A new year 2011 is here, so many people got so many new year wishes. I wonder have they already achieved their last year goals ? Everytime we watch those science friction movies or dramas they alway protray that 2010 is a world of advance technology. We can see those high technology buildings, cars which can fly and all those cool gadgets. It already like 2011 yet the scenery never appeared. I wonder when would the sci fi become sci fact.
According to michio kaku a theortical physicits , he wrote a book which is known as physics of the impossible. Inside the books he discuss the possibility of tecnology which can be happened in theory but to make it practical would take thousands or years or more to make it happen. A very nice book to read on if you are interested in time travel, spaceships etc.
Back to me my new year resolution is to find a better job and look for the girl of my dreams. For the job part might happen but for the girl part might take very long I guess. Don know why is it taking so long perhaps I don have the fate to meet her.
Currently I am back to wow again, yes it happened again. The deathwing is just too tempting to make me go back. Might review for 3 months and then decide again whether to continue. I thinknig of trying out DC online too it looks fun but just don have the time to play.
Nothing much is happening in my life lately so nothing big to update however one thing I am happy about is I manage to find back a long lost secondary school friend which is a good way to start the new year. I will update more on this when I have more things to add.
Quote of the day: To give up is easy, To perserve is hard. Walk the hard way eventually will be more fruitful to walking an easy way.
Jimmy stop typing at 4:57 PM
Well it that time of the week again , exams arhh I hat exams. Tomorrow is Applied Company Law which is like all theory kind of questions. Well good thing is that you can make your own notes and bring it into the exam hall. Hopefully my notes would really help me through.
Looking on the bright side 3 weeks later I will be back in singapore even though that I should be feeling happy but still something is missing. I wonder when will I feel whole again. I don know why but I feel like even though I can buy PS3 , buy anything at all I still won't feel happy.
Recently some of my friends tired the knot, like lian seng is one of them, really happy for him even though I can't be there which is quite sad though. However glad that he has finally settled down, and congrats to yuhua too. Well even though not very close to dawn but still I also heard she got married, and guess what her husband propose through a blog. Well you all must be thinking how can that be possible , well he did it and it quite good too. The way he wrote and stuffs oh boy I guess got to hand it to him. I keep on seeing people all around me settling down, now left mi, shuyan and cheekuan not attached. However I am pity sure they will also be faster than me to find a gf and settle down.
Well not that I never try going after , but I guess I am not their cup of tea. Recently I was like chatting with some of my gal friends and found out that their prefernce for their bf are actually that they need to be tall. One of them actually said ya we gals really prefer and like tall guys. Another one was saying that as long as not shorter than me can already. Another one is like insisting must be tall. Tall or short is it really matter ? Is your love built on the height of that person ?
Jimmy stop typing at 2:56 PM
Hey guys guess my blog is getting rusty for so long I never update. Ok first of all you all must be wondering what have I been up to. Alot of question mark on your head ya. So this blog entry is Q and A session:
First question: Hey Jim what up haven't seen you online or update in your blog.
Jim: Well I am very l lazy to update before and after exams in june I began to play back on wow hence for the whole 2 months rarely come online to msn and chat.
Random asker: Oh you play wow ? Can you tell me what is wow ?
Jim: It just an online game call world of warcarft by blizzard. It sort of a very good time waster and highly recommended if you are really free and nothing to do. You do have to pay though.
Random asker: I see, so in the world of warcraf how does it work ?
Jim: It basically like any other online games, there are 2 fractions which is alway on war with each other. Among the fractions you can choose a race to be and then after that choose a class. Races for Alliance side you can choose to become human, dawarfs, gnomes, night elfs and draenei. For horde side you can choose to become orc, troll, tauren, undead and blood elfs. Then you can continue on choosing what you want to be, warrior , mage, shaman , rouge, paladin, warlock, druid and hunter.
Random asker: So what did you choose ?
Jim: Oh I choosen death knight , paladin, mage and priest. The highest level you can reach is 80 which only attain on my death knight.
Random asker: What is so fun about wow ?
Jim: If you ask me actually I find that wow got this player vs player system , so if you are not on the same fraction when you see each other. You can just attack him regardless of your level. Wow also create dungeons and raids for players to group together to fight bosses. Dungeons are small raids are larger hence dungeon requires only 5 player and raids require 10 or 25 ...
Random asker: So When you started and who brought you in ?
Jim: In my army days one of my CQ he is inchage of store, and he recommended me to play , I played at first and tried the trial but I find it boring cuz it all abou questing. Until after army I met april she sort of recommend me to go in again. This time I went in and played with her and her friends hence started the adventure.
Random asker: Well do you really like the game ?
