet he lived on. So now we know that death is one power word that inflicts fear in someone. When someone has fear he will surely lost his appetite and hence lost weight. Well can say death is one good word to make one lost weight. Maybe should have tried that on gallen and he won't be needed to go operation and won't be at home mcing to now.

Quote of the day: All lifes are the same, as long as it is a living thing , then should be treated equally.