Jim: Actually I don really mind the game, but then what I hate about the game aspect is that people tend to look for good geared charactor, and if you don reach the standard you can't join in the fight. Hence I feel so left out and worse of all you join a guild hoping they could run you but end up they do their own stuffs leaving you to do everything by yourself.
Random asker: Sounds like the wow community isn't really friendly ?
Jim: Not really perhaps it a new group of people I met, actually one of them is my friend, this guy luwee help me alot hence very appreciative of his efforts.
Random asker: Ok enough of wow I guess people are more interested in your social life, so is there anyone special in your life ?
Jim: Well I aren't seeing anyone right now, still single as suggested in blog homepage. Not that I don want to update it, it there is no one for me to update. Tried going after a gal but end up it didn't work out.
Random asker: Oh gosh you are still single after so long ? I don believe it.
Jim: Yes it is , look like I am fated to be a loner.
Random asker: So how many more years to finish your studies ?
Jim: By next year june hopefully everything can worked out.
Random asker: So what makes you suddenly want to update your blog?
Jim: Actually you see it all about feelings and the right timing. Today I feel abit emotional and wow is on maintainance so I am free therefore here I am.
Random asker: How your uni life so far?
Jim: My uni is very boring, everytime I go to uni is just for lesson and then go home everyday same routine. I don have much friends in uni too which is very similar to wow isn't it lol..
Random asker: I can't believe this how could you have no friends ?
Jim: Well it is a fact, I don have much friends in uni, perhaps I aren't that next door wanted guy and I don talk much.
Random asker: Alright then so last question your wow has a time limit right, so when is it ending ? Do you have any plans to extend ?
Jim: That is a very good 2 question, first of all it ends on sunday and I really want to extend but then I find it no point in extending because I can't join in any raid and been going to dungeon only. Sort of sick of going into dungeon hence still considering whether to extend or not.
Random asker: I see alright then till next time let have this Q n A again ?
Jim: Yeah I don mind, when I have the time, and if anyone has any questions feel free to post at the side of the chatbox. Now before I go I have to ask this who is this random asker ?
Random asker: .....................
Alright then people that what been happening to me, and for some tv news updates. People who are catching fringe, house and doll house, they are coming back in september with fringe on 16th of sep, dollhouse on the 17th of sep and house on the 20th of september. The long awaited and one of my fav is stargate universe, that is coming in oct it about time too so excited so many shows coming back. Alright guys till next time...
Jimmy stop typing at 8:13 PM
Hi people I touch down at sydney yesterday night at 7.45pm after going through all the customs and finally came out, I saw my uncle and cousin at the airport waiting to pick me up. My cousin is quite young and got his license when he is like 17, well I was sort of worrying when he is driving me back to his home. His dad my uncle is beside him supervising and I believe after months of practising I think he should be quite stable now. Anyay last night when I reach home around 9 don know why I am so damn tired, afeter bath and watch Korean version of metoer garden I went to bed at 11pm I think singapore time is like 8.00 pm. Must be time difference I wake up in the middle of the night arhh need some time adjust I guess.
Anyway today I went to westfield shopping center did some shopping and buying my wow game card. After I reach home I got this very tired feeling and needed some sleep. Hence I took a nap and I guess I must be really missing her so much so that she even appeared in my dreams. Well I can remember cleary that she was talking to me something about her work, and she was like saying she is very busy with her work and needed some chicken essence as she is alway staying up late in the night. I being in the dream quickly offered that I can send it over if you want. I got her smile that all seriously speaking that is enough lor I am quite happy already too bad it just a dream. I wanted to talk more suddenly I heard my cousin calling me zhihong hey zhihong in my dream how come got my cousin appearing out of nowhere I was quite puzzled then I wake up to find that it my real cousin calling me to go downstairs to eat ice-cream. Arhh destroy my dream with her I wanted to go back sleep and hopefully can dream of her again but this time it never came. Sigh next time I should tell my cousin I am sleeping please don anyhow call me unless it emergency.
Actually through this dream I can say I really can't just get over her, and I believe would even take a very long time. I also don know why I have such strong feelings towards her, in the past the gals who rejected me all along I could just walk away but this time I don think I can do it that easily. Sigh shall concentrate everything on my studies first hopefully all my attention can be diverted away.
Jimmy stop typing at 8:11 PM
Well finally the wait is over, I am now in my lowest peak. Today my temle friends ask me to have lunch with them. Initally was just plan to have lunch with them and dinner with my secondary school friends. However don know what happen the dinner plans was cancel and I spend the time with my temple friends instead. After lunch my temple friends suggested to go one of the guy's home and sing KTV. He bought a set and has transferred over 300 songs. Before we start I went and check my e-mail and the reply mail is finally here.
Before I can check the mail they come out and because the system require the computer hence I can't check. I was like thinking all on the mail and not really concentrating with the singing. They see my oddness and enquire me what happen and such then I told them I need to check the e-mail. So the owner say I can stil check while they sing because the system isn't affected even though I am checking mail. The e-mail reply is just as what I have expected feeling sad is all I have. And I happened to have choosen guang liang's song di yi ci and before I sing that song my friends all know I don't sing very well. When I started singing they was amazed like what happened to me how come I suddenly so good in singing that song. I also don know what happen when I sing that song I just go by the flow and when I reach the chorus part, I think my emotion is up to the limit which I can't really control tears began to fill my eyes. I trying very hard to stop it flowing out but it still did.
Well they started to joke about it to cheer me up, they also never really expect me to sing that well in the first place and then to be so emotionally singing they say alright they know it the first time cuz I was singing first time. Anyway back to topic perhaps I just meant to be a friend only, all I can be is only a friend. I don want to be just a friend only.
Even though I know what the outcome already but still I can't stop feeling sad, 2 more days and I will be leaving here, hope all these sad memories would not follow me.
To sweetamy85: There is no one beside me now, currently single as of yet again. I really want to treasure if I got one. Perhaps I aren't meant to have one, it just seems so impossble for me. No one ever understand why I am looking for her, everyone just think I am just trying to find anyone I see or grab. This is not really true all I am looking for is having someone special to company me. I believe everyone is also looking for that, maybe I seem like trying very hard that all but doesn't mean I am just anyhow looking for one and tackling anyone I see. I don hope everyone would understand me because everyone got different views and comments and I also don really blame them for not undersanding me. As for me now I guess rls just isn't going to happen to me in any time soon. When people ask me how many gf I have before I tell them 5 and they was like saying you got gf before mah how come still so hard in looking for one. What they don know is that my gf in the past didn't really share any memories with me, they are abit like virtual dating or gals which didn't really appeared by my side when I needed her. So all in all I don really have a real relationship happening in my life. I wonder y some people fight to surivive and some people just want to end their life. When I look at the people fighting from the disease I am blessed because I am still alive and when I see people ending their lives I am sad because they give up their life too easily. Everything in life don't just happened, it happened for a very good reason, I will have to take some time to sort my thoughs out.
Don worry people I will be fine and if it isn't meant to be mine, no matter how hard I fight she also wont be mine. I just wonder when will she appear...........
Jimmy stop typing at 9:58 PM
I believe this is really the longest wait of my life, I can't help but prepare for the worse case secenario. Seng I read your blog, thanks for the advise but I believe there are gals who aren't so $ orientated. I though for once I have found her, but look like it just an illusion.
Thanks sweetamy but I guess no matter what I do , I still will end up where I am. Hai don know what else can be done or say maybe a simple thank you is all I can show to all those who cared for me. My right gal seems so far away that I can't even reach out to her. Maybe your right guy isn't as far as you think, just be hopeful and take your time in finding. I believe you will find a better one than your last.
Jimmy stop typing at 8:46 PM
Life is alway so unpredictable just when you think there is no way out, another path would open up for you. It just a matter of whether you want to walk on that path or not. Why show me the path only when the time is running out, just like showing a candy to a dying kid. It makes the kid happy but can't live long to taste the sweetness. Hai since it has to be this way then so be it, go with the flow and hope something good would come out.
I been having some dreams lately and how I wish I could just sleep in forever and live in that dream. It is really the perfect world that I hope to have but couldn't get in the real world. If only my dreams will become relality I would forever be so thankful and appreciative of what I got in my life. My world is still so incomplete I wonder when can it ever be a whole.
Anyway replying to the tag boards sweetamy thanks for the console, I will try to live strong and happy. As for what you has said you broken off with your boyfriend last year and reason being his friends don like you so he break off with you. Seriously speaking I think that is a very lame excuse, I think when 2 lovers met and when they are meant to be together no matter how diffcult the situation is , eventually something can be made out. Afterall you are dating him not his friends or someone else, what matters should be solely on you and him. If there is no problem between you 2 but because of friends then cause problems then I must say the love between you 2 aren't that strong. Well at lease it is good now that it is discovered rather than later if not will be even harder and sadder than now. If drag longer would even take a longer period of time to recover and while recovering you might even miss the chance of meeting the right guy. If a guy really likes you, he shouldn' care about what others look at him or look at you. Other views or comments shouldn't matter. So my initial comment still stands, no matter even though now you got rejected but then don forget you are still choosing your future bf, so only time can tell a person charactor and such. Hopefully as time goes by you can observe who is being good to you and eventually stay by your side all the time while you are sad or down. I don know is there such a guy but just saying it in general hopefully you would see such a guy soon.
Jimmy stop typing at 12:41 AM
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